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Finishing the call with Randeep, i take a deep breath... To decide suddenly and dialing his number instantly was easy, but then.... Then how to ask, i mean that this call is for asking are you doing okay or not... It was not easy... It take a while for me to bring the topic of his fractured leg out.. untill i ask about tomorrow's interview session of us together, how we'll manage time and stuff like that... Though we Just had finished our most awaited Instagram live for dil tujhko chahe, still there were interviews lined up... I kept on talking with him about how's feel of dil tujhko chahe release... But my heart actually skip numbers of beat when he ask me
"tumne Aaj kaha ke hum dono aise hi projects me kyu kaam karte hai jaha salo se baat chal rahi ho... Jab Mahesh Bhai bata rahe the ke kitna lamba vaqt laga unko dil tujhko chahe likhne me"
Why he wanted to put me in this dengerous situations all the time... Damn... Of course i said it cause me and somewhere he too believes in destiny... And the fact is that somehow our destiny is connected... But still he confronted me...
Did I ask him why did he said "yahi jaadu hai jo bekaabu ho raha hai"!!!!
Nope... Because I knew there is some magic, that literally happen whenever we both just came together... And fact is I am not here to confront him about his any statements... I just wanted to know about his injury without making him realise how much worried I am for him... And yes, i disconnected the call only after completing my task...

Today both of us are too happy by the response we got from our fans... during live, Randeep actually play dil tujhko chahe... OMG... The bgm he was giving, making me go crazy... Such a cutie he is... Fans were also going crazy by seeing all this...

One thing Randeep mentioned today and about which even kashish teased me is "humm bhai bus se sidha Puna chale gaye the"

Just like everyone, i also laughed over his joke.. but.. but now rewinding the time in my mind, i am thinking what made him spoke like that... About the particular city Puna... That too not when he was wholly focused on question, but busy in stopping our song that is being played by him.. Subconsciously he answered that we went to Pune... Why??? I know I am overthinking... But it's normal for me to kept thinking again and again about any statements by randeep... I very clearly remember the days of yeh un dino ki baat hai... And that particular day when we had an interviewer on sets... He took our join interview.. mine and randeep's...

There was this particular part of the interview when i was asked, what would I do if one day i woke up as randeep...
I answered "tumhe koi haq nahi banta ke tum itne Sundar dikho"... As in waking up and stood infront of mirror and doing your own self tariff... He would do it for sure... He is self obsessed and good thing is that he never tried to hide it...

After the fun segment, interviewer had left and we both were still seated in the room... our shot wasn't ready yet... As usual going through phone... And randeep initiate a conversation
"So you really think ke me mirror ke saamne uthke boluga ke itna Sundar hu me and all" smirking at me

I looked up at him.. "actually sundar is not the word... It can be cute or something like that" i grinned

"Yaarr ladkiyo ko me hamesha cute hi lagta hu kya..." he made a face

"Toh!! Nahi lagna chahiye?" I rise my brows

"Haa matlab.. isme koi burai nahi hai... But i thought girls cute hoti hai.. aur boys ke liye hot yaa sexy yaa phir handsome bhi bol sakte hai naa" he explained

"Kya hai na Randeep question mujhse puchha gaya tha.. toh answer bhi mujhe jo dena tha vo de diya..." i teased him

He made a cute angry face and looked down at his mobile screen... Murmuring "yeh shot kab ready hoga"

Now I have to make it up for him... I coughed fakely twice... Just to made him looked up at me... It was our thing.. we sometimes used to give signals to each other like that...

"Vaise kya Sameer aur Randeep bilkul same hai?? I mean you answered today.." i said just like anything

"Haaa.. mujhme aur Sameer ki life me 80 percent similarity hai... Toh Randeep aur Sameer same hi haii.." he replied

"Similarity!! Jaise?" I ask

"Jaise me bhi utna hi handsome dashing hu jaisa show me hum Sameer ko dikha rahe hai ... Mere school me bhi naa ladkiya mujhpe aise hi Marti jaise show me Sameer pe... Sameer ko gussa ata hai and you know real life me mujhe kaise gussa aata hai... Sameer ke Munna-pandit hii dost hai aur zyada koi nahi, lekin vo unke liye kuchh bhi krr sakta hai... me bhi zyada dost nahi banata, lekin jo gine-chune dost hai unke liye kuchh bhi krr sakta hu... Aur kyuki ye story sumeet sir aur Shashi mam ki apni kahani hai, to me janta hu aage Jake kabhi na kabhi Sameer mumbai to ayega hi.. jaise me aya hu... Hai naa sabkuchh same to same.." he said and i was smiling

I said "vaise Sameer ki life me Delhi track bhi hai randeep... Jaha usne itni galat chize ki... Apni family ke sath kafii issues rahe hai Sameer ke... Jo sab tumhare sath nahi hua... To tum same to same nahi kehh sakte apne aap ko aur Sameer ko."

"Family vali baat same nahi hai vaise..." He agreed "but.. ek baat kahu?" He asked

"Of-course" i answered

"Maina mera 12th complete hone ke baad i shifted to Pune... For my graduation... Jaise sameer kaa Delhi track hai vaisa time period tha mere liye Puna kaa... Sameer to phir bhi 90's me hone ki vajah se kuchh Kum harkate karr Raha tha... But Mene to saari badmashiya ki thi uss vaqt... Parties hi parties... I was lost... I was direction less..." He was speaking really sincerely...

"But Sameer ki zindagi me to naina thi jiski vajah se vo vapas sahi raste pe aa gaya... Tumhari bhi koi girlfr" i was asking with curiosity

He cut my words "yaha me aur sameer same to same nahi hai.. kyuki shayad naina ne usee uss had taq aage jaane hi nahi diya jitna me chala gaya tha... Meri life me naina nahi thi na, Maina.." he sighed.. looking straight into my eyes...

He didn't blink even once while saying it... His eyes staring mine... I never knew such things about him... Right now I was amazed.. i blink and consciousness gripped me that i have to stop him staring me like this... Can't handle this silence more, i said "t... toh tum kaise vapas direction pe aaye?"

He blinked twice "my family... Mom,dad, bhai.. unki vajah se... Papa ne samjaya ke log , Paisa sab aata jata raheta hai... But time... Time vapas nahi aata... And that turned out my biggest motivation... Unki baat sunke mene apna focus banaya... Time west naa karke usii vaqt Bombey aane kaa faisla kiya... aur yaha aake kisi bhi distraction pe naa jake sirf aur sirf actor banne ke sapne ko focus Kiya.."

"Wow.." i sighed "mujhe nahi pata tha ye ladka Jo thik se dekhta bhi nahi hai yaa Bina matlab ki baat bhi nahi karta vo itna focused iss vajah se hai... Your story is inspiring randeep.."

He smiled "vaise focused bande ko tumhari language me egoistic bolte hai naa" He softly punch my head "yaa rude"

"Ahaa hero sorry" i held my ear... "Aage se kabhi logo ko leke aise perception nahi banaugi.."

"Good... Dhire dhire matured ho rahi hai aap, madam.." he grinned..

"By the way tum exactly Puna kiss vaqt the.. i mean only after that you came to Mumbai naa?" Curious i was

"Aaa.." he try to think exactly "Maina it was actually 2012... Jab me Pune me tha.."

"Acchaa... Aur seriously girlfriend nahi thi tab?? Yaa share nahi karna chahte..." I just asked randomly

"See it's not like I've never dated anyone uss vaqt taq... But koi aisa serious relationship nahi raha... Abhi to bataya mene Maina ke meri zindgi me Naina nahi thi..." He again called me by my nick name and i love it... Always... Since it's given by him...

"Alright... Alright.." i nodded and said something in very joking manner "vaise 2012 me to i was in standard 9 only.." and laughed out... "Jab tum parties karr rahe the aur life lessons le rahe the apne papa se... Tab me to chhoti bacchi thi..." I gave him hi-fi and kept on laughing "9th class" trying hard to control

But his expression was firm... His face had little smile but not laughing just like me.. i rise my brows to sign him that why is he not laughing over my words.. he just nodded his head in negative... After a while when i stopped laughing , he spoke "you are right... Tum chhoti thi..." He stood up from his chair "abhi bhi ho" he sighed and i sensed some dejection in his voice...

"Shot ready hai kya??" I ask him as he was leaving

"Hopefully... Chalo" he said while stepping out from the door...

Confused me didn't really get what had happen and what was this conversation... I also came out from room... we gave our shot...

Today... Afterall years of that conversation, i again heard something about Pune from him in our Live... That we left to Pune, together, with each other... And that too in very joking way that i can't figure out why!!! By the way after that he also spoke about this things in his interviews... But not that he doesn't had his Naina and stuff... I was only to know that he might wanted someone who can have hold on him, the same way Naina had on Sameer... Did he feel that i could have been that one person for him?? At that day he does had that expression on his face... For few days i even went in overthinking zone at that time also... Because at that day I could genuinely feel through his eyes that he needed someone so strongly... or needed Me!!

Another thing i marked from my own memory is that he didn't really like my joke over our age difference... Though we never go deeper on this topic ever... But after years... i can feel that our age difference could be a one thing amongst all, which didn't let happen what supposed to...

But why do i went through things that had happen in past... Let just sleep... Tomorrow again shoot and my rone- dhonevala drama of-course... Waiting for me... Of course mumbai's traffic also waiting for as always... Also i am gone get another moment with Randeep because of some promotional interviews of dil tujhko chahe song... thats waiting for us... damn!! Why do i am blushing by thinking of it... I've already moved on and it's a simple thing like anything... Just the way I do stuff with other co-actors For promotions... I have to do it with Randeep as well... Simple.. right??? Then why so much of excitement!!!..."Just sleep Ashi" i said to myself and slept....

Life is not a fairy tail and things won't always go as per you expected... This is what I learn so strongly... Than why did I forget it.. and whenever it's with Randeep, it always turned complicated... Then why did I wear all those excitement and had a guts to even make call... Yeah, i have reality check the next day... And wanted to be neutral as per my decision long back if it's related to him... Yet i am sad... Sad for such smaller thing...

So the sad part is Just that he somehow could not manage to match my timings and i could not match his... So our join interview sessions never happen.. and considering his fractured leg and yet to shoot daily soap episodes condition, no one can blame him... it's not his fault for sure... and how can anything related to me and randeep ever go normally... So I accepted it as always...

Thankfully my BTS of our song included that part where I and randeep tell about how we are working after 3 years together... and also ask to keep loving us.... So it was good... And as I said before the views, likes, comments, all over response from fans was so overwhelming... There was not a single negative comment... Everyone loved it... That's why our song trended as well...

Yet one thing pinch me is that even I was traveling, had my shoot, still i took out time for one promotional interview that too from airport... but Randeep didn't... I know he didn't do it purposely... He was busy .. Still... It felt incomplete... when our show yudkbh ended, we had so many calls for a join interview but.. but he said he is not in the zone of giving any.. since he wasn't ready to share emotion he was going through by the news of show ending .. but i was sad equally, still i do it... I respect his choices... I respect his space.. but why he always made me feel alone at those moments where I needed him... Not as my professional costar but as a partner... Again I know it's not his fault.. but will things ever be normal??? And in mine and randeep's case, i doesn't even know what is the true meaning of normality... I mean it's just a little mv song... I've done so many mv... Then why am i so much engaging my mind in this expectation from randeep.... My mind would never be engaged about this small things with any random actor... Even if it's Siddharth, i won't think about this small things... Because it didn't simply matter... Yaarr things are so normal with friends like Siddharth, like piyush... Even things are very neutral with other actors as well... But with randeep, my mind can't stop on making it complicated... If he say a normal thing to me than i went happiest and if doesn't than i would simply got disappointed... He is never at fault but my expectations... Expectations really ruined whatever you got finally, than why I am expecting anything?? All this while I've learned not to expect, then why again... Why again I am going on this path... Why are my happiness and sadness both again coming from the same source... No... No i have to control... It shouldn't matter...

I know guys here my overthinking went wide.... But only remember one thing is that, it's just imagination... May be had nothing to relate with reality... And ofcourse the short update is because of the less response i am getting nowadays... Honestly didn't get motivation to kept on writing the long part...