For months

I've resisted

Help for

Something that most

Take for granted

Finally I accepted

The fact that

Without intervention

I can't take

A shower

I do not have the energy

To wash myself

My hair

My body

A simple shower has become

A preplanned event

I have to wait

Until my mother can help me

As I sit like an invalid

On a medical plastic chair

My hair has started falling out

I do not wash it often enough

I physically can't

And after

The shower

I crawl back to bed

To regain breathing like a human

Who am I kidding?

I am 30 years old

With the exhaustion

Of my 91 year old grandfather

And people beg me to hold

On to hope

But please tell me

Picture yourself

As me

Where would you find hope?

To go on?

To endure

Without showing emotions

Can you stand it?

Because I can't

I've always been the strong one

For other people

But who can be strong

For me now?

Anyone.....?

#MEsurvivor