Being ill

Is a hardship

Very few understand

Unless they have been there

What makes it even

Tougher...

Are

Setbacks

2 steps forward

4 backwards

How will one ever heal?

So difficult

To remain positive

Especially

When

Setbacks

Happen

One right after the other

How is that fair?

Too much bad

Isn't good

Where will

The faith come from

Wouldn't just giving up

Crying into a pillow

Covered by blankets

Make more sense

Wouldn't it be just

So much easier

Yes of course it would be

But would it be worth

Throwing

All that hard work away

No

No it would not

Everyone has

These blasted

Setbacks

Especially

When new symptoms pop up

It's like

How much more?

Enough already!

I can barely

Keep my head

Above water as is!

Don't get me wrong

I am not giving up

But I am human

So I will have

Bad

Hard

Impossible

Days

Where all I want to

Do is disappear

From the public eye

Become invisible

I've learned

Many don't care

Don't know how

So I don't care

About them either

Nor do I worry about

What they have to say

What sucks

Is watching time pass by

While others

Live lives

Get married

Have careers

Children

While I'm stuck

In this shit

Suspended animation

Full of

Setbacks

Constantly

Sometimes

I wish time would

Just stop

Until I can get

A handle for it

So I know I will

Get better

Then it could start

Up again

Why not?

One can dream

No?

Enough

Enough

Already

Going to try

Set goals

Small ones

To accomplish

Each day

To the post office

To the movies

Walk in the Halloween Parade

Maybe have dinner with a friend

Go to the 9/11 memorial

A little at a time

So I can enter

The world

Of the living

Once again

At my own speed

Even with the

Setbacks

I will keep

Moving

Forward

And hope

That'll lead

Me to

Ultimate

Health

Climbing over

One hump

At a time

To be able

To jump off

The diving board

Into my

Successful future