My crush literally hardly answers anymore and is more dry than usual. 

She disappeared on the weekend but then answered on monday then disappeared til tuesday then dis appeared til wednesday. 

Wednesday was fine and now shes disappeared since wednesday evening

Imma chuck my phone at a wall soon

Literally the music that i like and have listened to recently reminds me of her cause i got the songs from the playlist she sent to me.

Now i stopped listening to those :(

On another note my main instagram literally got hacked and i cant do anything about it. They changed my password and my email and phone number. I can't do anything about it. 

They blocked me on my priv but theyve been messaging people and posting on my story. 

Ive had so many people report it in hopes that with get the account deleted. I even emailed instagram.

Ive had that account since 2017.

I even deleted photos on my phone because of storage knowing I had them posted.

Another thing is my marks. 

Mid term marks should be coming really soon. 

Normally I'd have my phone taken when my marks are under 80% but my parents gave me a warning saying i had a month to pull the marks up (this was 3 weeks ago almost).

My math mark is literally failing. I redid a test and a quiz today to at least get my mark to a pass. I have one more quiz to redo.

I hope my parents let me keep my phone.

My french mark isnt that low and I think it's still considered a pass maybe I'm not sure what the actual mark is.

Ive had 0 motivation to do pretty much anything for that class which isnt good.

I hate school.

I don't know what to do honestly. Bring my marks up obviously but it's so hard.

My mom keeps getting mad at me for everything and I don't know why.

Last week on monday I had asked my sister for goggles because swimming started and she said she didnt have any so I was like oh well and swam without them.

So tuesday came along and i didnt use goggles because I didnt have any and when I came home i got accused of taking her good goggles.

Wednesday I got accused of taking hot chocolate bomb things from my moms room and no matter what I said my mom didnt believe me but I never even took any.

Thursday I came home and my twin (the sister im closest with) told me everyone was accusing me of going through my moms room and taking things.  

Which I never did. The only reason I even go in my moms room is to put away and get my phone in the mornings and night. 

I dont even spend 1 minute in there ever.

Friday my dad finally came home and the first thing he even said to me was "Why did you take ____'s good goggles". 

At that point I had had enough and kept saying I never took them and for people to stop blaming me.

I always get blamed on taking everything even though I don't take things. When I tell the truth and say i didnt no one listens and accuses me of lying.

I hate it.

On saturday I had a volunteering thing to get dropped off at before my sisters had rowing. 

The reason we were even leaving the house earlier was for me.

I was putting my boots on and my mom was like were leaving.

She pulled out onto the road and sat there.

Right when I was putting my leg up to step into the car she started driving and the bottom corner of the door hit right on my heal.

I said like ow and was saying how she hit it and it hurt. You could tell I was going to cry.

She just ignored me the whole time.

Later on the way there I asked to use her phone for a covid screening and she ignored me too.

I got a bump and bruise on my foot and it hurt to walk and move. I was literally limping around.

Sunday morning she had to drive me again and I told her that she hurt my foot yesterday she went "i didnt do anything" and then turned and walked away.

Like wtf.

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