Hi everyone....so....I'm sorry that I haven't really told any of you why I'm being a bit emotional lately....and this entry is going to be another emotional one. So if you don't want to hear sad and tragic events and me being emotional, then I'll suggest that you leave because I'm going to dedicate this as my goodbye to him.

Anyway, why I've been emotional lately is because of my grandpa, who I call Papaw, um....this morning....h-he passed away...
Of course, I'm sad and a little depressed about that. (I mean, I'm shedding a few tears now. And I can feel my heart pounding against my chest. I can't imagine what how my mom is feeling right now.) But at the same time, I'm kinda happy that now he doesn't have to continue being miserable and in pain.

So....I guess I have to tell you Papaw's situation.
Well....about 2 years ago, we were told that Papaw had lung cancer that he probably wasn't going to make it. So, my dad decided that my mom, Kitten, and I should go to Georgia to see Papaw.
So, the three of us did go to Georgia and I kinda can't remember most of it, except that he couldn't eat much and was plenty of medication. (And this one Uno game that I played with Papaw, Kitten, and mom. Hehe)
After the three of us had left Georgia, we were announced that Papaw didn't have lung cancer anymore! When I first heard that news, I was happy that Papaw had a chance of living in peace not suffering from pain. It was a miracle that he survived that the first time.

But for a while now, his cancer came back and there's nothing the doctors could do. And Papaw didn't want to go through all the medication and having his life drag over more. So, he decided that he will wait for his end.

And now...his end came.... and I felt like I had to make a memorable goodbye to him. Papaw (not going to say his name for privacy that I stand by) born on July 30th, 1941 to November 16, 2016. He was a good and wonderful human being on this earth, he was a great and supportive father, and he was a wonderful and caring grandfather to me. And he will always be remembered to my family.

Dear, Papaw, I know that you're in a better place and you meant so much to me. You influenced me to think outside the box (and that you were also the one who had me start taking things apart and rebuild them. Hehe) and to always find the bright side of things. But now, I'm crying over you because of all the memories that I have with you and that I know I won't be able to see you again. I'm both sad and happy for you, I just have to remember that it's part of life and that you lived a wonderful life.

So... thank you for everything you've done for me, you're a wonderful grandpa.... I just wished I was there for you more. But I guess my prayers was fulfilled, I kept praying that you would die in peace and not in pain.

Papaw, I want to say goodbye and I know that you're going to a better place. I'm going to miss you a lot, but that pain will lessen in time. I won't forget about you and I love you. <3

Signing off, Crystal~ Rose....