Hi there, everyone. It's 2020 and I am here. 

I don't know how many of you will be reading this, considering that I disappeared for three years. As the title says, this will be the last entry on this rant book that I created when I was naïve and immature. 

This is more so a closure for both me and for the friends that I've made on this website. 

There's so much that has happened to me since I left, here are some brief highlights:

- I am still in a relationship with NebulousPoet 

- I had the opportunity to travel to Europe for my choir passion and it was an amazing experience for me 

- Three of my poems were published within a university in my state. That was a massive achievement for me as a writer. 

- I am currently working on another story idea and I am excited to begin a new story. Maybe one day, I can give Superhero Best Friends a proper story that it deserves. (With a better title)

- I finally chose to work on my anxiety and depression disorders. I am taking medicine and have been going to therapy. 

Finally, I've grown and matured as a person. And I've never been more content with my life than I am now. While there is so much uncertainty in the future that doesn't deal with the Coronavirus, such as, what university I would be attending and where I go with my life after high school. But I am ready to face it, I feel more sure and clear about what direction I want my future to be. 

So much has changed for me since I left Wattpad. That decision to leave is one that I don't regret and that it opened a new chapter for me. What I do regret about my departure is how I left without a single word or didn't say a goodbye to the amazing people I've met through here. That was selfish of me. 

I am so sorry to everyone that I have caused pain to. That I never got to say goodbye or find alternate way for us to contact each other. 

The reason I left was because Wattpad was draining my energy and wasn't motivated to continue to write. Part of it was because I got myself involved with plenty of drama that have traumatized me, I let myself be involved with some toxic friends, and it all hurt me in the end. The effects from those events, I was scared to trust any of my friends, I was pessimistic and thought the worst of people, my mental health was spiraling. 

I know these people never intended to hurt me this much. I have some bitterness towards them, but I have forgiven them. Though that doesn't mean I can forget about what happened. I know that some of the actions I took then was not the best nor was I the best person then. There were some actions that I could've taken to help, but I didn't.

Wattpad has been a crazy rollercoaster for my life. I don't regret joining nor leaving, but same of the decisions that I made during the time between those two events. I want to continue writing my stories and maybe one day they can published. But Wattpad has changed me and that I've grown as a person, for better or worse, but I can never see this website without facing a lot of painful memories. 

Thank you so very much for my friends that were supportive and cared about me. I am truly sorry that I never gave you closure. If you want to still contact me head to Instagram and look for crystallized_writer. 

Wattpad was my past, but I can finally outline my future. 

With love, Crystal~Rose