Hiya there to you all! So...if you read my last ramble, then, I'm so very sorry about that...that was a hard and a downhill day for me and I guess I had to let out everything that I was feeling lately... But I just want to thank everyone who had supported and comforted me from afar or by commenting when I was an emotional wreck....it means the world to me!
But today, I am feeling so much better than I was before.

Anyway, moving on, I saw this on angelicsnow-'s random book and I thought it was an interesting tag to do. Plus, I thought the timing was right for me to do this tag. I will do my best to keep it short, but I can't exactly promise it!
       But there will be certain things that I will mention that I slightly touch on before or never mentioned here and you can ask about it if you want to know more about. Here's the picture for the tag (And I will re-arrange the order to make sense for me)!

Dear self,
         I know that life isn't meant to be easy but you will not only survive but you will also live your life also! "Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." And that, "in order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different." Remember your promise, that you not only made to others but to yourself? That you vow to never change who you, only to mature as life goes on? Keep that promise for your lifetime, because it's a part of you and you shouldn't destroy yourself to fulfill other's expectations...you know what that felt like. Love yourself and always be yourself! <3

Dear Dad,
          Hehe....well, you have raised your daughter to be a weird doofus! Though to be fair, I raised by you...so, you can't blame me much there! ^_~ But honestly, you are the reason why I am so logical and for having me know and learn my morals. That you have me know that "perfect" is just a stupid seven word that shouldn't exist, that everyone makes mistakes and you should learn from them.

Dear Mom,
            What can I exactly say? You are my first friend, always there for me and always willing to talk to me...as much as I sound crazy! But I am going to say that I guess your and Mamaw's clumsiness rubbed off me and why I talk to myself many times. But you have taught me so much about life....that I shouldn't just survive but live life. That you taught me to forgive and to care/love others, you are part of the reason why I'm an empathic person. You also wanted me to chase after my dreams, no matter how difficult life is. I will always love you so very much! <3

Dear Sibling(s),
           Alpaca, you are my actual related little sister though we aren't blood-related...but you're also my complete opposite. It's hard sometimes to understand you, one moment you want to talk to me and the next you just give me a glare. We argue and fight...a lot, and sometimes we are violent with each other and we don't talk to each other until the next day. But still, after our fights and the numerous times you annoy me....I can't help but still care and protective and love about my lil' sis.
        But, Apollo_And_Levi, you are metaphorically like my big brother and my big sister that I never had. Even though we met through Wattpad, we both grown to love each other in a sibling way. Yes, even then, we both have been through a lot and that surprisingly that build our sibling like-love to each other even more than we thought. We both want the best for each other, we don't want to hurt the other, we care and love each other!  And I'm eternally grateful that I met you all and that I'm surprised that you find me like part of your family!

Dear crush,
        Well, um...hehe....I'm dating my crush, and you know who you are. But I will say that in the past, back into the earlier times of our friendship. At first, I thought you were going to be a one-hit wonder and that you would find me too awkward or too weird, I mean, my first question I asked you was whether you were a male or female! Hehe...the weird story was that after I realized that I l-liked you as more than a best friend, you started dating another girl and your love life was as you said "a complicated and unsure".
Back then, I wanted you to be happy and not make your life more complicated than it already was...so I hid my feelings for you and smiled it off. (Though I was a bit jealous about it)
      The least thing I expected back then was that I would have a crush and eventually fall in love with you! 

Dear school,
          Is it bad that I'm excited to go back to you in August? I actually enjoy going to you because I love learning and education, plus, you feed my curiosity with more knowledge. (P.S. Thanks also for those expectations and pressure you put on me yearly. ~_~) But I'm still not sorry that I will miss the first day of school because I'm not missing this chance that comes once in a lifetime!

Dear past me,
          I know that I can't ever forget my history or you. Because even though I was a perfectionist and natïve back then (from what I remembered at least), I was still new to the world and I still had so much to learn. Yes...even though you (and I) had to learn things with pain, heartache, tears, and had depression along with issues back then.... We still survived and we learned to grow and had lived life! I promise you that I can't ever forget you or my history, it's a part of me.

Dear future me,
         Hehe....well, I don't know what to exactly expect from you or from the future. Though both you and I know how uncertain and anxious/somewhat scared I get when it comes to talking or thinking far into the future.... But I hope that I'm actually doing fine and well when the future comes. I know that there are certain events in the future that are bound to happen, but still, I can't help myself for getting some anxiety about it. Hopefully, when I am you, I know what exactly I do want for the future and that I am chasing after my dreams and continuing to live life with plenty of mistakes!

Dear first love,
          Um...I don't really know what to say here because I am with my first love right now. But I truly hope that our love will stay strong and true despite every obstacle that life hurls at us and everything that we had to go through be here today! I promise you that I will al-a-always keep you in my heart! <3
(P.S. Again, you don't know how stunned and heart-warmed I was when you did ask me to be y-yours...)

Dear best friend,
           Well, um....I have plenty of true friends but I-I-I'll be referring to my first b-best friend, NickiQuirks, please don't be offended! But first of all, how can you deal with this crazy girl for about 7 years?! I mean, what kind of impression did I actually make on you in second grade? (If you can remember that far back, I'm just curious!) Though honestly, thank you so very much for always staying by my side through so much and giving me so much support! Even though you were the more talented, more artistic, and the social butterfly between us... you still tried to push me to be more confident with myself and that you had me believe in myself more! I love you, as a best friend! <3

Dear future child,
         Hehe....um...I hope that you and I would be able to create a loving relationship! Hopefully, I'm not a terrible parent and that I raise you well to grow up to be an amazing and wonderful person who creates their own life, full of mistakes and choices! That I won't let anything harm you and that I always love you no matter what! (Also, if you see this....um...I can explain everything and sorry if I already embarrassed you! :P )

Dear person I hate,
         I don't hate you, I just dislike/disagree with you strongly and I have my reasons why. But I don't have to give you reasons why I don't particularly like you because it's plain rude to say them and you most likely dislike me also.

Dear person I love,
         Gears...I love many people, so this is hard to say or dedicate this to. Well, I'll just address to everyone I love which includes my family, my friends (from both from reality and from Wattpad), my love.
     But thank you all for caring, thinking, and loving this oddball girl! ^_^ To think that when I was younger, because of what happened in my childhood, I had philophobia. That I was scared of falling in love or to have emotional attachments, despite me being optimistic and still believing that love is more powerful than anything.
Hehe...I still sometimes get a bit anxious and a little scared for what's next for me in the concept of love but I will say that I've recovered and had let go of that fear. I never thought that in a lifetime that I would get this much support and so much love, but that's not the case at all!!
I love you all too!!! <3 <3

Dear ex-best friend,
         So...um...how are you? We haven't really seen each other in a long while. But I'm not that sorry that I didn't fit in well with your group of friends and that unlike you, I'm not sorry that I'm not Miss Social Butterfly. That's just not me at all, that's you and I'm not you. Though it's nice to catch up with you every once in a while when we do chat, it's good to know that you still remember me. Also, I want to let you know that I'm proud and happy for you for how far you have come!

Dear people who hate me,
       I don't hate you back, just saying that. But you can shout every insult you have, and guess what? I will just shrug it off and laugh at it because it's not the first time. You can't make me tear myself apart and change who I am just to satisfy your expectations. So...bye!

         I'm done! Gears, is it bad that I was just basically rambling to myself through this whole ramble as I am typing? Dang it, I think I'm about to get a sore throat, I should probably stop rambling and singing! ;P
        But anyway, it's tagging time! (*smiles innocently* I'm not evil, I'm just strangely innocent! There's a difference! :) )

NickiQuirks
NebulosePoet273
kittykatgamerox
Glitzy_Diamond
tifftheawesome
Midnight_Kaiulanis
AnxietyAtItsBest
TheAlphaMage
gingerthetiger
psychoticpetal
lovetoread_12
DustingOblivion
And any of you that wants to do this also!

So, hopefully no one hates me or is annoyed with me for tagging them! ;P
    And sorry if this was a long and daunting ramble for you!
But anyway, I hope that you all have a wonderful day/night! :)

And remember, carpe diem!
Write for you all soon, Love,
Crystal~Rose!
(P.S. The song above is called "Believer" by Imagine Dragons)