Hiya there again, everyone! This is the continuation of my last ramble, so, this might be confusing for some of you. But to have everyone on the same page, based on the title of this ramble, this is my recovery or my path on how I lived through everything that has been discussed in my last ramble.

          But let me start off with saying that I am in a better place, but I still need 'recover' (if that is even the right word). Since today is Thanksgiving, I am thankful that I am alive and that I am living life, though all of my happy and struggling moments.

         Now...onto my recovery.....there is more than meets the eye. And this took over periods of time, it never took overnight.

          Through my depression, I did keep a distance from my friends and family, but only a few have known something was going on with me. My family had a greater sense of what was going on and they did comfort me when I admitted my weakness. But there was one friend (who knows who they are) that stayed by my side through everything.
           They had comforted me and had made me smile when I thought I couldn't. They still helped me, even though we were at a disconnected point, but we still recovered.
I will always be grateful to having them in my life, and that they decided to stay by my side, even if I was a complete disaster to them.

         But I never had my problems get carried away by another person, and I never will. Because as I said before, I strongly believe that certain battles in your life, you have to fight alone to win. This is your life, not theirs.

        So, certain battles, I fought alone and had only told anyone the aftermath. But singing and writing were my passions...and I continued with both of them.Those hobbies that I loved, have relieved me when I was stressed because both singing and writing helped me escape my reality.
But to be honest, after everything that had happened to me, I have grown closer and that I have a more clear direction of what I want for the future than I did before.

         That is one silver lining from all that pain. And there is always a silver lining with every dark cloud. I just had to realize that I am strong enough to climb my way out to become stronger than I was before.

          And that is why I am like the Phoenix, I had fallen down many times and had gone down a dark path. But I still had enough strength to stand back on my own feet, I still had found my own light to travel back.

       With that, I am stronger than I was before. As I mentioned in my other ramble, I had mentally broke down and metaphorically died many times. Though, within each time, I had risen out of the ashes to stronger than I was before. That I had evolved into a better version of myself.
        I've always thought that a part of life is the pain and suffering, but it balances out with love and strength. And that is true, life cannot always be rainbows and happiness all the time.

But I believe that humans are like the Phoenix, except, humans remember all the pain and why we are still living. While I imagine that the Phoenix forgive and forgets about their past lives.

"No matter how many times we burn into flames, we can always rise from the ashes."
Happy Thanksgiving to you all, I hope that you all are grateful for something! :)

Graciously and thankfully, Crystal~Rose