I'm feeling so lousy today. My dad just gave me a lecture. He said I was getting out of control and that I need to focus back on my studies and not spend every day in front of the computer. HEY! HOW CAN I HELP IT!? THERE'S NOTHING ELSE TO DO.

School's not opened yet so how can I study when I don't know what the teacher's will teach? I feel like no one gets me these days. I've got brand new 'Orchard' anime DVDs and IM DYING to watch them. Do any of you guys know 'Noragami'? ITS AWESOME. I got both seasons, 1 and 2. And also the quite popular 'Love Live School Idol Project'.
But school's gonna start again at May 11 and the lessons r gonna be more difficult and I won't have enough time to watch the DVDs then, so I wanna make the most of April watching them but my dad won't understand!

HOW WOULD U FEEL WHEN YOU JUST BOUGHT UR FAV MOVIE AND WANNA WATCH IT LIKE CRAZY BUT TIME KS RUNNING OUT!? Oh great, now I'm thinking negative again. X(

I'm sure you've heard this question from at least 'somebody'. "What do you want to be?"
AND NOW THATS WHAT IM WONDERING ABOUT. I FREAKING DONT KNOW.
There are lots of things I wanna be when I become an adult. Like having my own cafe, being a famous writer, hosting an animal rescue committee, becoming a doctor (for my parents's sake), and also an engineer because I love decorating and building stuff out of my imagination.

But even a mad person knows that I can't fulfill all of them. But I just don't know what I want to be most. I need a goal, something to work hard for and achieve. My dad's example was petty good too.

He said I was like a ship,with all kinds if necessities on board, but no captain or fuel to steer the ship. I'm let lose in the ocean but since I have no captain, I have no sense of direction either. No fuel, so the ship doesn't move anywhere. The ship just turns in circles, round and round, getting nowhere. And I was like 'wth?'

Well if he thinks of me that way then WHERE IS MY CAPTAIN OR MY FUEL!?