After the date night I was fullfiled with joy, strong conviction, that he is my only man and it made my world whole. Jun that night stayed in our house and since this day he barely comes back to the apartment, where he used to live with Jimin.

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a few months left till the wedding

The time, which I had been afraid of for past five months, magically came to the present day. After waking up and crawling my ass to the bathroom, I realized, how my bump became enormously big. As plenty of women say, it's over night thing and it's shocking, what I can agree on.

It didn't take long and Namu moved his body also to the bathroom,  where he caught me staring at my mirror reflection, while I was holding baby bump like a very preggo woman.

For a few seconds, he was just standing there and he kept staring at me, while he was trying to figure out, how this was possible. And at one single moment he remembered that one emotional morning, when we had done it without any protection.

,,Are we going to be parents, love?" he asked after several moments. When I heard him asking this, my whole body covered itself with goosebumps. I started freaking out, because I didn't know, how to tell him the truth.

,,I...I guess so, but not only "we"..." I was stuttering. Jun started laughing a little and then he asked: ,,What do you mean "not only we"? Is Lily pregnant as well?"

,,No Jun...I supposed tell you this sooner, but I wasn't confident enough to be fully truthful toward you...Please, hear me out..." Namjun became really shocked after hearing these words.

,,I think, that you remember well the day of your leave to UK. We made love without protection and it set the base for this little one for sure, but it wasn't everything that day."

Namu kept listening to my words completely quiet. Then I continued. ,,After the great argument, which we had between us, I was working, but nothing better, than call to Yunki was a option that day. Because I really thought, that we had broken up, I wasn't feeling guilty that time and under the influence of alcohol at his apartment, we just..." Jun stopped my lips from telling him more information on this topic, because he didn't wanna hear details of how Yunki was fucking his fiancé.

It took Namjun quite a bit of time, before he had spoken a word. When he found some words, he stated: ,,Please, don't try to reach me out. I don't know, what to say to this..." He was pissed, but he was really trying to not reveal his anger on me. Also after these words, Jun left the house with his important and daily used stuff and he he left without telling me, where he was heading or what he was planning to do now. He didn't even let me apologize and finish my words, so I became scared, how this will go.

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the same day in the evening

Time was flying like a soft, light feather and there was no sign of Namjun being alive. I was more, than terrified and the thought of him leaving me for good, was my biggest fear of all of them in the furthest spot of my mind.

Because I couldn't withstand the nervousness inside me, I called to Jimin to ask, if he knows anything about me. For four times of hearing phone ringtone, he picked up.

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~ the phonecall ~

,,Hey Stephanie, how are you doing?" he asked happily, because we hadn't seen each other for quite a long time.

„Not good at all, to be honest...Did Jun came to your place to stay there for awhile?" My tears were flowing like crazy and I didn't know, what is gonna happen or what I'm gonna hear from him.

,,Naaah, he didn't show up at all. What happened, that you don't know, where he is staying?" His voice changed into something, what can truly describe true worries and sadnesses.

,,Well...I have to admit, that I messed something up and it could be the main reason, why our relationship could end...but I don't wanna talk about it now. Just please, when he shows up at your place, give me an echo about his existence to calm me down, that he's alive, okay?"

Jimin was enormously freaked out by that and he became worried about Jun, but he tried to not show it and not make me even more worried about him.

,,Okay, I'll tell you everything I'm gonna find out about him, deal?" Jimin's voice was kinda shaky, but not that much, I would notice it.

,,Okay, thank you so much...I truly owe you so much." After this I hung up and tried to get some rest, because this amount of stress could affect our baby and I really don't wanna loose this small bean inside me.

~ end of the phonecall ~

·

After the call with Jimin, I called to Hoseok to find out, if there was any chance, that Namu decided to stay at their place. At first no one was picking up, but after five minutes passed, Lily called me.

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~ the phonecall with Lily ~

,,What is happening Steph? I have to be honest with you, that you weren't calling at the best moment..." When I heard Lily, that they were doing nasty, while I was trying to reach out, I started laughing.

,,Amm...sorry, I didn't mean to disturb you two during nasty." Lily also started laughing and then she asked: ,,Tell me, what was so urgent a few moments ago?"

I sighted heavily. ,,Well...Jun knows now. Today I was looking at my reflection in our bathroom mirror and thanks to that, he found out, that I'm preggo. After finding out, he became excited with words "are we gonna be parents, love?" and when I said, that not only "we" and I started explaining it, he stopped me and left with his daily used stuff away and he isn't at his apartment as well, where he lives with Jimin..."

Lily was shocked. ,,What?! He lives with Jimin? You mean Park Jimin?! Omo! That's crazy." For a few seconds she muted herself, because she supposed to react to the fact, that he might left me and not be attached to the information, that Namu lives with Jimin.

,,Yeah, he lives with Jimin..." I said, disappointed.

,,Sorry, it was really immature of me, how I had reacted...how do you feel? Should I come over?" ,,No, just tell me, if he has shown up at your place or if he completely disappeared..."

Lily sighed out of sadness. ,,No sweetie, he didn't stop by, but if he stops by, I'll let you know, okay?"

,,Sure..." and this was end of our conversation.

~ end of phonecall with Lily ~