After I hung up, it didn't take a long period of time and Lily started furiously knocking on my front door. I knew well, what is gonna happen, if I open the damn door, so I really hesitated to open the door for her.

The moment after I opened the door, Lily broke into my house harshly and I was shocked, how pissed, she was. Because she wasn't talking to me, since she entered and it was worrying me.

,,Lily...I..." I started stuttering. ,,What have you done? Did you do anything with Yunki? Did you two kissed again?'' She was extremely mad, because she was happier, when Jun and I were alone and nothing was disturbing it.

,,Well, it was more than kiss..." ,,What the fuck?! You slept with him?! Are you completely out of your mind Stephanie?!" ,,Stop yelling at me, Lily! I thought, that we really had broken up. I only wanted to feel better that day, so that's why we planned a movie night and during that, it just happened. I was way too drunk and it doesn't excuse my mistake, which I've done, but I guess, my desire of being more with him, took over me and it was a wrong decision."

Lily heavily exhaled. She was done with me mentally and she didn't know, how to react to this. ,,Tell me, what should I do now? How can I hide this from him?" ,,I completely understand you, Lily. I know I have to tell him as soon as possible, but for now, please, keep this secret for yourself only...I have to come up with some plan, because it isn't this easy."

The first thing, which I did after this dialogue, was a quick call with Yunki, because I must ended the potential romantic relationship between us, which he was expecting.

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~ the phonecall ~

,,Hi baby, I didn't expect you to call me this soon after coming home. Is everything okay?" His voice sounded like the sweetest honey on the Earth and the joy was extremely addictive.

,,Yunki...I have a problem...please, don't be way too angry at me, but I must end your hopes connected to the possible relationship of ours...After finding out, that Namu didn't break up with me I can't work like this anymore..."

For a few seconds Yunki stayed silent, during that he inhaled and exhaled heavily many times and when he was ready to react to this situation, he said: ,,Amm...these aren't way too good news...I don't know, how to deal with this right now, Stephanie..."

,,How about I give you some time to think through it all and when you'll be ready to answer, you let me know? I really want you in my life, but now I'm the only one, who keeps making it harder, so if you come with the solution, that you won't wanna be part of my life anymore, I'll respect it." „Yes, that sounds promising. I'll call you..."

After this conversation, Yunki immediately hung up with the most saddest tone of his voice I've ever heard. I could feel the pain, which both of us were going through and I completely understand, that he doesn't know, how to deal with this now.

~ end of phonecall ~

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,,You did right thing, Stephanie. He just keeps messing with your heart and when you're someone's fiancé, you should be aware of the fact, that you have a lovin', kind and daebak man, who is ready to sacrifice his life for you." „I know Lily...I know..." I said, feeling down, emotionless.

For the rest of the night, Lily and I were talking things out, because I had a lot to explain to her, because she didn't know anything about it, how I really dropped into this slump.

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next day, lunch time

After tiresome night, which Lily and I spent together, we woke up on the couch around eleven in the forenoon. We were extremely hungry, because we had been drinking a lot of wine at night and this action led to this state of ours.

,,How about we order some kimchi fried rice and coke with it in the package?" offered Lily. ,,Sure, I can also prepare some veggies on a plate to eat with it and our endless hunger will be defeated!" I stated happily.

When both of us found our perfect order, we called to the company and we ordered some goodies with it. ,,Amazing! It'll be here around forty minutes!" added joyfully Lily. I just smiled at her and then I crawled myself to the kitchen.

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twenty minutes later

Out of blue the front door bell started ringing. ,,Didn't they suppose to call? They're early!" I yelled from the kitchen at Lily. After I found out, that she wasn't gonna respond anything, I moved myself to the front door and with a wide smile on my face I opened the door. When I found out, who was truly standing there, my smiling lips disappeared.

,,Stephanie..." said Namu quietly. It was pretty obvious, how hard he was trying to stand there and figure out, how to apologize to me.

At first I was motionless and speechless, because I was shocked, but then I couldn't withstand his sad puppy eyes, which were almost crying, how badly he missed me and this fact made my body move forward to him and I tightly hugged him. No kiss, no need to jump into my bed and make love. Just tight hug, which both of us needed more than each of us thought.

Because we were silent, Lily became suspicious. That was why she got up from the floor, where she had been sitting on and second before she entered the hallway, she had yelled: ,,Are you trying to sed...oh my...sorry for interrupting. I'm gonna move myself to the kitchen, alright?" Her reaction was on the point, because when she saw, how tightly I was holding Namjun and when he heard her, he looked at her with confused look in his eyes, she intentionally disappeared to the kitchen.