desire is finally fulfilled

Since Jun and I were in the middle of kissing each other on lips, neck, collar bones and chest, I stopped him, cuz I had something very important to say.

,,Namu, Namu, stop please. I need to tell you something..." Namjun immediately stopped his kisses under my ear and he started patiently listening to my words.

,,You know well, that we are more than close to each other and I clearly feel the tension between us, but if you aren't sure, that you love me, we can't continue this. I'm sure, that you know, I can't do anything more with the man, when my and his feelings aren't involved in it..." I was gasping for breath, while I was talking, cuz my body was under devastating fire.

,,I love you more than my life. Is it enough for you to believe me, that I don't wanna use you only for sex?" His direct words were something, what I know he uses in ordinary conversation, but now, it took my breath away, because I didn't expect this from him.

For several seconds I completely froze. My eyes kept staring into his shiny, with a huge flame in them, eyes and his gaze was slowly helping me to move forward to him and I whispered into them: ,,I love you, Kim Namjun..." Then my lips started feverly kissing his lips and at the same time everything around me fastly disappeared, cuz nothing mattered more than us.

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later that afternoon

After our kisses stopped, cuz our mouths were sore thanks to that, Jun asked a very important question: ,,So...are we now...?" He didn't wanna push me into anything, so that was why he was asking carefully.

,,I'm not against it, just give at least a few hours to process the fact, my best friend from the childhood is gonna be my soon to be my ride or die partner for life..."

Both of us laughed at this and then Namu added: ,,See? Your high school mates were right. They had already known, how it was gonna end up without us knowing and believing this."

,,I think, that both of us knew it since our break-ups, that no one else will accept our strong friendship, so it had to end like this, but I'm not mad about it at all." On the end of the sentence I lightly smiled at him and at the same moment my arms and legs locked up Jun in my unbreakable embrace. He also tangled his arms around my upper body and his head rested on my left trapezius muscle, because he knows, that I often have the right shoulder in so much pain and he didn't wanna put any weight on this side for my best.

After some time spent hugging each other, Namu helped me jump down on the floor from kitchen desk, as a thanks I kissed him once on his tip of his nose and while I was this close to him, I could tell, that he was ready to get us into the mood, but he wasn't hurrying into this part of relationship, cuz he wanted me to be comfortable and not full of stress, that I could think, he wanna do it no matter what.

A few seconds after the kiss happened and both of us kept staring into each other's eyes, Namu's phone was ringing impatiently. While we were hugging, Jun's right hand slid into his back pocket, his palm pulled out the ringing phone and when he looked at the screen, he became nervous, because he wasn't expecting to see this number.

,,Yes, Mr. Bang Sihyok?" Said Jun while he kept hugging me and then he continued. ,,Yes, I'm almost done with it, so if you wanna finish it and start work on next one, it will be possible." Then Namu only nodded, he politely said goodbye to his chairman of Bighit entertainment and with a happy gaze he told me: ,,I'm sorry, but I have to leave you here. I have some work to d..."

,,You don't have to explain yourself. I understand, so go and when you'll have some time to write me, feel free to contact me as usual, okay?" Even though I cut him off, he weren't mad at me, cuz he always admires, how tolerant I am, when it comes to work and less time together.

Before Namu left, his hand put his phone back, both of his palms placed itself on my butty cheeks and second before he kissed me as a goodbye, he has said: ,,You're the best and I love you for it. I have to admit, it's really nice to not hold it back and tell you this without any fear of how could you react to this."

After one kiss he let go of me, then he quickly headed to the living room, where he grabbed necessary stuff and with a wide smile on his lips, he left to his recording studio, which was in big building called HYBE LABELS.

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home alone again

From the moment Namjun left, my house felt way too big and empty. My heart kept racing like crazy and I quickly remembered Lily's words, when she was telling me to "start noticing, cuz it's way too obvious, that he's in love with me". I immediately started blushing and smiling to myself.

Feeling of being complete and feeling of home in his presence is something, what I didn't predicted , when I was younger and I was even spending much more time with him than now.

It's so beautiful, how life knows, when it's the right time, even though those two people it forces to walk through lots of shitty situations, during which they gain so much experiences and also they become closer than they were before.

Of course, when I walked back to the living room, I grabbed my phone and the first one, who got to know this big surprise, was Lily. I was so happy, that we have become closer and now, she is more important than toxic one with Minji.