PRESENCE

Since the hard moment, which happened in front of the hospital, Minji and I haven't talked to each other. After Jun took me home that day, I was completely out of service and I even wasn't able to talk.

Now, it's almost half of the year from that moment and it still hurts like shit. Of course, that whenever Namu or Lily have some time, they visit me at my place, but because all of us have lot of work, we don't see each other too often.

Because I still have some hope, in the afternoon on Saturday, tried to call to Minji again, but when I dialed her number, operator of her number informed me, that she blocked my number and that is why I can't reach her through this anymore.

It made me emotional again. I was still naive, that she wanna have some contact with me, but I was so wrong. This moment made me cry again and I immediately had red eyes like a fresh strawberries.

Because I was home alone, I've decided to take a long hot bathtub, where I planned to relax myself and clear my thoughts, which kept poisoning my heart uncomfortably and unstoppably.

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in the bathroom

The water started flowing from the water battery and this sound is always something, what helps me to forget about everything sad or bad for a few minutes.

Why I was getting ready for the bath, my phone dinged once. When I came to it and grabbed it into my palm, I read on the screen.

I didn't expect today to see him, but when I saw the message from him, my lips created a little smile on my face. I already know, that I have small feelings for him, so I knew, why I was smiling, but at the same time, I didn't wanna let him notice, that I wanna be more than just his best friend.

After I read the message, I put my phone back, the remaining clothes, which I was wearing, I took off me and when my bath was full of water and bubbles, I stopped running water and I carefully went inside.

It was really nice to have so hot water all over my body, cuz I wasn't paying attention to anything else than me and how I was feeling at that moment.

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twenty minutes later

I just finished washing my hair, when I heard doorbell ringing. Because I was covered in bubbles, I carefully stood up, into my left hand I took the shower head and after I pressed the button to let water flow from the shower head, I quickly washed the rest of my body.

When I was done, I stopped the water, put the shower head back to its place, then I went out of the bathtub, I let the water drain away and lastly I quickly dried myself, dressed myself up into the wine red bathrobe and with the unbrushed wet hair I almost ran to the entrance.

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downstairs

Before I opened the door, I've looked at the cameras, which I have outside, close to the front door and to my surprise, the person, who was standing there, was Namu probably with a bag full of food to eat. Of course, that I immediately opened the front door with a surprised, but happy face, speechless.

After I opened the door and Jun saw me in the bathrobe, he smiled for himself and then he noted: ,,Do you have any different plans? Because what I see now in front of me, isn't way too "just stay my best friend" friendly."

Both of us laughed to this, I even blushed a little and then I said: ,,If you kept your word, you could see me more dressed than just in my bathrobe. You've just disturbed my self - care time, Mr. Kim."

While Jun kept staring into my eyes, he noticed, that there were some signs of tears and sadness. His forehead immediately wrinkled, at the same time he came inside, his left foot lightly closed the door behind him, his free left palm caught my right side of face and he asked me: ,,Was it because of Minji again?"

I was shocked, that he noticed. My eyes were searching the answer for his question in his eyes, but I didn't come up with anything. My smile immediately disappeared and when Jun saw this, he fastly pulled me to him and his arms tightly hugged me.

Home. This word popped up as a first word in my head, when he started hugging me and he didn't wanna let me go. It was indescribable feeling and I loved it everytime this happened, cuz everytime it feels like the first time.

After some time I let go of him, I looked into his eyes again and I told him: ,,Yes, but let's not ruin our good mood and let's eat something together..."

Namu's left thumb on his hand caressed my right cheek and with a comforting sound of his voice, he said joyfully into my eyes: ,,I got you. I knew, why I went to your favorite restaurant and grabbed us our favorite meals. Let's set everything up and eat up. I'm hungry like the greatest tiger in the world!"

We laughed to his words, then Jun headed first to my living room, where he began with setting everything up and during this he played me his newest unreleased song, which he keeps working on for weeks.

Before I joined him, I stayed at the spot, where we were talking and I was admiring the view in front of me with a strong feeling of happiness, cuz this man is someone, who I don't ever wanna lose in my whole damn life. And yes, perhaps it is because of my feelings, which I have for him, but even if I didn't have any feelings for him, he is way too sweet, gentle and heartwarming, that it would be a crime to let him go and not have him in my crazy life by my side.