Hi my name is Jaydin Faz. I'm 13 and will be 14 in July. This is my story and how I feel. This is how I view life and what has happened in it, but first I have some questions.

Is it bad that I lose everything that I love? Is it bad that I hurt so bad that I cry every night? Is it bad that I'm scared to trust anyone? Is it bad that I have a hard time believing people? Is it bad that I just don't want to try to be happy anymore? Is it bad that I want to be numb? Is it bad that I can't feel good because if I don't feel sad I don't feel sane, or I can't feel anything else? Is it bad that I cry and can't stop the tears from falling? Is it bad that I have been lied to by the people I trusted? Is it bad that I don't want to live anymore?

These are all the questions that I hope to answer some time soon.

This is my story.