All my dumbass poetry is really shitty I know. And I'm considering deleting a lot of this shit. I don't like to put my good stuff up because most of it is too private, or good enough to be stolen.

Basically what I'm here for is to degrade myself really quickly.

None of my friends would ever allow me to speak realistically about my self image to them because, much like everyone towards someone they care about, they hate to see that person dislike themselves. But, realistically, I'm mediocre at best.

I walked out on my best friend who, in one way, I was in love with. I don't regret it, because that's what was good for me. But we both did and said things we shouldn't have and in the end I left the chaos of their life quietly, without either a note or a goodbye. I'm sorry they had to go through that, but I wouldn't have done it any differently.

I cared for a boy desperately, and didn't know how to act for the longest time. I let my heart lead my head and, in doing so, put myself in the position to get my feelings hurt. So I did repeatedly, and there is no way, form, or fashion that I could make it his fault. He was just acting the only way he knew how and I let it get to me when I know, if I tried hard enough, I could have prevented it. That's all I'll say about him.

I've left my soulmate many times. We've fought and cried and blamed and took blame, but in the end we made it out together. I would apologize to her, because I hurt her when I had no reason to. Pure, malicious contempt with no rhyme or reason. She would never admit it, because it expresses weakness, but I damaged her more than anyone else could. I think about it every day.

I don't text my friends first, I can't say no to people, I get hurt too easily but act like a robot.

I read old text messages and listen to sad music.

I eat to much to cope with bursts of sadness.

I refuse to take myself seriously.

I dismiss myself constantly because putting it off will eventually destroy the feeling completely.

I won't see myself as a unique individual.

I won't see myself as heartbroken, damaged, or in love.

I only exist reluctantly.

I return to the things that hurt me daily.

Most days I know I'm not as physically attractive as people would lead me to believe.

I'm only comfortable in my own skin because people who aren't irritate me.

My personality has flaws.

I'm not perfect. Nobody is. And Lord forbid I ever say this on any social media that gets actual attention, because my friends would slaughter me for having such opinions.

View yourself realistically.