I feel like I'm overly sensitive towards that subject but really, I can't help it.

Mom thinks that I have PTSD because of her having it and now I am overly worried about things and very jumpy.

Like my teacher had called me outside of class one day and said my mom was on the phone. She didn't tell me if she had called or mom had called and of course the first thing that pops into my head is "Holy shit, this is the call." And as soon as I wouldn't outside of the class I started to cry asking if she is okay. It took my the rest of the school day to stop crying. I would stop but then I would start again.

I just don't know anymore with my emotions. I'm just so done with feeling this, this pain, this torment. Maybe I should get more help...