Well, Monday tomorrow I have off. Currently going up to our camper.

I got my new phone. Also I can get apps but my dad sees what I get. How do i know.....I did a gutty risk and downloaded wattpad. And my dad latter said something.

Whatever. So its chill. I have no idea what he'd say about discord. I never asked but I'm sure he'd say no.

I'm to nervous to ask. It's anxiety.

Tuesday I get to see my old art teacher....lol....Mrs. Johnson. And no she's not related to bro zone. Though she does have ADD and he does as well😶😶😶.

But she's nice. Im seeing her this Tuesday. Dont know the timing though.

Wednesday.....aaaaaahhhhh!!! My childhood wishes are granted!!! Thank you god!!! thank you!!!

So my whole life in school I could bring parents or someone to an event and I could never do it.

.......MY DAD AND MY BIRTH MOM IS COMING!!! AND ITS AT NIGHT!!!! THEIR GONNA MEET MY FIRENDS TEAHCERS!!!!

AAAHHHHHFJDSBAJRKSNSNDHSOGKGOK THE LORD IS GOOD!!!! Whoooooo!!!! I never been so happy in my life.

Thursday is with dindie/ Dorinda. If you don't know her she helps me out with female stuff since I lost my mom.

Why can't my birth mom? Well, my dad doesn't trust her and explains she's special needs. Their both I swear💀💀💀. But when I Acknowledge to her about it she tells me he doesn't know her past and makes judgments on her.

My dad says that he's known her for a long time and knows a lot. Apparently when she was born her mom was drinking and when I was born Mary was drinking. She's also very toxic.

I remember when there's stuff on YouTube that says god takes out the toxic people in your life.

I have a fear of it being my birth mom.....but then she was also magically found.....and she's more in my life now......how am I getting this chance? Wait....not everyone gets to see their birth mom. My dad never did.....I love her and care about her.... She's in so much pain.......just like my past mom😔😔😔

God don't take her away....if you do.....i....I understand.

No shut up bella it won't happen😭😭😭.

Sorry I deal with losing people a lot.

Poor branch!! therealfloyd30 please give branch a hug for me. Tell em I said for you to. And pass on, that no matter what happens he's first. I don't care if I'm a whole decade younger. I care so much and want the best. I know what it feels like to be left and I will never ever do such a thing. Ever!

Anyways. Friday...dk....We'll see. After that were going up to our camper for hopefully 3 days.

The matter of times I feel like total shit and I catch a glimps.of myself in the mirror and I'm like "damn.....you haven't changed! Keep pushing honey. You look good. Feel like shit, keep going... You got this"

I don't look in mirrors, their creepy as shit.

Basements, attics, woods, vast places, mirrors closets, barns, sheds, wells, drains.

Why do they exist?

Anyways. I have hop.....it's a lot.

Love you~

Adios