TW:YELLING,CRYING,SWEARING AND ANGST
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-Lizzie's POV-

I walk on to the roof and spotted Joel on a bench looking down at the world bellow.
"Joel!",I call happily. He didn't respond.

Okay thats weird...

"Joel?",I ask wearily as I walked towards him.

The first thing I noticed was how heavy his eyes were and how messy his hair was. Usually it was a good kind of messy but this time, it was as if he didn't actually take pride in it, as if he didn't have enough care or energy to make it look at least a little neat.
"Are- are you okay?",I place a hand on his shoulder.
"What the fuck does it look like.",The brunette snapped making me take a step back.
"Do you wanna- talk? About it..?",I questioned in a soft tone.
"NO ACTUALLY. I DONT. BECAUSE EVERYTIME I TRY TO SOMEONES ALREADY UPSET AND THEN I HAVE TO COMFORT THEM! I WOULDNT WANNA MAKE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME LIKE ALWAYS HM.",He clenched his fists. I stood their completely shocked. Joel never really yelled. Never at me at least. "IM SO TIRED LIZZIE. SO. FUCKING. TIRED.",His voice broke.

My eyes widened as I caught a glimpse of his thrustrated expression and his tear-filled eyes before he looked away.
"J-Joel...you can talk to me you know that right..?"
"NO. I CANT. I NEED TO LOOK AFTER EVERYONE SO THEY WONT LEAVE ME. I DONT HAVE TIME TO TALK ABOUT HOW I FEEL!" The hazel eyed boy shrieked."I-...",He hesitated "I DONT NEED THE TIME!"
"Joel....",I hugged him gently. He pushed me away.

He.

He pushed me away.

"DONT TOUCH ME! I DONT NEED YOUR PITY! I DONT NEED ANYTHING. I-IM A BOY. BOYS DON'T CRY. BOYS ARE STRONG THEY DONT NEED SYMPATHY!",He screamed,his voice going wobbley and high pitch. I stood their in completely shook. For the first time in which i had noticed it was like he was misery in its pure form.

It hurts to see him like that..

"J-"
"NO. IM SO FUCKING SICK OF EVERYONE LIZZIE- IM SICK OF EVERYTHING!",He screamed,tears already running down his face as he threw his phone at the ground smashing it into many pieces. I stepped back a bit more."J-JUST..just please leave me alone...",He mumbled quietly as he wiped his tears away. I hesitently nodded before walking away.

-Joel's POV-

So their I sat. Alone again. All alone once again. Alone with my thoughts. The loud thoughts...

I sighed and gripped my hair,digging my nails into my skull and kicking at the ground in saddened rage.

God sake why was I acting like this.

"WHY DID I DO THAT?! FUCK SAKE SHE WAS JUST TRYING TO HELP. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK- FUCK!",I fell off the bench and onto the ground,grazing my arms and knees. I sniffled and sighed as my body gave way,trembling from the pain.

"I hate everything about me.."

...

"Joel?",I heard a voice ask. I quickly look over to see Mr. Ponk.

"Shit."

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