I don't know when it started or why.
All I know is that one day a hole suddenly appeared in my mind. Slowly, it grew, like a drain swallowing water. I did not enjoy this so I attempted to fill the hole. First I tried filling it with things that I'm good at. Hobbies and such. But I screw up everything I touch, so that only made the hole grow larger. I tried filling it with people I love, but that didn't work because all people do is leave. This ripped the hole larger and I grew much larger. It quickly took over my limbs. At one of my darker points I tried filling it up with something different. I swear it was nothing bad, although people treat it as such. So I kept it hidden from the world, but for the first time in God knows how long, I felt... happy.
The ones who were supposed to love me unconditionally were some of the people who thought it was awful. I'm not sure how but they found out. The tried to take it, but it had fully become apart of me, so they just ripped a piece of me out instead. The hole is so gaping now. It has taken over my life. I've lost my mind, my body, my pride, everything. All I have left is my heart. Though fragile, chipped, cracked, and weak, it is not broken. It is the only thing this hole has not consumed. So please, I beg of you, just don't break my heart...

It's all I have left.