I woke up in hospital.
I felt tired, but not really bad.
My heart had stopped to hurt.

Sara and my mum sat next to the hospital bed.
"Oh good god. I'm so happy, that you woke up now, Babygirl! How do you feel?" Mom asked and smiled at me in a warmly way.

I was kind of happy that I saw Mom now.
Maybe it was good, that I've must have went to the hospital, 'cause I saw Mom so little.

Suddenly Moms phone rang and she looked at me in a apologetic way.
"Sorry, Miranda. It's my boss, I have to go!"
She kissed my foreheand soft and went away.

I sighed and Sara took my hand.
"Don't be sad. You know she doesn't mean it like that!"
I just nodded and closed my eyes again.

"You know about your heart, don't you?" asked the doctor and looked at me strictly.
I nooded and suddenly I felt very stupid.

Yes, I knew about my heart, but I still ran.
"So you know that you shouldn't run, too?"
I didn't do anything and he sighed.

"I guess you know that and I really have to tell you that you could have been dead. The next time, you won't do anything like this again, okay?"
I nooded and felt guilty.

"Good. You're going to stay here just today to see if everything goes well, tomorrow you can go back to school: but be carefull!"

I nooded again and he smiled at me, then he went outside to another room to the next patient.

"Sorry, sweety. But I have to go now aswell. I meet my best friend today!"
"Don't worry, have fun!"
I said and so Sara went away now aswell.

So I layed there.
Alone.
With a kind of feeling I couldn't explain.
Then I understood: it was lonelyness..