Maybe if I wasn't deaf...

Prologue
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Maybe if I wasn't deaf I could hear the anger in my Father's voice. I could run away just in time but I will never. I will always have to take the beatings.

Maybe if I wasn't deaf I could beg for forgiveness. He doesn't read my signs. I wonder if I'm screaming loud enough?

Maybe if I wasn't deaf I could her my mother's screams echo through the house. I could stop him or at least comfort my poor mother. She'll have to cry on her own.

Maybe if I wasn't deaf it would be easier to say something about the beatings. I can't sign while I'm shaking and crying. Besides, who will listen?

Maybe if I wasn't deaf I would've heard about the gambling. I just assumed all that money was being spent on me. I could've eaten a little more.

Maybe if I wasn't deaf I would've heard the door burst open. I would've ran and ran. Or I would've died checking out the sound.

Maybe if I wasn't deaf I would've heard the gunshots. Two right in a row. I would've ran then. I wouldn't have wanted to look at my parents' corpses for long.

Maybe if I wasn't deaf I would've heard my own door being slammed open. I would've turned away from my book. I didn't need to learn Braille. I have been fine without friends.

Maybe if I wasn't deaf I could've died. That man he didn't need to spare me. Or maybe I am dead. I really don't know what was in that needle.

Maybe if I wasn't deaf...

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