Amelia just wanted to roll up and cry or go to the studio and throw herself into Zac's arms, let him tell her that everything would be alright.

But she couldn't, she had to do something, and she had a lot of things to take care of, she could break down when she was done.

She called the airline and got a ticket back to Denmark on the first available flight, then she went to her apartment to pack up.

She went from room to room, the tears slowly running down her face, was this the end of everything ?

Zac's things she put in a bag, which she would go by his house with on the way to the airport, except for his favourite T-shirt, it smelled like him and she put it in her suitcase.

She walked a last round to make sure she hadn't forgotten anything, before she closed up and locked the apartment, she left the car keys on the kitchen counter and got a taxi to Zac's house.

At his house Amelia collected her stuff, and left the bag with his things, together with his spare keys and the keys for her apartment.

She had debated constantly with herself what to say to Zac and how, she couldn't tell him the truth and she couldn't tell him face to face even though she knew it was the right thing to do, but she knew she would break if she had to.

She ended up writing him a letter and leaving it where he would find it as soon as he came home.

               Dearest Zac
               I am so sorry to have to do it this way, but
               I don't want to disturb you when you are
               working, and to be honest I am to much of
               a chicken to do it face to face.
               I have to return to Denmark, there is something
               important I have to take care of, I am so sorry.
               I don't know how long this will take, but I am
               going to need space to get it done, I hope you
               understand.
               It has nothing to do with you Zac, you are the
               most amazing man in the world and I love you
               so unbelievable much, I am the one there is
               something wrong with. 
               I hope you can forgive me and I don't expect
               anything from you, you are free to move on with
               your life.
               Yours forever Ami

She felt really bad doing it this way, but it was the only way she was capable of doing it.

It would be wrong to drag him into this, she couldn't let him see that she wasn't as perfect as he believed, she wouldn't be able to handle the disappointment in his eyes if he found out.

She called a cab to take her to the airport, luckily no one recognised her, she was happy not having to explain.

When she was sitting in the business lounge she sent a text to Jasper > Sorry, I am on my way back to Denmark, I will contact you when I am home <

When her phone rang a few minutes later, she thought it was Jasper and picked it up without looking.

"Ami darling what is happening ? Where are you ?" It was Zac, apparently he had come home early.

Some part of her wanted to hang up, but she couldn't do that to him. "I am so sorry Zac, I am at the airport, I wish I could tell you what is happening, but I can't".

"You know you can tell me anything right ? Nothing would change my feelings for you baby". His voice were breaking slightly and she knew he was close to tears.

She shook her head, she just couldn't drag him into this. "I know sweetie, but I can't talk about this, I am truly sorry".

"But what about us ? Does this have anything to do with us ? Are we .. Are you leaving me again ? His voice were hoarse and he was clearly fighting to keep himself together.

She couldn't crush him like that, she knew he wouldn't be able to handle the truth right now, it was wrong to lie, but he needed time to get used to the idea, to get it a little at a time.

"Zac it has nothing to do with us, but I don't know how long this will take, I don't know when I will be able to to come back, so I can't expect you to just wait". She was biting her cheek, it would only get worse if she broke down.

He was breathing deeply a couple of times. "Ami, I just need to know one thing, do you still love me ?"

"Yes Zac, I love you more than anything else, that hasn't changed at all, I don't think it ever will". She could feel the tears run down her face.

She could hear the relief in his voice. "That's all I need to know baby, I will wait for you, no matter how long it might take and what it is you have to do, I love you to".

"I have to go now Zac, take good care of yourself, goodbye my love". She hang up and turned of her phone, fighting hard not to break down in the middle of the airport.

She walked to the gate to board the plane, to fly back home to a very hard choice.