Helo :P I know I haven't updated in a while...sorry bout that.

The song is Driving Myself Insane by Frankie J and it rocks. It fits Jason's situation with Lux PERFECTLY

Lux's P.O.V.

"Okay honey just keep this wrapped around your arm for tonight and that should be it" The pack doctor told me as she started gathering her things. For some reason she looked familiar, I didn't know how but she did.

"Do I know you?" I asked her cocking my head to the side. She smiled and shook her head

"No. But you know my daughter Ren I believe" A light bulb flashed in my head and I smiled, of course she was Ren's mother the similarities were obvious

"You look a lot alike" I told her and she nodded

"That's what my husband says as well" she held her bag "Okay honey get well soon and don't put too much pressure on that arm. I'm going now get some rest honey I'll tell those boys not to bother you til tomorrow."

"You don't have to I'm fin I--" I started but she interrupted

"No you are my patient and these are doctor's orders. Now rest" I smirked and nodded, resting my head on the pillow and allowing myself to fall deep asleep, I thanked god we decided to take a day off from school tomorrow cause frankly I wouldn't have gone either way.

I woke up hours later and noticed it was dark now about 1 AM, my mind went through the events of the day. I never could get much sleep after a fight and this was just too close, I almost lost Jason in it. I found myself in need of some fresh air. I stood up and put on a jacket over my tank top and sweats and went to the backyard and kept walking till I reached the lake.

The lake was one of my favorite places before I left, it always made me feel peaceful. I sat on the edge of it, hugging my knees to myself and leaning against the tree beside me.

"thought I'd find you here" I head an all too familiar voice say behind me. I looked behind me and sighed 

"Not tonight Damon please, not tonight" I said looking back at the lake. I heard him sigh and could imagine him running his hand through his hair.

"I just wanted to see if you were okay Lux" he said and I heard his footsteps coming closer. "I mean it's been an interesting day for you"

I chuckled humorlessly and shook my head "That's one way to describe it" He sat beside me

"how did you know about the explosion?" he asked and I sighed tightening the robe around me

"he told me.. didn't catch his name but I'm guessin he's the boss of them" I said still staring at the lake, not wanting to look at him yet.

"you scared me" he said in a barely audible voice that I doubted I heard him, but I did.

"What?" my brows furrowed and I finally looked at him, only he wasn't looking at me, his eyes were  on his lap 

"When I saw...when I saw you after you pushed Jason. When the house exploded I...I was terrified Lux, i's a sight I never want to see again: you hurt."

I didn't answer and averted my gaze back to the lake., the moonlight was shining on it making it look breathtaking.

"I think I should go sleep now" I said just as a slight breeze came and my jacket opened just a bit.

Damon clutched the grass with his hands and nodded "This time I think you should" he glanced at my open robe that I hastily closed again.

I got up and started walking away when I heard tell me to wait I urned around and waited for him to talk

"When I took you to paintball. Why did you hit me? I saw in your eyes Lux you weren't going to but then suddenly changed your mind. Am I wrong?"

"No you're right" I admitted honestly"I wasn't really intending on hitting you"

He looked at me in confusion "then why the painful kick?"

I smirked as I remembered our time, I actually, sorta had fun but I was determined to prove Jason wrong, that I wasn't really a pathetic silly little mate but when I hit him it wasn't about that, it was about what he said

"you called me beautiful" I stated before turning on my heel and leaving without hearing his response, he wouldn't get it, of that I was sure. Hell, no normal person would get it. I spent most of my time with them two years ago listening to how ugly and fat I was, just because I lost weight and became 'hot'  I was suddenly beautiful? I didn't want that

I walked back to my room and stopped in my tracks. Perfect I thought Just freaking perfect

"hey" he said awkwardly, standing near my bed "I knew you have trouble...um..sleeping after a fight so...I mean...I always used to sleep with you so...you could sleep...good...so I...uh...came"

I looked a Jason and shook my head. It's true Jason always helped me sleep after a fight but I was wondering now if he ever really wanted to.

Since when did we become like this? standing awkwardly not knowing what to say? since when were Jason and I so apart? Had I really lost Jason?

"you know what? No" I said "I'm not losing you Jase." he was about to say something but I cut him off "I mean I know how I was when I first came, I know how pathetic I was, but I...just...I was..you know what I just came from. I didn't know I was a burden I didn't know you put up with me and I'm sorry. I guess I...I guess I depended on you too much" I looked at the ground "I just thought....I thought of you guys as family. I'll stop depending on you. I'll stop being a burden." I gulped "but I won't lose you Jase. I can't lose you cause even if you don't think the same you're my family, my best friend." I looked back at him "And I want my best friend back"

I looked up and was surprised to see Jason shaking his head. Damn I thought my speech would work

"Okay then" I said and shifted awkwardly. Suddenly I felt myself engulfed in a bear hug.

"God damn it Lux" Jason said gently against my hair "I was mad" he kissed my hair "I was stupid" he kissed my forehead "I was an asshole" He looked me in the eye "I said things I didn't mean. Things I'd never say because they weren't true. Lux you were never a burden, we all love you especially me and you know it. I'm sorry that I hurt you, I just got caught up and didn't think about what being a mate means. I know it's hard for you."

He hugged me again "I love you Lux, and I'm not going anywhere."

"You sure you didn't mean it? I told you I could--"

"shut up" he said gently and looked into my eyes as if trying to see something, I had no idea what. I yawned then and he sighed looking kinda disappointed. "Come on you need to rest"

We walked to my bed and both got in. Jason placed an arm under my head and another over my waist as I curled against him and rested my head in the croon of his neck.

"Love you lux" he said and I yawned closing my eyes.

"love you too Jase" I said and just befoe I fell asleep I could have sworn I heard Jason mumble something but I didn't hear it as I dosed off.

"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE?" I heard an angry voice say from the doorway. I opened my eyes to see a very angry Damon standing at the door. I looked up confuse but when I saw Jason sleeping next to me understanding dawned on me. "SOMEONE BETTER EXPLAIN THIS"

"Explain what?" Jason said angrily "This has nothing to do with you"

"It has everything to do with me" Damon answered through clenched teeth. "Now get away from her"

"Well good morning to you too guys" I said sitting up "I don't know about you but...I'm going back to bed so just keep it quiet please"

"Oh no your not" I heard Damon say and in a second I was thrown over his shoulder as he walked to the door"You're not going back to sleep with that asshole"

"I suggest you put her down" Jason said through clenched teeth and Damon turned around ruining my view of everything except his ass...which by the way looked extremely--WAIT WHAT AM I SAYING?

You're saying the truth that our mate has a FINE ass  my wolf said and I rolled my eyes

Now is not the time I told her 

"I suggest you get out" Damon answered him I sighed and there was silence, my guess is they were glaring at each other

"helloo...Girl hanging upside down here, and she suggests you both stop this silliness" I said and I felt Damon stiffen

"you were in a bed with him Lux. How do you expect me to react" he growled at me, I rolled my eyes

"Well one Jason is my best friend and I always sleep next to him and two you have no right to tell me what to do remember Damon?" I said and I heard him growl "Now put me down or else"

He snorted "or else what? You're hanging over my shoulder there's nothing you can do"

"There's sure as hell something I can do" Jason growled and I heard him take a step forward I wanted him to shut up so Damon would calm down. Sheesh! he was an alpha too doesn't he already know how much they hate to get challenged?

"You'll regret it if you don't put me down Damon" I instructed him but he didn't answer so I sighed and shrugged as I lifted my leg and kicked him where the sun don't shine.

Damon groaned and fell to the floor. Jason was immediately by my side helping me up

"Nice hit" he said, I nodded as I glanced at Damon guiltily; this was the second time I hit him hard where it hurts and I felt kinda bad for causing him pain.

"Stay...away from her" Damon gasped standing up, wincing at the pain "I'll kick your ass"

"Not before I kick yours you worthless piece of shit" Jason said placing me behind him as Damon walked toward me. Damon saw that action and his eyes darkened and he started growling.

Jason snarled at him and kept me behind him though I tried to get away to stop this but his grip was firm

guys I called them

Some people are still asleep Lux Shane said

Please head down here or this is not going to end well. I told them

Why? Taylor said What's wrong?

Damon and Jason I stated

"LET HER GO" Damon snarled "NOW"

"NO" Jason roared "You have NOTHING to do with her"

"MINE" Damon said just as the door opened to reveal the guys who all looked shocked at the way we looked; me behind Jason who was shaking and Damon standing about to change just in front of us.

"Wow guys" Chase said "Calm down"

"SHE'S MINE" Damon growled and I could tell his wolf was taking over 

"NO SHE'S NOT" Jason yelled "She's MY girlfriend"

I froze in shock. What? What did he just say? Damon's eyes widened and then narrowed and he looked angrier than ever.

Jason apparently realised what he said and noticed Damon getting even angrier

"Exactly asshole" Jason said "We're together" and with that he turned around and before I could even register what was happening he grabbed my face in both his hands...and kissed me.

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 Unconventional way of telling her his feelings eh? :P

And I'll upload as soon as I can I swear.

Hope you liked the chapter.