HELLO EVERYONE!! THis was my first story and I ask you to please not judge my writing based off of this. My grammar has improved since then and so have my stories (at least I hope they have). There's a lot of things I regret about this story but I still love it because, like I said, it was the first one I had written. I hope you enjoy it

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Dear Lux

I have to admit your last email got me mad as hell. They have no right treating you like they do and the fact that your brother isn't sticking up for you is really sick. I'm sorry I know you've told me a million times not to talk about your pack and your brother but I can't help it. You're too nice Lux and don't believe a word they say you're beautiful, don't protest you've sent me pictures remember? Look my offer still stands, the whole pack agrees you should come from what I've told them about you. And they don't mind you living with us and becoming one of us. Just leave that stupid place with the stupid people that don't care and come here, no one will treat you badly I won't allow it. Future Alpha remember? ;) 

Sincerely, your pen pal

Jason.

I looked at the email wondering what to write back. I first started emailing Jason two years ago and we've been best friends ever since. We know everything about each other, and I love him to death. Recently he's been telling me to run away and live with him and his pack but I just couldn't do that. They may all be mean to me but I couldn't help but think that maybe they cared, plus I couldn't just abandon them, thats wrong.

I shut my laptop and decided to answer him later. It was about 6:30 AM and I had half an hour to get dressed and go to school. I put some baggy clothes and tied my blonde hair in a ponytail. I looked in the mirror and sighed.  As good as it gets, I thought to myself.

I didn't consider myself pretty, not at all. I had blond hair and blue eyes, which would look great on most girls but on me just weird, and I was sort of fat. Not like obese but fat nonetheless. 

"Come on Lux we need to go," my brother Jared yelled obviously irritated from behind my door. 

"Why so early?" I yelled back

"Did you forget Damon turns sixteen today? He'll find his mate, so he wants to go early and see all the girls." My heart did a flip at the mention of Damon. Damon was my crush for so long and the future alpha of the pack; he'd be the official alpha at seventeen. Every wolf finds his mate at sixteen. He just looks at her and his wolf tells him that she's his mate, as for her she has to actually touch him to know. If she feels like an electric shock went through her when she frst touches a peron, then she knows he's her mate.

I was fifteen, a year younger than Damon and Jared but because I was smart I was in the same level as them and had the same classes. 

"I'll be right there," I checked myself in the mirror once more before I got out and followed my brother to his car, I couldn't help but wonder who would be Damon's mate. I knew she had to be pretty and couldn't help feeling a bit jealous knowing she'd have him. Damon and I used to be friends before we ended up in highschool and he turned mean. But it was the memory of him being nice to me that made me like him, Damon used to always cheer me up whenever I was sad.

"Why do you take so long, it's not like you're going to get pretty anytime soon," my brother said driving to school. I just ignored him and stared out the window. It was normal for my brother to insult me, he became mean as soon as he reached highschool too. To be popular you couldn't be nice with the fat nerd of the pack.

 "We're here," he parked the car right next to Damon's car and I saw Damon leaning on the hood of his car watching the parking lo,t looking for his mate eagerly.

"Have you found her, man?" my brother asked coming up behind him. 

"No but I swear I can smell her scent, it's amazing," he said not even turning around. I stood there awkwardly thinking about leaving; I still had time before my first class so that meant I could hang out at the library. 

 "I'm just going to head inside," I said making Jared and Damon turn around. When Damon looked at me his eyes grew wide and he stared at me for a moment before flashing me the disgusted look I was so used to. I just ignored him and walked to the school, all the while feeling his eyes on my back.

The rest of the day went by as normal, I got constant remarks about my weight and how ugly I am from everyone including my pack members. Yeah that's right, even my pack members hate me and wish I was never in their pack. They think I'm weak and chubby but it's not my fault they never paid me enough attention to help me train the way they do with everyone else.

It wasn't until I was heading to my brother's car that I saw all the guys from the pack crowded around Damon's car, hence making it impossible to get to Jared's car. I started pushing past some people but when my shoulder brushed someone else's I felt an electric shock course through my body. I gasped and looked to see who it was and my eyes widened when I saw it was Damon.

"Oh my god," I said and he looked at me like he wanted to kill me, "You're my mate." I was sure everyone heard me because suddenly everyone stopped talking and looked at me and Damon. 

 "What are you talking about?" Damon snapped at me. I was confused, how couldn’t he know I was his mate?

 "I'm your mate Damon, didn't you notice?" I thought of the way his eyes widened when he saw me in the morning he must have known.

Damon snorted, "I'm not your mate Lux." 

My wolf growled, confirming to me that he was and that I wasn't mistaken. My wolf wouldn't react like that to just some guy.

 "Yes you are," I said getting irritated. What was his problem?

"Like I'd have some fat ugly loser as a mate. In your dreams, Lux. Look I've been nice to you and ignored your stupid crush all this time because your Jared's sister but pretending to be my mate now that's a new low for you." I stared at him, hurt and close to tears. But more than anything I was pissed. BEING NICE? He was the person who bullied me the most and my brother never stopped him. 

He was rejecting me as his mate. He was ashamed of me. Suddenly I felt someone grab my arm and lead me to the passenger side of Jared's car. I got in but was still in a daze, my own mate… the person who as supposed to love me, rejected me. Why did I expect anything different? Why did I think having a mate would change everything?

I didn't even notice Jared get in the car and drive us home until my door was opened and Jared got me in the house.

“What the hell Lux?" Jared asked anger in his eyes.

 "What?" I asked confused.

 "Why did you lie and say you were Damon's mate? Now I'm never going to hear the end of it with the pack." He ran a hand through his hair and pinched the bridge of his nose trying to control his anger. 

"WHAT?!" I yelled and I knew my eyes were now turning black like they always did when a wolf was mad, "HE IS MY MATE!"

"That's enough," he punched the wall beside me, "I am so sick of your pathetic ass bothering me all the time. You’re a waste of air Lux. No one like you in the pack or even in school you lard butt and now you’re some freaking stalker after Damon. Cut it out Lux." I looked at my brother and shook my head lightly in disbelief.

"You don't believe me," I whispered more to myself than to myself. His words sunk in and I realized he was right. No one wants me here. No one really cares no matter what I hoped.

I ran up to my room and threw myself on the bed crying my eyes off. How could this happen? How could I fool myself into thinking anyone cares here? My own mate rejected me.

After I was done crying I sat in bed and my eyes drifted to my laptop. Someone did care and I would be stupid not to leave this place.

I quickly opened my laptop and opened Jason's email. I hit reply and wrote:

Dear Jason,

I'm taking you up on your offer. I'll be at your door in about a day or two. I'll explain why the change of mind later, for now all I can say is that you were right, and it hurts like hell. By the time you read this I'll be on my way. Can't wait to see you!

With love,

Lux

I sent the email and got a bag out of the closet and threw some clothes in it along with my iPod, Laptop, cellphone, books and a couple of stuff I needed. I decided to write a note so I got a pen and paper and wrote down quickly:

Leaving for good, I can tell when I'm not wanted. Don't worry, none of you will ever see my face again. And rest assured that means I'm leaving the pack as well. Bye!

Lux

I saw Jared's car leave the house and knew he must be going to the pack house where all the pack got together after school, except me.

I put the note in the kitchen where I knew someone would find it; werewolves eat a lot and Jared would definitely go in the kitchen as soon as he got home.

I got my bag and called a cab to take me to the train station. I used the money my parents always kept for us to use for emergencies to call a cab, and grabbed the money I've been saving up hoping it would be enough to get to Jason's pack

I looked one last time back and said a silent 'goodbye' but I didn't cry and I didn't look back again. I was numb by then.