Hey guys :D

The song of this chap it 'breathe again' by Sara bareilles. It's for Lux's P.O.V. not Damon's and the pic...well it just fits her P.O.V. too in two ways :P 

Okay so I wasn't going to start Damon's  P.O.V. at the dance I wanted it after but after seein your comments I thought 'what the heck' right? 

Vote, comm, Enjoy :D

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Damon's P.O.V.

Damon, just finished my patrol shift  Jared told me through the mind link and I groaned, I had to listen to the patrol reports "patrol report I'll be right back" I told my beautiful mate

"If there's anything new you'll tell me right?" she said sternly and I smiled and nodded and left. God damn it she was so beautiful and dancing with her, having her so close seemed almost surreal. I saw Jared and headed towards him.

"We've found a few rogues along the lines of our territory but we can't attack because they aren't technically on our territory

That was what frustrated me most about rogues, they knew exactly what to do so the packs would be helpless well not this pack.

"Keep an eye open, their activity has increased lately and I want to know why" Jared nodded and left.

Alpha permission to speak with you I heard a faint, scared voice say through the mind link   alone

I turned around and saw Melissa standing there looking scared but determined. "I just wanted to congratulate you"

block out the rest of the pack alpha please she begged and I did now just go with me please

why? I asked suspiciously

It's about the rogues. I stiffened and she gave me a warning look when I stiffened please alpha its dangerous

"On what?" I asked playing along

"Finding your mate" she said with an obviously fake smile "We finally have a Luna huh?Lux is going to be a perfect alpha female"

Deny it she said Don't admit Lux is your mate 

I let out a growl, what the hell? Why would I deny her? I'd never do that I wanted Lux to be my mate, to be alpha female.

Never I growled at her and she winced

She's in danger alpha she said with a look of sorrow More than you can imagine 

What Danger? I said suddenly more alert than ever as I turned and saw Lux sitting with her friends Who would dare try and hurt her

Rogues Melissa answered She will get hurt if you don't do this

"What?" I asked confused as to why the rogues would set their sights on Lux, and then i understood why Melissa didn't want me to confirm that Lux was my mate.

let them try I snarled I'll protect her with my life they won't go near her

You think she'll let you protect her? Melissa thought I think you know Lux by now and even if you stay with her 24/7 they'd still get to her Damon. Do you really want to risk her life?

I glared at her but knew she was right, I was going to solve the rogue problem. I was going to make sure they would never pose a threat to my mate, ever. And when they're dealt with I was going to declare to both packs proudly that Lux is my mate, like it's supposed to be.

My fists clenched as I said the words that I swore never to say "Lux isn't my mate, I don't have one" I felt my heart tear at that "never did"

Melissa looked at me sympathetically "Oh, I'm sorry I spoke too soon alpha"

You're doing the right thing She said I'll explain everything to you after the dance alpha I swear. And please don't tell anyone.

I won't but I will if you don't offer me an explanation after this dance  I said before she left and the winter king and queen were getting announced

"And winter queen is" the principal opened the envelope and I smiled confidently knowing my mate would be it, she underestimated how many people loved her. "Lux Marison"

I looked at the crowd and found my mate, looking dazed as Chase laughed and pushed her onto the stage, she still looked shocked and my brows furrowed did this really surprise her that much?The principal put the crown on her head and took the other envelope while Lux simply stared ahead of her, like she was in a daze.

"And winter king is" the principal smiled "Damon Lytton" I smiled and went on the stage confidantly as the principal put the crown on me. 

"Lux" I whispered taking her hand so we could dance, like the Winter King and Queen usually do but she took a step back, her gaze went to the crowd and she gazed at them. Okay what the hell? Was something wrong? did something happen? "Lux" I repeated

"No" she whispered breathing faster "NO" she threw the tiara on the floor and ran down the steps, I was immediately chasing after her

"What's wrong with her?" I heard Jason ask me sternly

"No idea" I said as I chased her out the door, calling her name as she walked, more like jogged away. When we got outside she finally talked "Stay away Damon"

"What do you mean stay away?What's wrong? Come on Lux talk to me I'm your--" 

but I didn't get to finish as she turned around, hurt and anger in her eyes and shoved me back "NO" she pushed me again "YOU DO NOT GET TO CALL ME THAT" her bottom lip trembled "you do not get to call me that"

She seemed to be trying to keep herself together as she took a deep breath, her eyes on me, not noticing the group of people behind me "I came here...and I told myself I won't be the same girl I was. I won't allow myself to get hurt. And it was working at first. it was" she seemed to be in so much pain I wanted to gather her in my arms "And then you...and then you had to-to decide you wanted me. you just had to tell me that you never wanted to-to reject me and to-hurt me that way"

I was shocked, what the hell? "It was true Lux I-"

"And I believed it" she chuckled humorlessly ignoring what I said "i believed it." She shook her head lightly and then surprisingly tears made their way down her cheek. I stood there shocked, each tear like a knife to the heart. What happened? She looked over my shoulder and a few more tears left her eyes 

"I look--I look around" she continued "and I see mates that are happy to be together, t-that are madly in love and I...I think: What the hell did I do wrong? What did I do to deserve this?" She let out a sob and I took a small step towards her "because Mates aren't s-supposed to be this way. They're not. The-they're supposed to love each other no matter what, they're n-not supposed to do this"

I was extremely worried now, what the hell happened for her to be like this? I couldn't be more confused

"I actually" she said with disbelief "i went soft. I trusted you and I-I gave you..I...I...Oh god" She closed her eyes and another sob escaped her "I gave you a chance"  She opened her eyes and looked at me and what I saw there scared me and worried me greatly  "And just when I let my guard down you-you" I gulped "you do this? I'm such an idiot"

"Lux I dont' understand what did I do?" I begged her to tell me just so I can ease her pain.

She looked at the ground for a bit and then looked up and I took an involuntary step back, the fire and fierceness in her eyes wasn't there now, only pure defeat and hurt. "Lux isn't my mate" she said and a wave of fear and understanding swept through me as I remembered the words I'd told Melissa "I don't have one. Never did" What the hell have I done? "Even after everything. After I changed so drastically" she sniffed "I'm still not good enough for you. Still ashamed of me"

No lux please don't think that "Lux let me explain" I pleaded. I knew she'd be in physical pain now, to be denied before marking was one thing but if your mate denies you after you've been marked your wolf is in actual physical pain, other than the heartbreak and I did that to lux.

"No" she said "no more explaining, I'm done Damon" her words killed me as she wiped her tears "Congratulations you won"

WON WHAT?!?! I wanted to scream at her. I wanted nothing but her but I knew what she meant "Lux I--"

"Don't" she whispered, turning around and running away. I just stood there, not believing. I had hurt her , the one thing I promised myself not to ever do again. God damn it what had I done?

"You Bastard" I heard Chase say before I found myself pressed against a wall with Chase snarling at me. I growled as my eyes turned black, my wolf did not like being challenged "We fucking told you to not to even think about hurting her you son of a bitch"

"Know your place beta" I said using my alpha tone "Now let go before I make you" 

"please do so maybe we'd have an excuse as to why we killed the alpha."

Suddenly Chase was thrown off me as Micheal, Zach and Jared flanked me. Jared threw me a glare but turned back to the guys. I knew he was only protecting me because I was his alpha.

I looked at Jason and his pack, they were all glaring menacingly at me, even the twins who usually joked about everything.

"We fucking told you not to hurt her you worthless piece of shit" Jason yelled standing in front of me. Jared was in front of Chase, just as Taylor was facing Zach and the twins were facing Micheal, all in defensive positions. But there were humans in the school we knew we couldn't shift but that didn't stop the multiple growls coming from both packs

"I have a reason" I said knowing it wasn't good enough, Lux wasn't supposed to hear me say that, she wasn't supposed to hear me denying her for that reason. "I'll explain later. I had to" I remembered Melissa telling me not to tell anyone "i have to find someone" and with that I turned around and left back to the school. I could hear Jason about to follow me but Taylor stopping him

"not now, let's go find Lux"

I sighed, I needed to talk to Lux but I had to find Melissa first, I had to let her explain before I put anyone in danger

Lux's P.O.V.

I lay still in my bed, the pain I felt when Damon first rejected me wasn't as sharp because I got used to it. I just curled up in my bed crying silently. I heard my door open and pretended to be asleep, I just couldn't see anyone.

"Lux?" I heard Taylor say in a hesitant voice "You awake?"

I didn't answer and tried to look like I was sleeping, I always had a hard time acting around my boys. I heard footsteps coming closer to my bed

"She's asleep?" I heard Shane ask "Or is she acting?"

"No" Taylor answered "She's asleep guys" I was surprised they believed my act.

"She okay?" I heard chase ask and seconds later I felt fingers brush my tear-stained cheeks and a sigh

"No she's not" Taylor said

"Come on we'll talk to her in the morning" Jason said "Let her rest for now, she's had a shitty night"

I felt Taylor cover me up to make sure I was comfortable before he kissed me on the forehead "Sweet dreams L. Sorry we couldn't stop this" 

After the guys left I forced myself to stop crying,I couldn't go back to being the old Lux, I just couldn't.

*****

punch punch, kick thought to myself trying to  take my mind off of the only thing I've been thinking about since morning: Damon.

I woke up early, like 5 AM early and headed to the gym, I've been there ever since just venting all my anger on the punching bag

Punch after punch, My body was tense, my jaw clenched as I delivered blow after blow to the punching bag. My blows stronger as I remembered, as the pain increased

I heard the door open and close and almost froze, but the scent wasn't Damon's it was my boys so I just kept on punching

"Lux?" I heard Shane say "You okay?"

"I'm fine" I said without turning around "You don't have to worry" I did a spin kick and hit the punching bag with so much force it almost tore off, thank god they customized it to handle wolf strength.

"Your not fine" Chase said "Talk to us"

"About what?" I asked "Nothing to talk about" I punched the bag hard "I gave him a chance" Punch "He screwed it up"

"Lux we know you're hurt but--"

"Oh I'm not just hurt" I said my punches getting stronger "I'm seething" I landed a punch so strong I felt something break in my hand, making a noise any wolf in the room would hear but I ignored it and kept on punching.

"Your hurting yourself" Taylor said "Using your energy in your...condition is dangerous" I knew he was referring to my wolfs weakness by the rejection but I couldn't care less.

"I don't give a fuck" I said and turned around once to look at them with determination "I'll be damned if I let this thing" I pointed to my mark "Stop me from being and doing what I usually do" I turned back and started punching the bag, grunting and groaning in frustration and anger in each hit.  "I'm not" I said feeling the tears welling up in my eyes, trying to keep them away "Going to" I punched the bag as some tears escape "let him change me again"

I was punching blindly venting my anger and letting my tears fall until finally I heard Jason mutter "that's it"and wrap his arms around me trying to pull me away.

I struggled, arms flailing, legs kicking trying to get out of his grasp as I cried until I finally surrendered to his embrace and fell to my knees

"I don't have it in me anymore" I said "I don't have it in me to control the pain my wolf is feeling, to try and not feel hurt" I kept my gaze at the ground "I don't have it in me to fight anymore"

I tried wiping my tears away but new ones would take their place so I just gave up "And the worst part is: I can't run away this time. I can't because he marked me" I closed my eyes tightly "Because this mark makes it even more painful to be too far from him but it still hurts like hell now that he...he...rejected me again"

I felt myself being pulled up as Jason sat me on his lap on the bench, just like old times. The twins were stroked their hands along my arms trying to soothe me, something they always did when I was upset. "I won't go back to being the pathetic mate I won't I...I can't go back to that" 

"he said he needed to talk to someone yesterday" Cameron said "And he just got back minutes before, he wants to talk to you"

I took a deep breath and wiped my tears, think rational Lux "I guess I don't have another choice huh?" The boys looked at me sympathetically "it's okay just let me go change and just calm down a bit. I'll talk to him later"

The guys nodded and I stood up and kissed each one of them on the cheek before leaving for my room. Once I had the door closed I noticed my phone vibrating on my bed. it was Melissa, I remembered her text to me last night saying that she was sorry Damon said that, I shook my head no more thinking about Damon I told myself before answering

"Lux" Melissa's scared voice whispered at the other end "Lux I need your help"

"What's wrong?" I asked immediately alert

"I'm in the woods and there are two rogues after me. Lux I can't even shift" she cried "i didn't know who else to call"

Oh hell no! I thought going to my closet not my friends I grabbed my gun and the new bullets I made

"I'm on my way" and with that I opened my window and leaped effortlessly to the ground running towards the woods. I tracked Melissa's scent till i found her curled up next to a tree crying.

"Melissa" I said kneeling next to her "You're not hurt right?" she shook her head and I sighed in relief "Take this" I gave her my gun knowing she needed it more than I did "Even if you don't know how to shoot, just fire at any rogue that comes near you" she nodded and I helped her up. I looked around and saw more than just two wolves surrounding us. "Run Melissa."

I kicked the wolf next to me allowing Melissa to run and she did but a wolf went after her. I tried to go after him but three others were already attacking me. I smirked

"rogues to kill, just what I needed" One of them attacked me and I easily dodged him, grabbing him by the neck and throwing him to the ground while the other jumped at my back and bit into my shoulder. I groaned but flung him into a tree. I placed my leg on the neck of the one on the floor and punched the other one in the stomach as he lunged at me.

Out of nowhere two other rogues came up, what the hell? since when do they attack in large numbers. I immediately shifted to wolf and started fighting them, I knew i was bleeding from my shoulder but couldn't stop knowing what would happen.

Guys I called through the mind link just as I bit a wolf on his neck till he went limp

yeah they answered and just as I was about to tell them a wolf bit my leg and I howled before kicking him on the head, leaving him unconscious. There were two wolves left, I knew I could take them on they were in worse shape than I was.

"I wouldn't take another step if I were you" I heard a familiar voice say. I looked up to see the man from the rogue house, the leader.  glared at him and kept my defensive stance but I took a step back in shock when a guy came from behind him holding Melissa. "Shift back" he said and I shook my head they would not see me naked "hey, hey I'm a gentleman" he threw me a shirt "now shift back before I kill her"

I went behind a tree and shifted back

guys?I tried asking but I couldn't get to them, damn those rogues.

I stepped from behind the tree and the leader smirked "We meet again"

"I would say I'm glad but" I clicked my tongue "Then I'd be lying" He smirked and motioned for the guy holding Melissa to move next to him and I narrowed my eyes "You know it's rude to threaten your hosts' friends"

"I've never bothered with manners" he said with a smirk "besides it was the only way I could think of to make you stop killing my fighters"

I snorted "Your fighters are weak" Complete lie, they were well trained but I kept my blank face on "You need to step up your training"

"Maybe I'l have you train them" 

"No thanks I stick to the better side, not some control-craving mutts"

He growled at that and I smiled knowing I was getting to him. Guys I called again but no one answered "I have to say very low move with the lycotine gas" I cocked my head to the side and smirked "Didn't your mom teach you not to play with drugs?"

"Good thing my mom is dead then" he smiled "Oh, I almost forgot" he turned to Melissa "Did we introduce you to Melissa?" I didn't answer as I stared at him and Melissa in confusion "Of course you know her she's been your friend right? Sneaky little devil isn't she?" he brushed his finger against melissa's cheek and she glared at him "The perfect spy"

"Spy" I stated looking at Melissa "All this time"

"you've been telling your enemies everything that's right. Of course that little stunt Melissa pulled yesterday didn't help"

"What stunt?" I asked noticing as the two wolves that were left from before circled me.

"She felt sorry for you guys, told your alpha to deny that your his mate for your protection because we had our suspicions and told her to confirm them" he laughed "She knew we'd want to have you if we knew." he smiled

I froze, so that's why Damon said what he did. God damn it how messed up things were getting. "That's kind of weak" I said not showing him my wolfs relief at not being denied, or my strength rebuilding. "Using spies. Couldn't get the work done yourself"

"We'll see exactly how I'll get the work done" he said "Let's leave a little souvenir so your friends and mate know we've been here eh?" and before I knew it a needle was injected in my neck and I fell into the darkness.

Damon's P.O.V.

I searched for Melissa the entire night, I couldn't find her and it was frustrating. Even using the mind linked she wasn't answering, she blocked me.

By the time I got to the house I was determined to tell Lux, explain to her why I said what I said but the guys stopped me and said she'll talk to me when she's ready. the entire day I've been receiving nothing but glares from everyone.

"What did she say?" I asked as Jason as the guys came to the living room from the gym. Jason glared at me but answered

"She'll talk to you soon enough. But only because she's marked and you need to figure things out but believe me right now I want nothing more than to tear you apart"

"I second that" Taylor said and I sighed. Minutes later Jason frowned "You hear that?"

"Yeah it's Lux" Chase said "But she's not answering anymore"

"Somethings wrong" Taylor got up and the guys followed as he went upstairs and knocked on Lux's room. He opened the door and the room was empty.

Her closet was open and he ran to it and got out an empty black box "The gun and new bullets" he said just as a howl came from the woods "fuck she's fighting rogues"

he jumped from her window and we followed. I picked up my pace and beat them all, following Lux's scent to the woods. I stopped when I saw five dead rogue bodies on the ground and smiled to myself knowing Lux did some serious damage, but where was she?

"Jason" Shane said in a scared voice "I think I.." I walked  towards him and froze. "it could be anyone's hair right. I'm just too messed up I'm catching the wrong scent" he looked frantically "right?"

I stared at the strand of black hair that was undoubtedly Lux's "It's a statement" I said my blood turning cold and my eyes turning black "They have her"

I turned and looked at the others who looked horrified and angry "Those fucking bastards have her"