I think I'm going to cry *Wails* There's almost 1 or maybe 2 chapters left - depends on how I decide to write the next chap- and then there's the *coughs* 'naughty' chapter :P Which I am going to post separately and then I'm going to start on the second book in the series which is going to be about Chase and his mate, I'm very excited about it. But I still feel like crying because this story is ending.

Anw, the song for this chap is 'Keeper of the stars' by Tracy Byrd. I love this song and was listening to it while writing this chap so voila.

Lol I really suck at choosing titles for the chapters btw :P I just put the first thing that comes to mind :P

Vote, Comm, Enjoy. :D

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Damon's P.O.V.

I woke up panting damn it it was the same dream again. But this time Lux didn't fade away, instead she was replaced with her beat up body covered in blood, her eyes wide in fear. I shivered and suddenly felt the need to check on her.

I got up from my bed and got out. I opened her bedroom door silently and got inside, closing it behind me. I smiled and felt relief when I saw her. She's fine. She's still here  I reassured myself. Her hair was splayed around her, one of her arms was under the pillow as she slept peacefully. God if I could take a picture of her now I would.

I felt like stalker watching her while she slept but I couldn't help it I needed to check on her. I was about to turn around and go back to my room when a knife flew missing me by an inch and ending up on the wall behind me. I turned and found Lux standing up with a bullet in front of me.

"don't think I missed, cause I guarentee I never miss. Who is this?" she said and I looked at her in confusion that's when I remembered that she was human. She couldn't see in the dark anymore.

"Lux it's me. Damon" I said and immediately she put the gun down and turned the light on

"You almost gave me heart attack" she said "What are you doing here?"

 "Where did the gun and knife come from?" I changed the subject quickly

"I always keep a gun and knife under my pillow. You never know who might attack at night"

I chuckled and rolled my eyes "should have known"

"you didn't answer my question" she said "What are you doing here?"

 "Nightmare" 

"About?"

I looked at her for a moment before I answered "losing you." I stated "I've already lost you two times I guess it's made me paranoid. I had to check on you"

she bit her lip and nodded before turning and going back into bed. I took the hint and turned around to leave. "Damon?" I heard her say

I turned and looked at her, she didn't say anything instead she scooted to the side and moved the covers "Stay with me tonight"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes"

I nodded grinning and got into bed with her. I wrapped an arm around her waist and brought her close to me. She looked so beautiful, her lips slightly parted, her hair a mess around her and her eyes as beautiful as always. I used my free hand to brush my knuckles on her cheek.

 "I love you"

She smiled and moved even closer to me, pressing her body against mine. Her lips were just inches from mine "I love you too" and then she kissed me and I immediately responded, tightening my hand around her waist as I let all the desperation, longing and frustration that I felt when she was gone into the kiss. This was the first time we've kissed since she got kidnapped and I wanted to show her just how much I loved her. 

We pulled away after a while, both of us breathless. "I was worried kissing you wouldn't feel the same without the bond" she said "It's different, but still kind of the same"

I smiled and stared at her flushed face, her swollen lips "You're so beautiful Lux" she blushed but then yawned and I smirked "Come on let's sleep" I turned around and turned off the light.

Lux snuggled closer to me, her head resting on my chest and I knew that I would never be able to sleep without her again.

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Lux's P.O.V.

I woke up the next morning and snuggled into the warmth of Damon. I couldn't remember the last time I slept this comfortable.

I smiled and rested my chin on his chest as I stared at him sleeping. God he was so handsome. He shifted a bit and pulled me tighter to him before his eyes fluttered open. A smile immediately broke on his face "Good morning" he said "I really could get used to waking up like this"

I smiled giving him a peck on the lips "me too"

"LUX WE'RE PUTTING UP THE-" The twins screamed bursting in the room but hey stopped whn they saw Damon beside me and then grinned "Christmas tree"

"You are?" I asked excitedly "I'll be right down don't start without me"

"OKay" shane said smirking "Soooo"

"You guys did it, didn't you" Cameron continued and turned to his brother "Told you they would, pay up"

I stared in shock as Shane took money from his pocket and put it in Cameron's hand "Couldn't you wait a bit Lux?"

"Oh my god you guys had a bet on when we'd have SEX?" I yelled jumping out of the bed and the twins noticed I wasn't naked "1: we didn't have sex. and two:" I grabbed one of each of their ears and led them outside "How many times have I told you not to make bets on things like that. Remember what happened last time?"

"We don't know what you're talking about" Shane said innocently

"Really?" I said crossing my arms "You're telling me you don't remember when you had a bet that the bartender was actually a guy and got thrown out of the club because you touched her breasts?"

The twins groaned "Okay that was a bad bet"

"And there was also the time when..."

"Okay okay we get it" Cameron said "Sorry"

I grinned "That's better. Now I'm gonna go get dressed and we'll put up the Christmas tree" they nodded and I got back to the room to find Damon sitting there smiling.

"Well that was interesting" he said and I rolled my eyes.

"You need to get out I'm gonna get dressed so we can put up the Christmas tree"

"Naw it's okay i can stay right here" I laughed and walked towards him 

"You wanna stay here?" I asked seductively and he looked at me shocked before he nodded hesitantly. I bent and rested my hands on the sheets, getting my lips close to his face. I smirked "Too bad" I grabbed a pillow and hit him with it.

"Okay okay I'll get out" he said as I continued to hit him "I'll get out" I stopped hitting him and smiled

"Glad you see it my way"

He shook his head and pulled me to him, giving me a long kiss before getting up and leaving. I sighed, things were getting better. Even though I didn't have my wolf, and I missed being wolf, it was so annoying being human. Bu I had to cope, I was going to be okay.

When I was ready I went downstairs and smiled at seeing a huge tree in the living room with boxes beside it.

"hey guys" I said and walked to my guys giving each one a kiss on the cheek "Come on let's start" I ran to the boxes and took the lights. The guys laughed at my excitement and started helping.

It took a while but eventually we had all the ornaments up except one.

"Time for your favorite part Lux" Shane said holding the angel "Will you do the honors"

I grinned and put a chair next to the tree I stepped on it and stood up. I hated not being tall, the guys teased me about it constantly.

I stood on my tip toes but I still couldn't reach it. I felt someone raise me higher and easily placed the top of the tree.

"Well although we were a bit ate, Christmas is tomorrow but, if I do say so myself, I think we've outdone ourselves" I said smiling. I walked to the window and looked out to the snow "I feel like playing in the snow" I turned to them "What do you think?"

"I think if you're gonna go out there you're gonna freeze to death" Damon said and my smile immediately faltered, damn it why did humans have to be so fragile. I felt Damon wrap his hands around my waist and whisper in my ear "So get upstairs and dress warm"

I grinned and threw my arms around him before running upstairs I put on a scarf, coat, and gloves and even a hat before I went downstairs.

As soon as I went downstairs I made everyone of them go out and got to working on a snowman. I started making the bottom of the snowman while the twins made the other two. Once we got the snowman ready I put the eyes nose and mouth and Damon brought me two sticks for his hand.

"And for the finale" I said taking off my scarf and putting it around the snowman "perfect" just as the word came out of my mouth I felt something cold hit my back and turned around to see the twins grinning and Damon trying to look innocent

"Why do I have a feeling it wasn't the twins this time" I said walking towards Damon "Hmm?"

"I don't know what you're talking about" 

"oh really?"

"mmhm" he said and I smirked and before he could register I grabbed a handful of snow and shoved it right in his face

"Oh You're going to regret that" Damon said and I took off running just as one of the twins screamed 'Snow Fight'

I hid behind a rock and in a matter of seconds the twins were there. "okay" I whispered "Let's teach these guys not to mess with us"

Shane grinned "They're gonna get boiled"

"Roasted"

I grinned before adding "And Steameeeed"

We all looked over the rock, spotting the guys. We spotted Chase walking towards us and I nodded at the twins before we all started throwing snow balls at him. 

"Alright, alright" he said "I give" I did our handshake with the twins before we decided to split up and search for the rest of the our targets.

I walked around, looking for someone to hit and grinned when I heard the twins screaming 'surrender evil minions'  as they threw snow at someone. I was too caught up in the twins' ridiculous shouts, realizing how much I missed that, that I didn't notice someone walking behind me

"boo" I heard a familiar voice say before snow was shoved right over my hat. I turned and glared playfully at Damon before I jumped aside, grabbed a handful of snow and started throwing snowball after snowball at him.

Damon was throwing snowballs back at me and I was laughing the entire time, hiding behind trees so they wouldn't hit me. I saw Damon run towards me and took off running in the other direction, laughing and looking back at Damon as he chased me. I knew he could catch me easily, I wasn't running fast because of the stitches and I didn't have my wolf speed, but he didn't. 

Damon finally decided to catch me as he grabbed me by the waist and spun me in the air, turning me towards him. A cold breeze swept by and I shivered, snuggling closer to Damon who wrapped his arms around me. "Cold?" he asked

I smirked, looking up at him "Yeah, you know being human and all" Damon took off his jacket and wrapped it around my shoulders, I smiled hugging myself closer to him. "No wolf privileges" 

"I like it better that way" he said and I looked up at him to see a teasing smile on his face "gives me an excuse to warm you up" I chuckled and he tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear "let's get you inside" I nodded and started walking towards the pack house when I heard a familiar voice behind me.

"Well, well look how the great have fallen" Whitney said and I turned around and looked at her through narrowed eyes as she sauntered "Zach told me about your...problem" she smirked and then fake pouted "pour Lux turned human"

Damon took a step towards her growling but I held a hand for him to stop. "What's your problem Whitney?" I asked confused at why Whitney was back to being a bitch.

"Oh I'm not the one with a problem" she said "That's you. Not so tough anymore huh Lux?"

"Oh believe me!" I said "more than tough enough to beat you"

"face it Lux" She said "you're weak now" Damon growled again and I pinched him, he was not going to fight my fight

"You're pushing your luck Whitney. Go before I make you regret what you're saying"

"I don't think you can" she said "You see Lux. I was right" she smiled "You lost everything and pretty soon you'll lose them" I felt myself starting to shake a her words, my anger getting the best of me "and with no mate bond, it's a matter of time before you lose Damon too and he'll go to some other girl." I snarled a that "he'llbe with another girl"

And that's when I snapped, a viscous growl escaped my lips and I felt myself starting to shake uncontrollably. "Lux?" I heard Damon say hesitantly

But it was like he was miles away as I felt something clawing at my insides to be free. "You better Run Whitney" I said in a voice I barely recognized as my own. Whitney grinned and looked satisfied and that's when I felt it.

I screamed in pain and fell to the floor as I writhed in the snow. My skin felt hot, too hot and my muscles were tearing one by one.

"Lux? Lux can you hear me?" Damon's frantic voice finally broke through. He had me in his arms as I writhed, a look of panic on his face. "Lux?"

"I-I.." I started but didn't continue as I screamed in agony as I felt my bones breaking one by one.

"Oh my god" I heard Damon say "She's shifting"

"W-what?" 

"you're shifting Lux. Come on baby remember the first time you shifted? It's just like that. You got through it the first time and you're gonna get through it now"

I didn't answer as I closed my eyes and clenched my teeth. My first shift hadn't been nearly this bad maybe it was because my wolf was suppressed for far too long. But all I knew was I wanted the pain to end.

After a while of writhing on the floor with Damon close by the pain was finally subsiding, I felt fur take the place of my skin and I closed my eyes as I let the change take over me.

I stayed for a while on the floor, feeling my body healing my previous injuries and trying to regain my strength. It was only when I felt a hand touching my fur, sending electric shocks through my body, that I felt able to look up.

I snapped my head and looked at Damon and smiled when I heard the familiar sound of my wolf say MATE 

Damon had a gentle smile on his face and I was guessing his wolf was saying the same.

Welcome back Lux he said through the pack link and I grinned. It was the first time I had ever heard him in my head.

Trust Lux's Wolf to come out just to kick someone's ass I heard Shane say and the other chuckled Now that's our little sis right there

I grinned, feeling happier than ever and let out an outcry of joy as I jumped and started running and rolling around in my wolf form. Though I was sure I would have been able to handle being human but it felt good to be back.

(A/N: I was gonna end this chap here but I still felt like writing so...carry on)

I told the guys I wanted to go for a run in my wolf form and they agreed, they all shifted with me and we ran in the forest for hours.

God I missed this I said enjoying the rush of running in wolf form I never thought I'd experience it again.

The guys were forming a protective circle around me as usual, and much to my irritation. But this time instead of Jason being in the front, it was Damon.

Come on guys let's head out it's getting dark I said looking at the almost orange sky tomorrow's Christmas don't forget .

Jason snorted Like you'd make us forget, Lux  I grinned evilly as we made our way back to the pack house. I stayed in my wolf form as I went inside because I didn't have anything to wear. I went to my room and just as I was about to get change back I stopped as I looked in the mirror in shock.

My wolf wasn't pure white the way it was before, instead of all white fur two black stripes were as clear as day, marching diagonally across my back and ending at my hind legs. I stared at my new fur in shock and disbelief.

"Beautiful right?" Damon asked from the door. 

how? I asked him through the mind link and he shrugged

"I guess when Taylor, the twins and I gave you blood some of our genes stuck and kind of altered your fur" he smiled before turning around to leave "Get dressed and meet us downstairs" I nodded and he left. I took a deep breath, imagining myself in my human form and shifted back. It was painful but not as the change was, and pretty soon it would be painless, like before.

I stared at my body for a few minutes and sighed, The stitches were now gone and my stomach didn't have a scratch on it because it healed while I was wolf. But my back was another story; the whip marks Robinson gave me were still as visible as ever. I guess because they healed while I was human i would always be there, a reminder.

I forced the thoughts out of my head and got dressed before heading downstairs. All of the guys were there along with Whitney and Zach. Whitney smiled at me.

I sat next to Damon and he put an arm around me as I looked at Whitney skeptically "So that was an act?"

Whitney grinned "When Zach told me the details I just knew your wolf was still in there somewhere. So I thought I'd give it a go. After all, I do tend to bring out that side of you" she winked at me "And after what you did for me it's the least I could do"

"Thanks" I said leaning against Damon "but say anything like that again and I'll kick your ass"

"Yeah, yeah"

I smiled and turned to look at everyone around "So" I said seriously "What did you guys get me for Christmas?"