Lux's P.O.V.

 "anyone here?" I said looking into the small office of the mechanic shop. To say the office was a mess would be an understatement. Papers were scattered on the floor and desk. And what looked like a pizza on the top of the chair smelled decades old.

 I hastily got out of the office and went to the garage. Finally I saw someone looking under the hood of a car.

  "Um excuse me" I said nicely. The guy glanced at me for a second and then froze with his back to me.

 He turned around quickly. "Why hello there" he said placing his hand on the car but it slipped on the rag and he fell, hitting his head on the car.

 "oh my god are you okay?" I asked running up to him. he sat up with a groan and placed his hand on his head. "that was some hit do you feel okay?"

 "Yeah your fine" he said and then his eyes widened as I tried to suppress a laugh "I..I mean I'm fine...fine as in healthy not...fine--fine. Not that your not fine...I mean your really fine...but not in a perverted way your just--"

 "I'm Lux" I interrupted him to put the poor guy out of his misery. He seemed to sense that and blushed.

  "Dean" he said as we stood up. he looked about my age with auburn hair and a bit of freckles on his cheek. "So what can I do for you?"

  "I'm actually looking for a job" I told him and he looked surprised 

 "A job? here?"

 "Yeah I love working on cars." Dean looked impressed as he wiped his hands on a rag.

 "Got any experience?" he asked me.

  "yeah I worked two years in a mechanic shop in my old town and I fixed up my own bike" I told him. He raised his eyebrows looking impressed.

 "Well I guess we could use the extra hand" he said smiling "You'll start tomorrow Lux and we'll see what you got"

 "Deal" I told him. He told me when to come the next day and I left.

 I drove to the pack house and just as I parked my bike I saw the twins coming towards me.

 "did you get a job?" Shane asked 

 "Yeah just like my job back home" I smiled "now what have you boys been up to?" I asked noticing their mischievous smiles.

 "well why don't you come in the living room and see" I rolled my eyes and walked in the living room only to see everyone gathered around the couch.

 I walked to the couch and gasped. Chase was on the couch with whipped cream on both his hands and on the floor were two plates of whipped cream for when he'd wake up

 "Guys" I looked at them disapprovingly "come on" their smiles faltered just when I grinned

 "Whipped cream is so unoriginal. Think of something else next time" I winked at them.

 "how are you planning to wake him up" Jason asked as all the guys stared at us.

 "Lux will you do the honors?" Shane asked and put my hand to my heart and wiped a fake tear before nodding.

 I moved closer to Chase and took a deep breath.

  "AAAAAAAAH! OH MY GOD CHASE WHAT'S ON YOUR FACE?" I screamed. Chase's eyes opened and immediately he reached his first hand and got whipped cream on his face. We all started laughing especially when he used his other hand to take the whipped cream off and ended up adding more to his face.

 And when he stepped in the whipped cream that was it. I clutched my stomach and had was literally on the floor from laughing so hard.

 "TWINS" Chase yelled angrily as the twins helped me up.

 "dude you just got Boiled" Shane said winking at me

 "Roasted" Cameron added

 "And steameeeeeed" I finished before breaking down laughing again. 

"Now RUN" I yelled as chase started running after us. I went up the stairs running while looking behind me when I suddenly bumped into someone and I didn't need to look up to know who it was. The electric shock from where he held my arms said it all.

"sorry I wasn't looking" I said but didn't make any attempt to leave. Not when my wolf was fighting to take control, not when I was fighting the urge to kiss him.

 Damon didn't talk as he kept his grip on my arms, his eyes changing to black. Okay I had to get a grip before things get out of hand.

I cleared my throat and tried to set my distance but Damon's grip was tight.

 "Damon?" I asked but his grip only tightened and I saw his eyes closed and he took a deep breath before letting me go

 "Sorry Lux...just first time i've had you this close...your scent...I just" he exhaled 

 "I-it's alright" damn I stuttered where the hell is the i-don't-give-a-crap Lux? But I knew what he meant "I have to go" I said walking away. Damn it Lux you can not lose control like that.

He's your mate you' will lose control around him. My wolf said

not if I can help it I told her just before I felt Damon grab my arm

 "Lux wait" he said and I turned cautiously, ignoring the tingles on my arm. he looked hesitantly at me before reaching to his jacket and pulling out a piece of paper.

 "Look I-I know I'm not your favorite person right now" he said in an almost pained voice, he avoided meeting my eyes and just looked at the ground "And believe me I'm going to work on changing that" determination was so clear in his voice that I bit my lip nervously "But for now just take this" he handed me the paper "It's my phone number Lux. I know you'll probably never use it but...jut in case you-you need something. Anything Lux, you call me right away. I don't care what time it is I'll be there in a flash."

"Damon I don't kno--"

 "Lux please it'll keep me sane" he looked up at me, his eyes pleading. Why the sudden interest? I had no idea.

 "Okay I guess" I said taking the paper from him. Damon nodded and turned around, I bit my lip feeling like I had to say something. But I didn't. I just went to my room and looked at the number in my hand and saved it on my phone. 

Okay so that wasn't how I have been treating Damon since we came. But just like he said, that was the first time we were that close and in the end he was my mate, the chemistry would always be there.

I needed a change of place so I decided to go to my parent's house for dinner. My mom always knew how to cook the best meals and I kind of missed her cooking.

I quietly walked down the stairs to go to my bike and drove to my parent's house.

I parked my bike and took off my helmet. My brows furrowed as I noticed my old bedroom's lights were on.

I knocked on the door and it immediately opened to reveal my mom.

"Lux" she said happily hugging me "Come in honey" I got in and hugged my dad as well.

 "I thought I'd come have dinner with you guys It's been a while since I've tasted your food mom" I told her smiling warmly. My mom grinned at me

 "That's perfect and with Jared here as well we can have dinner just like we used to" she said happily

 "Wait Jared is here?" I asked 

 "Yes he's in your room" Something flashed in her eyes for a second before she excused herself to go check on dinner. What was Jared doing in my room?

 "I think I'm going to go to my room a bit" I said getting up, my father just nodded trying to be nonchalant but it didn't really work well.

I went up the stairs and quietly went to my room. I opened the door slowly and saw Jared sitting on my bed with his back to me.

 "Mom I said I'll be down in a minute I have to go back to the pack house anyway it's getting late" Jared said

 "Jared?" I whispered and I saw as he stiffened. I walked up to him and sat beside him

Jared didn't look up he kept his eyes on a picture he had in front of him. It was a picture of us when we were young. I was still a blond and a bit fat and he was as handsome as ever.

 "This is the only picture I could find with you in it" he stated in a low voice "I couldn't believe it at first."

 "I wasn't a fan of pictures" I shrugged and tried to catch a glimpse of his face but I couldn't get a good look it was too dark. But I could tell he was thinner.

 "Yeah I know. Because of us" he said with disgust. I didn't say anything. What could I say? I couldn't think of anything "You have every right to hate me Lux. Hell I hate myself, I've been hating myself ever since you left. Ever since...ever since I realized what an asshole I'd been" 

He looked at me then and I was surprised to see tears streaming down his face. It broke my heart. Jared, my strong big brother who didn't take shit from anyone, looked so...vulnerable

 "I-I'm sorry.....I'm so sorry. I don't expect you to forgive me Lux. I was stupid. I just wanted to be a s-strong wolf, a g-good b-beta. I was so..stupid. T-two years Lux" he took my hands in his and I just stared at him in shock. "For two...two years my life has been a wreck. Be-because I...I knew it was....my fault...my fault th-that my sister. My s-sweet, innocent, little sister, had to...had to run away to be h-happy" he closed his eyes "th-that I wasn't there for you it killed me Lux. It kills me"

Tears kept flowing down his face as he took a shaky breath "I know I have no right to ask you to forgive me so I...I won't. I won't put you in that situation but god--" he choked on his breath and tried to talk again"God...I'm so so sorry. I don't deserve to...to be your....brother Lux. I....I'm trash. No brother does th-this. No brother tr-treats his sister the..the way I treated you. I..." he closed his eyes tightly "I'll never forget. Every...every thing I said I...I won't Lux. Never. You could scream at me, yell at me, hit me and it would be just a small price to pay for what I put you through for so...so long Lux" 

He looked directly at me "Your My L-little sister and I-I love you Lux. Don't ever forget that I-love you sis" he said and pulled me in a hug. My head was pressed against his chest as he cried and I felt his tears in my hair. I couldn't belive it as I just sat there while my brother was having a break-down. I was speechless

I was shocked, my brother had never been so torn apart. Never. Did I really affect him so bad by leaving? I didn't doubt what he said, it was obvious he was torn up. 

"I could never hate you" I said against his chest and it was true. No matter what I could never hate Jared he was my brother, my own flesh and blood and I would always love him.

 "but you can't forgive me either" Jared said "Can you?"

I thought about it. Could I forgive him?

 "Jared I...."

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So will Lux forgive Jared? What do you guys think?

Sorry I'm taking so long to write chapters but the electricity here sucks :S and I'm trying to make the chapters longer.

Hope you like it :)