Alex's POV

The struggle is useless. The kicking and screaming only gives me more satisfaction. She tries to fight against my grip, tries to plant her heels into the ground as I drag her across the field.

The collar of her shirt is almost slicing through her neck but I don't give a fuck. That's probably the least painful thing she'll experience today.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry" she cries. "I didn't hurt her."

I just roll my eyes and walk towards a nearby tree. I fling her body right against it and she falls to her knees, begging me for forgiveness with her hands above her head.

I bend down next to her and lift her chin to look up at me. Her red cried eyes and pathetic tears doesn't affect me at all.

I lock her eyes with mine and I feel her body submit to my compulsion.

"You will feel everything she felt. You can scream all you want. Everyone can hear you but nobody will help you." I whisper in a blunt tone and grip her jaw a little tighter.

"You can't use your arms or your legs but I want to hear you scream in pain as I rip you apart." I smirk and slightly tap her cheek.

She falls down on the floor and cries. "Please. I'm sorry."

"Stand up" I say in a simple tone and she immediately follows my command. Her body is in my control but her emotions are all over the place.

"What was your plan?" I ask as I take off my jacket and tie my hair back in a high pony.

"Did you just want to fuck her and leave?" I ask with gritted teeth.

"No!" She immediately objects with wide eyes.

"Did you want to kill her after you had your fun?" I take a step closer and her breathing hitches.

"No" she says in a low voice and swallows the lump in her throat.

There is a bit of hope in her because she thinks all the questions I ask has a 'no' answer. She thinks that will help her case but this is not her day.

"Did you just wait for the perfect opportunity to drink her blood?"

"Yes-s" she stutters as the tears start rolling down her face. "I didn't know she was anyone's mate."

"I understand your argument. I truly do" I nod my head and lean closer to her face. "But the thing is." I pause and take a deep breath to calm myself down.

"For some sick fucking reason you decided that raping her would be a good idea." I sigh with a disbelieving chuckle.

"I didn't rape-"

I cut her off with a hard swing of my fist against her jaw. She slightly screams as her mouth falls open. Her jaw is definitely broken which is exactly what I wanted.

"I've decided that I don't want you to talk anymore." I sigh and take a step away from her. "Your voice is fucking irritating me and your pathetic excuses just makes me angrier."

Her head falls forward and I just hear her groan in pain.

"Look at me!"

She slowly lifts her head and I see blood running from her mouth, down her neck. I slightly smile in satisfaction and I feel my eyes dilate.

"You took advantage of her. You didn't give her a fucking choice and that is a big deal for me."

She just slowly nods her head in understanding.

"Can I tell you a secret?"

She doesn't respond to my question but I see her eyes flicker all over my face.

I take a step forward and pick her up by the collar of her shirt. She starts breathing heavily and my smile just widens. The fear in her eyes makes me so happy. This is exactly what I wanted. I wanted her to feel what Maya felt. She needs to be afraid of me right now.

I put her down, push her back against the tree and smile.

"I have never been so excited to spill someone's blood."

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After a quick dive in the nearby river to get all the blood off, I make my way back to the castle. Maya is probably freaking out right now and I'm not there, again.

I run up to our room without caring who is in my way. I open the door and see Maya in the bed. It's actually a very warm day but for some reason she is under the covers. She is probably using it for comfort and I internally groan because that should be me.

She looks up at me but then let's her head fall with a sigh. I close the door and rush to the bed.

"Hey" I say with a small smile as I get under the covers next to her.

I put my arm under her neck and hover a bit over her. I wrap my other arm around her waist and turn her body to me. She tucks her arms between our bodies and hides her face in my chest.

"Are you ok?" I whisper and leave a soft kiss her temple.

She doesn't say anything so I just hold her against me. I calmed her down for a few hours but my little vengeance activity took a little longer than I expected.

"Yeah" she says in a soft tone and turns her head up at me. "Are you ok?" She whispers and her one hand cups my face.

"I'm okay if you are." I whisper and kiss her forehead.

I lay down beside her and hold her as close as possible. Her hand slowly traces over my cheek but I keep my entire focus on her eyes. I just have to make sure she is okay but I don't want to read her mind. She needs to process this and when she's ready she'll talk to me.

I sneak my hand inside her shirt for some skin on skin contact and the effect of that makes her close her eyes with a satisfying breath.

"Baby aren't you hot with the blanket over you?" I whisper and run my hand over her lower back.

"A little yes" she slightly chuckles and I immediately throw the blanket off our bodies.

As I come back she throws her one leg over my body and this time my hand goes for her ass. She smiles and cups my face as she pushes her body flush against mine.

We just lay like this in complete silence. I just hold her in my arms and listen to her heart beating a slow rhythm. I close my eyes and just focus on being in the moment. I want her to take in my presence. I want her to remember that she'll always be safe with me. I need her to know that.

"Thank you for calming me down earlier."

"I'm glad it helped" I smile and take a relieving breath.

"I wish I could've done the same for you" she whispers with a disappointed look.

"I was calm baby." I smile and run my hand through her hair. 

"How about after I left?" She asks and I just sigh with a small smile.

"I made a promise that you'll never see that side of me again but you know the reason I asked you to leave." I whisper and kiss her head.

"Did you kill her?" She asks in a soft and surprisingly calm tone.

"I did yes."

"Were you allowed to kill her?" She asks with the same calm tone. I'm not sure if it's still my affect on her but this calm tone is definitely strange.

"I didn't really care if I was allowed to or not" I slightly chuckle. "But she was guilty of something whether you were eighteen or not. My dad doesn't take things like that lightly. Honestly I think she was better of with my punishment then my dad's." I slightly laugh.

I look at her and her face is emotionless. She just stares at me and I know she is thinking about it.

I hate the fact that I have to tell her these things. We promised to always be honest and she deserves the truth because it is her life that has been affected.

Ever since I met her I hate this violent side of me. I don't want her life to be like this. She deserves nothing but love and happiness. She doesn't need to be worried about things like this.

I keep my hand on her cheek and hold her close to me. She's just staring at my chest and tracing circles over my skin. I want her to take her time with this but I'm also scared that it's my fault for her emotional state.

"What's wrong baby?" I frown.

She takes a few seconds before she looks up at me. I see a few tears in her eyes and my frown deepens with concern.

"I was eighteen." She says in a low voice and my breathing stops.

"What?" I move a bit back to look at her. "Do you remember?"

"I remember everything." She slightly smiles but it's not a smile of happiness. "And that day...." She pauses and licks her lips.

I rest up on my elbow to look at her and she turns her head to me.

"It was my birthday."

I feel my whole body go cold and the rage flaring up again. I immediately sit up and clench my jaw. I don't know if I'm more mad at that fucking bitch or myself.

If I just came back earlier I could've maybe stopped this from happening. I should've found her sooner. The chances of me actually finding her on her birthday was a very slim chance but now I wish I had that chance.

"Baby" she calls on me and I look at her as she sits up next to me.

"Do you want me to take it away?" I turn my body to her and hold her hand. "I can go get my dad and he will take that memory away."

"Baby-"

"You don't have to remember this Maya. I am so sorr-"

She cuts me off with a kiss and I breathe in her closeness.

"I don't want him to take it away." She whispers against my lips. "I'm okay." She smiles and kisses me again.

I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her closer to straddle my lap. This is my favourite position to hold her. I can feel every part of her body. This is the position I feel the most control. I can keep her safe no matter where we are but having her this close to me makes me feel better.

She cups my face with both her hands and gives me a few soft kisses before she pulls away.

"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you from that Maya."

"Baby, please stop blaming yourself for this." She whispers and rests her head against mine. "I didn't like the feeling of being compelled. I just don't want that to happen again." She slightly laughs and sits a bit back.

"Baby that will never happen again." I say in a serious tone. "Nobody can compel you."

"I know" she smiles and takes her necklace out from her shirt. "See even when you're not with me, you are protecting me."

"Yeah" I smile and pull her closer for a gentle kiss.

"Baby can I ask you something?" She whispers and runs her hand through my hair.

"Anything"

"Can we maybe have dinner alone tonight?" She asks a little hesitant. "I don't want to be rude or anything. I just don't want everyone looking at me with sad eyes and asking me if I'm okay the whole time." She sighs.

"Of course baby. I understand. We can have dinner on our own." I smile and kiss her arm beside my head. "How about we go out on a date tonight?"

"A date?" She gasps with a huge smile of excitement on her face.

"Yes. We can just go out into the city and forget about what happened today."

"Thank you" she whispers with a big smile and leans closer to kiss me.

"But" she cups my chin in tight grip and her facial expression changes unexpectedly. "If you ever run around in your underwear again, I will kill you."

"Sorry baby" I whisper and apologize immediately because I know she really hates it. I actually forgot I didn't have all my clothes on and we both know why but she still doesn't like it.

For a few seconds her eyes stay on mine and I swallow hard. Her angry stare is really intimidating but I keep my hands on her body for some affection.

"I love you Maya Bishop"

A small smile breaks out across her lips and then she starts laughing. "Stop it"

She tries to move off my lap but fails miserably. I pull her back and cup her face.  "Tell me you love me"

Her hands fall on my chest and she rests her head against mine. "I love you more than I can express."

I feel my stomach do a few flips and I close the gap between us with a deep kiss. It still amazes me how a few spoken words have such a big effect on me.

She pulls her head away from me but I keep her body against me.

"As your punishment you will take a bath with me" She whispers and I slightly laugh because she is definitely using the situation to her advantage. I usually hate taking a bath and she knows it.

"Rubbing soap over your naked body is never a punishment baby." I whisper and a light shade of pink flushes over her cheeks.

She gives me a few giggling kisses before she climbs off my lap. I watch her walk to the bathroom and I take a relieving breath.

I would do anything to see her smile. Even if it means taking a bath with her.

I gather my thoughts and walk into the bathroom. I find Maya naked in front of the mirror and knees go a little weak. She turns her body to me as she ties up her hair.

"How about you take a bath and I just watch you?" I smirk and freely roam my eyes over every inch of her body.

"No" she laughs and walks over to me. "Please" she slightly pouts and wraps her arms around my neck.

My hands go directly to her ass and I feel a shiver run down my spine. I know this is possibly the worst timing but I am one hundred percent horny right now.

I move my hands to the back of her thighs and pick her up in a swift motion. She laughs and wraps her legs around my waist. I kiss her bare shoulder and move a little lower to her chest as I walk over to the bathtub.

I gently put her down in the bath and she stands with her hands on my shoulders. She's a little taller than me now and I really can't complain because her beautiful breasts are right in my eye sight which makes things really hard for me.

I feel my eyes starting to glow a bit so I quickly rip my clothes off and also climb into the bathtub.

I don't want Maya to see my eyes because it'll immediately trigger her arousal. I really don't think she'll want to have sex right now and she should have that choice.

I just can't help myself. Whenever I see her naked I loose control.

We both sit down in the water and she leans back against my chest. This is probably the best position right now because this way she can't see my eyes and also from this position I can stare at her body the whole time.

Her hands are comfortably on my thighs and her head on my shoulder. I can literally feel her body relax against me. I don't say anything except leave soft kisses on her shoulder up into her neck.

My hands are placed over her stomach and I'm trying my best to keep them there. A few inches higher I can cup her breasts and a few inches lower I can run my fingers through her gorgeous pussy.

I can't help but think how good it would feel to be inside her. We had sex just a couple of days ago and it literally was in a different country. She didn't want to have sex on the plane because she's scared someone will see or hear us.

I couldn't care less but I respect her wishes.

"Alex"

I lift my head when she suddenly calls my name.

"Did you hear what I said?" She laughs and turns her body around to look at me but I quickly turn my head and close my eyes.

"Sorry baby" I laugh. "What did you say?"

"Alex?" She calls on me and I hear the confusion in her voice. "Look at me"

"Nope" I laugh and feel her body shift in front of me. "No,no,no,o" I quickly stop her and turn her back around.

"Baby stop!" She yells in laughter and I let her go to turn around again.

I tilt my head down and keep my eyes closed because she is definitely curious. I'm just really trying to make my eyes stop glowing but her legs keep rubbing against mine and that makes things impossible.

"Alex"

"Maya"

"Baby" she laughs and tries to lift my head but my beautiful mate sometimes forget how strong I am. "Noooo!" She whines.

I just laugh and hold my hands around her waist. This time I don't move down to her ass because I might pass out from my aroused state.

"Alexandra Woods"

"What the fuck?" I laugh

"Baby" she whispers and I hear the desperation through her soft chuckle. "Please look at me."

I give into her plead and slowly lift my head. I open my eyes and she can obviously see my glow but gives me a sweet smile.

"I'm sorry baby" I sigh and try blinking it away. "I know it's inappropriate right now." I say in a low voice and look down in shame.

I feel like a total asshole for feeling like this. I tried to hide it but she is very persistent and the tone of her voice has so much power over me.

I feel her hands on my face and she tilts my head to look at her. Just when we make eye contact her eyes glow just as bright as mine. She runs her thumb across my bottom lip and comes closer to me.

"Never apologize for that." She whispers and slowly drags her tongue over my lip before she gently pushes it deeper into my mouth.

Goosebumps run across my skin and I let out a soft moan. My head tilts backwards as she straddles my lap. Her tongue is in complete control and the dominance from her side sparks my arousal to another level.

I love it when she takes control.

As the kiss becomes more passionate, I grab her ass and push her up against me. She moans into my mouth and starts rocking her hips against me.

Her one hand moves down my body, playing a little with my breast before she moves down between my legs.

She starts rubbing my clit and my legs open up a little wider for more access. I let out a slightly embarrassing moan but I don't care. I needed her to touch me and I'm very grateful for that right now.

I moan as she goes faster and I lean a bit forward to kiss her neck. She is still grinding her hips but it only took me a few seconds to realise that she's grinding against her own arm.

"No,no,no" I smirk and put me hand between her legs as well. "Not while I'm here"

She slightly smiles but jerks up at the touch and a moan escapes her mouth. She is so wet and it takes everything inside me not flip her over and fuck her but I want her to be in control. She is emotional and I won't take advantage of that.

I rub her clit at the same pace of her hand and she closes her eyes in pleasure. I can hear her heart beating faster and I can't help but smile.

My hips slowly start rocking against her hand as well and a few breathless moans from us both, fills the air.

"Baby" she says in a breathless moan and I know exactly what she wants. This was enough teasing for her. She is ready to cum and so am I.

I put my fingers at her entrance and as I push two fingers inside her, I feel her entering me too.

We both moan louder and keep still for a few seconds just too feel each other. I love it when we fuck each other at the same time. I can tell she is desperate for a release and just her need for it pushes me closer to mine.

She starts riding my fingers and with that she moves around inside me. I grab her ass and put some more pressure inside both of us.

I groan in satisfaction at the sight of her rocking body on top of me. I will never get tired of this. Seeing my mate in total ecstasy and her eyes glowing bright for me, is definitely my favourite part of the day.

"Baby, I'm cumming" she moans and her hand grips onto my shoulder. We're both going at the same pace and I'm definitely on the edge as well.

A few seconds later her body goes stiff and just the feeling of making her cum sends me to my climax as well.

"Fuck" she moan in a breathless voice and smile a little.

She looks down and tries catching her breath. She places both hands on my shoulders and I softly rub her back. She is a little to quiet and I'm a bit concerned.

"Maya" I whisper and she looks up at me. I see the tears in her eyes and I immediately pull her close to my chest. She hides her face in my neck and she cries.

I knew this was coming she just needed something to help her let it out. She needs to cry her emotions out. I knew there was something wrong when she was so calm about her questions and my answers.

I didn't want to drink from her this time. She was already very emotional and I didn't want to intensify those feelings right now.

I just want her to go through her feelings and I'll be here for every second of it.

"It's okay baby, I got you" I whisper and softly kiss her head as she lays on top of me.

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A/N

Sorry for the delay 🙈

Been having a little writer's block for a while. I probably started this chapter over 7 times.

I hope you enjoyed it.

Thanks for everyone who is patient with the updates. Thanks for all the votes and comments as well.

Next chapter will probably be a whole lot of fluff. Well my chapters are usually fluff 😂

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