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Maya's POV

The singing of birds wakes me up from a dreamless sleep. I don't know if it's the annoying sound or the unfamiliar sound that actually woke me up.

I slowly open my eyes but close it just as fast when the light streaming in through the window almost blinds me. I lift the blanket over my head and groan a bit. Who opened the curtains?

I stretch my arms out across the bed and reach for the other body that's suppose to be in bed with me. I lift my head in confusion and look around the room. I have never woken up alone. She is always here with me.

In a instant my mind thinks the worst. We had sex last night and she didn't like it and now she left.

I wasn't good enough, she doesn't like my body. I did something wr-

"No, no, no no" she suddenly comes running through the door. "Stop!" she says in a panicky voice.

I slowly shake my head and pull the covers back over me. "Go away"

Yes I am mad at you. Why did you leave me? And stop reading my mind.

I hear her sigh and feel a dip in the bed. "Baby I am sorry. You were sleeping and I thought I'd make you something to eat. I was busy outside when you woke up."

I stay quiet for a few stubborn seconds. "What did you do outside?"

"Can you please look at me?"

"No"

"Maya"

"No"

"Don't make my rip this cover into a million pieces"

I roll my eyes at her dramatic threats. I don't know if she'll actually do it but I know she can. Maybe one day she'll do it just to prove a point.

"Maya" she laughs which means she obviously read my thoughts again.

I sigh and take the covers away to look at her. "Stop reading my mind"

"I will not stop until we talk about this" she says sitting closer to me.

I sigh and sit up against the headboard. We promised we would talk about everything and if I don't talk she'll read my mind anyway.

"Fine. I am mad at you because this is my first vacation and I wanted you here with me when I woke up. Especially after last night." I breathe out.

"I just needed that few seconds of comfort. Just to feel that everything is ok."

I can see in her eyes she feels bad but I needed to say something.

"Fuck" she sighs. "I am really sorry Maya. I didn't think about that. I just-" she stops and takes my hand. "I don't have an excuse. I should've been here with you. I am really sorry"

She rubs her thumb over my hand and just the touch of her hand sends electricity through my body. It makes the butterflies in my stomach erupt and an undeniable smile creep onto my face. I have never felt that with her before. It's weird, but how can I stay mad at her when I feel like this?

Note to self: If you're mad at her. Don't touch her.

"It's ok" I pout. "I guess I am just needy. Sorry"

"No baby" she moves closer to me and rests her hand over my body on the mattress. "I should've thought about it. Last night was a big deal for us. I was just so happy to spend this beautiful day with you that I couldn't wait to start." she slightly smiles.

I sit up a bit unable to hide my curiosity, but she knows me by now. "What do you have planned?" I shyly ask.

"Well I can show you?" she smiles.

"Can I take a shower first?" I smile back at her.

"Can I have a kiss first?"

I blush a bit and answer her with small nod and a big smile. I lean closer and so does she. I feel her lips against mine and it's like fireworks going off in my brain.

I can't help my soft moan against her lips and I can feel her smile. She obviously knew I would feel some new things but she didn't say anything.

"I have some questions" I whisper as I slightly pull away.

"And I will answer all of them"

......

Apparently Alex's plans involve swimming because she gave me a bikini to wear. I wasn't surprised about the color which is red, he second favorite color. But what did surprise me is that it fits perfectly.

She said she got my sizes from Lily but I don't believe her.

"Ok let's go outside" she smiles and takes my hand. Once again her touch is almost hypnotizing and I shake her lame excuse off. This is probably her plan to change the subject.

I just shake my head and let her lead my outside. We step onto a large wooden deck with a Jacuzzi and a two chairs that she probably put out here for us.

We walk down a few steps towards the lake and a few steps down I see a picnic table set up for my breakfast, right by the shore "Aahh baby."

She only smiles and kisses the side of my head.

We take a seat next to each other at the table and look over the lake. The whole lake is surrounded by trees and the reflection of it on the water is breathtaking. "Is this what you were doing outside?"

"Yeah"

"Ahh man now I feel bad for being mad at you." I sigh and rest my arms on the table and hold my head in shame.

Alex turns to me and straddles the bench to wrap her arms around my waist. "No." she lifts my head and kisses my cheek. "I should've been there. I was just worried that you might feel weak. You really need to eat something."

"I feel ok? Should I feel weak?" I frown in concern and put my hand on her thigh.

"No, no. I am glad you feel ok. It was just really intense." she slightly smiles while biting her bottom lip. "I just wanted to be prepared."

"I am a bit tired but that's it" I say in a low voice keeping my eyes on her with a smile on my face.

"Do you want to talk about last night?" she says a bit hesitant. "We don't have too. I was just wondering how you feel about everything that happened?"

I feel the blush creeping onto my face just thinking about it. I haven't really thought about everything. Alex saw me naked last night. Not only do I hate my weak fragile little body but she is the first person too see me naked.

And she didn't just see me naked, she touched me....

And it felt amazing

"Maya?" she pulls me from my thoughts.

"Yeah?" I look down at the table with a nervous laughter and my face on fire.

"Are you ok?" she chuckles and kisses the side of my head a few times.

She can obviously sense my shyness and she is teasing me about it.

"Stop!" I laugh and try too push her away but she keeps a firm hold on me. As if I would ever have the strength to get out of her grip.

"Ok, ok" she pulls my face to look at her. "I know you are shy, but you don't have to be ok."

She cups my face and gives me a quick kiss. "You don't have to say anything but can I tell you how I feel about last night?"

I nod for her to continue and she gives me one more kiss before she starts.

"Last night was the best night of my fucking life" she says with the biggest smile on her face. I can't help but blush even harder and hide my face.

"No baby" she grabs my hands. "I am dead serious. I wish I could explain it. Your warm body against mine..." she pauses and I could literally see the shiver run down her spine and the goosebumps on her skin.

She looks at me and bites her bottom lip. "Having you that close, seeing and feeling every part of you made my non-existent heart beat uncontrollable." I slightly chuckle and shake my head.

"Your body drives me crazy." she says in a breathless voice.

I blush and rest my head against her chest.

I wish I could explain it but last night was really intense, a very good intense and I couldn't have imagined it better than that. It was absolutely amazing and perfect. I am so happy that my first time was with her.

"You and me both" she whispers and kisses my head. "I would've killed everyone who touched you."

I sit up and roll my eyes at her. She just laughs and pulls me closer again. I want to scold her for reading my mind but one the other hand, now she knows how I feel. One day I'll be able to say it without blushing about it, but not today.

I really did love it. It was the best night of my life too. "Thank you for being so sweet and gentle with me."

"Of course baby. I would never hurt you, you know that" she says and gives me a quick kiss.

"Hhmm more" I smile and look down at her lips. That kiss was way too short for me.

I feel her arms pull me closer to her and she gives me a soft, lingering kiss. My one hand stays on her thigh and the other one reaches up to her cheek. She slightly deepens the kiss but it's still slow and controlled.

I feel her smile against my lips and she pulls away, resting her forehead against mine. "I love you so much"

"I love you more" I smile and give her a couple more kisses before I turn my attention to the food in front of me.

Alex keeps her position, facing me with her one hand rubbing my back every now and then. Her other hand is laid across my lap not planning on moving and I absolutely love it. I love having her this close to me, giving me affection.

"Thank you for my breakfast baby" I smile with a grape in my mouth.

"You're welcome" she smiles and leaves a kiss on my temple.

I've only now realized how much I love kisses on my temple. Actually just a loving kiss anywhere, whether it's on my cheek, forehead or shoulder and last night I realized I love her kisses on my breasts as well.

"So is the bikini for the jacuzzi?" I say taking a bite from my toast.

"Yes but I thought we could take a swim in the lake. The water is fantastic and it's a beautiful day."

I immediately stop chewing and look at her. "Uhmm I don't feel like swimming but you can go" I smile politely while taking another bite.

"No, why not? I really want to swim with you." she whines.

I should just tell her. She'll eventually figure it out. I take a sip of the refreshing juice and take a deep breath. "Baby I can't swim." I sigh. "I've never actually really been in a pool, never mind a lake."

"Do you trust me?" she gives me a loving look.

She didn't laugh or looked shocked. She simply smiled and continued.

"Of course I trust you. We've done of few crazy trust exercises" I laugh.

"Well we can do another one?" she smirks and stands up.

"No, no, no, no baby wait" I laugh as she starts pulling me up from my seat. I really do trust her but I am still nervous about it.

She only smiles as she pulls me closer to the water. "You'll love it I promise"

We come right up to the water and I start getting more nervous. Not only am I scared of water but swimming in a lake is different. There are living things in here and you can't see the bottom.

It freaks me out a little.

I see Alex move beside me and when I turn my head she has already removed her clothing. I can't help but bite my lip as I look at her. She ties her hair up in a high pony and I can literally see every muscle she uses, contracting under her skin.

I have seen her half naked before, (under circumstances I don't really want to remember) and I saw her naked last night. But I didn't really get a chance to stare at her like right now and boy do I regret it now.

She is absolutely gorgeous. The sun hitting her smooth exposed skin, exclaiming the lining of her toned stomach, legs and back.

I suddenly feel a wetness between my legs and immediately blush. I am literally turned on just by looking at her.

I slowly cross my legs and try thinking about something else. How the hell did this even happen? I've admired her beauty before but it never made me feel like this.

"Do you want me to ignore it or do something about it?" she suddenly asks, shaking me from my thoughts.

I've now realized my eyes were nowhere near her face and when they finally reach up towards, I find a smirk plastered on her face.

"Uhhmm s-sorry what?" I nervously cough out and wipe my sweaty palms over my shorts.

She laughs and steps closer to me, placing her hands on my hips. I instantly blush because she clearly caught me in a flustered state.

"Can I?" she asks softly and at first I was confused but then I feel her tug on my shirt.

I take a deep breath and sway around nervously in one place. She knows how self conscious I am about my body and being out here in the open makes me more nervous.

"Ok I won't look" she smiles and steps away from me. "I'll walk in first and you can come in when you are ready."

"No I-"

"It's ok Maya. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable."

She turns around before I can say anything else and walks away from me. I can tell she is a bit disappointed and I actually feel really bad right now.

We had sex last night, we were both naked, touching each other and now I can't even take off my shirt in front of her. What is wrong with me?

As she walks into the water I suddenly realize I'll have to walk in alone and I really don't want to do that. So I quickly get rid of my clothes and almost run into the water.

Suddenly my fear for slimy creatures became bigger than my nerves of Alex seeing my body.

I meet Alex in the water at mid-thigh and I grabbed her waist from behind in fear. "Baby what if something sucks on my toes?"

She puts her hands over mine and throws her head back in laughter. "Nothing will suck on your toes I promise."

Her laughter brings a sense of relief over me. I thought she would be mad at me and my attempt to change the subject was a total shot in the dark.

The deeper we go into the water the tighter I hold onto her. I didn't even think about the temperature of the water, I was just making sure not to let go of her.

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah, just don't let me go" I say in a rather embarrassing shaky breath.

"I won't. I promise"

A few more steps and the water comes up to our shoulders and I start to panic a bit. "Ok, ok can we stop?"

She holds onto my hands and turns around in front of me. She has this gorgeous smile on her face and kisses my hand. "I proud of you"

I nervously look around and my breathing has changed rapidly. "T-thank you but I am still scared"

She pulls me closer, flush against her body and my breathing gets caught in my throat. The feeling of our half naked bodies brings back the memories of last night.

"Just relax Maya" she whispers with her arms wrapped tightly around my lower back. "I've got you baby. I won't let anything happen to you ok"

I lift my legs around her waist and cup her face with one hand. I slowly trace my thumb over her bottom lip and thank her with a slow and passionate kiss.

I feel kinda stupid being afraid in the first place. I always feel safe in her arms. I was just a bit nervous. This is my first time being in such deep and dark waters.

But I should've trusted her.

The feeling of her lips against mine makes me release a breath of relief. I can feel her smile against my lips and I slightly pull away. "What?"

"Nothing" she smiles and leans in to kiss me again but I move back before she could reach me. "Nooo come back" she whines.

"Why are you smiling like that?"

"Because I love you" she smiles and runs her hands up and down my back.

I can't help but blush and laugh. She is probably lying but every time she says that to me, I can't help but get a little flustered. I am honestly I little more flustered than usual and I don't know why.

She pulls me against her and we both just laugh like two lovestruck lovers. I rest my head on her shoulder and she walks us around in the water.

The water is actually very soothing but the calmness I feel is definitely coming from Alex.

After a few more minutes of just floating in the water, she suggested we go inside because we saw some clouds forming across the lake, indicating a storm brewing.

We exited the lake exactly like we entered and we both got dressed. I helped her clean off the table and take everything into the house. It wasn't even half an hour before the wind picked up and the clouds getting dangerously darker by the second.

Not long after, the rain started coming down and I found myself sitting on the bed, ready to take a shower. My hair smells like lake water and my feet are a bit muddy.

I get my clothes ready and make my way to the bathroom. I take off my clothes and stand in front of the mirror.

I can't shake the guilt about what happened at the lake. I feel really bad about it but standing here and looking at myself in the mirror I feel disappointed in my body.

Alex is literally a goddess and has a body out of this world. I can never compete with that and I can't seem to get the idea of her sleeping with multiple women, who was probably way more attractive than me, out of my head.

But she loves me. She must find me attractive right. Well she has too, I am her mate so she kinda has to like my body.

"Come on Maya you can do this." I whisper to myself in the mirror. "It's Alex. You don't have to hide from her."

I think back at last night and how we made love for the first time. I lean closer to the mirror as I remember her bite. I take a closer look too see if there are any teeth marks but I am shocked to see something else.

Just below my ear is a small but visible marking of a white crown. The same crown that's on my necklace and the same crown that's on Alex's wrist.

I smile at the sight and I get this warm feeling in my chest. She marked me last night and I thought it was just an expression but there is literally a mark...her mark.

I am hers and she is mine.

"I am hers" I whisper with a smile on my face.

"Alex!"

Not two seconds later I see her shadow under the door. "You ok baby?"

"Yeah can you come in real quick." I say a bit nervously. I am standing bare naked and my heart is racing a bit.

You can do this Maya, she is you girlfriend.

She slowly opens the door and she freezes in place. Her eyes roam all over my body and I can feel the heat rising in my cheeks.

The look in her face is something I can't explain. There is nothing but love and admiration in her eyes and I could just melt to a puddle right here.

Nobody has ever looked at me like this and I am so happy that it's her. I don't want anyone else looking at me like this. I don't need it.

This is all a want for the rest of my life.

She didn't need to say anything. Just that look was enough for me to know she loves my body. Even if I didn't like it myself.

"Do you want to take a shower with me?" I say in a breathless voice.

"If I ever say no too that. You can drive a steak through my chest" she smiles and starts taking off her clothes.

"You still wouldn't die?" I laugh as she steps closer to me. I can't help but roam my eyes over her body taking in every inch of exposed skin.

"It's the thought that counts." she shrugs and in one swift move she has me pinned against the shower wall.

"You are so beautiful Maya"

A/N

This update is way overdue. I kept starting over with this chapter. This is more of filler chapter. Not much going on but I hope you enjoyed it.

Sorry if there were any spelling or grammar errors. I didn't proof read this one.

Thank you for all the reads and votes. I would love to hear what you think about this story. It keeps me motivated to write.

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