It ended up being a routine. I would go on about my bay like usual and at exactly midnight Mr.Hamilton and I would meet each other in the garden. Sometimes we would talk until I became tired. Sometimes we wouldn't say a world the whole time. It made me feel more connected to him despite him only wanting to know things about me. He's not the type to talk about himself.

My birthday was coming up. It would be the first birthday without my family. Without my brothers waking me up at 5 am and jumping on my bed. Without a cake. Without family by my side.

I started tearing up a little bit. I missed my family terribly. I can't imagine the pain they are going through after what I did. But I'm doing this for them.   I'm working all day so they can have their necessities. This was the only way for me to help them. ( just I case y'all forgot. John chose to my auction in order to help his family. Ik that slave didn't get paid in real life but ya that's what I'm doing )

" I can't wait to give you your present. Angelica and I have been working on it for a while." Peggy speaks. She was helping me dust the downstairs ballroom. Peggy told me how Mr. Hamilton has a grand ball every year since he built this house. The date was coming up fast and many wealthy people were attending.

" You didn't have to give me anything-"

Peggy puts her index finger on my lips. " Shush with that nonsense! You deserve it. So, what are you want to wear for the ball?"

I give her a puzzled look. " Um. My uniform? Aren't we serving the guest?"

Peggy stops dusting the shelf and blankly looks at me. My cheek feel hot. Have I said something idiotic?

" Oh! I forgot this is your first ball!" She giggles. " We are off that day."

" W-What do you mean we're off?"

" John, this is the one and only night we get to fit in. This is the one night we aren't purchases! The night were we are able to wear pretty dresses and talk to whoever, not having to obey to a single order. Its a big deal!"

I can already imagine the very same ball we are dusty, full of well dressed people. The smell of perfume and sweets that I wasn't force to bake. An orchestra playing while people danced. The best part, is that I'm one of those people dancing, having a good time without a care in the world. Without the thought that everything will go back to normal the next day.

" Wow.....it sounds lovely."

" Isn't it? Of course, since it will be your first time, your experience will have to be extra special if you want to impress Mr. Hamilton." She wiggles her eyebrows.

" Yes, I suppose so-" I stop.

What did she say?

" Yes, I already know about you and Me. Hamilton's relationship"

H-How-

" I've seen the way you look at him John. Also, I know all about your evening meetings."

Oh no! She gonna-

" I'm not going to tell anyone about this."

Wait, is she reading my mind?

" I'm assuming your wondering if I'm able to read your mind"
I snap back into reality. " Peggy you're scaring me"
She laughs, " Oh John! It was just a guess that I ended up getting correct! You were giving me a questioning look."

I sigh. Feeling relieved, I slide against the wall until I sit on the floor. " Oh Peggy, what am I going to do? These emotions I'm feeling towards Mr.Hamilton is concerning. I don't even know what they are! They make me nervous. He makes me nervous!"

Peggy sits down next to me. " Do you like him?"

" No!"

I think?

" I can't like him! Hes my master! He owns me! He's a man! You cannot forget that! Its a sin to think of a man like that. Overall, the relationship is inappropriate!"

" I find it pretty adorable." She smirks.

" Peggy!" I sit up a little more.

" What? It is! You shouldn't care about the things that are holding you back. If you like him then you like him!"

" I-I don't know...."

" Well sometimes you don't have to know. Just go where life takes you. You would look amazing in a blue dress!"

I snort. " Dress? Peggy I'm male."

" So? You look beautiful in your uniform, which is a dress, just to remind you. I think a ball gown would make you look elegant!"

" Peggy that's not acceptable at a ball. People won't like a man in a dress."

Suddenly Peggy's face sparkled up with an idea. " Maybe they won't know it's a man!"

" What do you mean-"

She spins me around so that my back is facing her. I feel her hands wrapped around my ribbon that tied up my curly hair. A small tug and I felt the curls sit cross my neck. Then she turns me back around.
She studies me for a second and squeals. " They definitely won't know you're a man! With your hair down, you look like a beautiful English woman!"

" Do you think this will work?" I ask

" People won't even think youre a purchase."

Just a lil bff action for y'all. Show y'all a bit of Peggy.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!