“So,” Kate began as we lay on the grass on our stomachs, our legs kicking back and forth in the day’s sun and the beautiful caress of the breeze during our recess break “who did you end up getting a lift with?” she asked.

It was this question that I was dreading the most.

I hesitated “Uh…..Gavin.” I said tentatively, my voice low as I wished he heard utterly nothing.

I hadn’t mentioned this to anyone, I had avoided the conversation with mum all last night and this morning and I had prayed that Kate would presume I had just walked or really just didn’t think to ask or care. Dramatically my mind wandered to the possibility that Kate and my mum were joining forces behind my back, but I knew better than to trust my dramatic and drastic imagination.

I could literally hear as she snapped her face in my direction and the crack of her neck from whiplash, I could feel her burning gaze on my body, lighting my body on fire and making my body tense. Purposely I kept my eyes down and away, thinking that if I can’t see her than she won’t ask me again and I won’t have to answer.

“Gavin Bickim?” she asked shock coating her words and wonder, a gasp in her tone.

I kept my gaze on the grass, my fingers toying with the grass strands, a habit of mine when I was shy; look away and to fidget and toy with anything in reach. “Yeah.” I murmured softly.

She didn’t speak at first until she finally said a cautious but still curious “Well….that’s cool.” She murmured, I knew instantly that she had a million questions bubbling on the tip of her tongue and yet she was holding back because she knew that I was a person that resisted the more forced.

Finally the silence got to me and I cracked “Oh Kate, I just don’t know.” I moaned in utter frustration, my mind and thoughts utterly frazzled. “I mean, he just rocked up to me when I was in the music room and suddenly he wants to talk to me…I mean even if it’s just in a friendly manner.” I gushed my words tumbling and blurring together as practically one “It’s just I used to be invisible one minute and suddenly since I’ve got my fifteen minutes of fame he’s suddenly just….there!” I cried trying to convey my feelings “I mean should I be worried about all of this? Why didn’t he just noticed me before?” I cried voicing every single thought I had and fear “I just don’t get it.”

I watched as she looked to the ground thoughtfully with furrowed brows and pursed lips “I see.” She murmured pausing in thought “But what’s wrong with him talking now?” she asked.

I smiled glumly “That it took all this time for him to realize me, that I may only be a way to more popularity and fame for him. It just doesn’t feel right; if it was right he would have noticed me before. So why didn’t he?” I asked exasperated.

“Well,” she began slowly “firstly you two are only and barely friends so be happy and smile you found such a good friend, he obviously cares enough by what I can gather already. Secondly, do you really think he’d use you for fame?” she asked with a pointed voice.

I shook my head as it bowed down as I mulled over it all. Was Gavin seriously that type of person? Honestly already I knew he wasn’t by how utterly sweet and kind he’s been to me. Unless he was a brilliant actor. Nevertheless I was anxious, but at the end of the day I just knew he wouldn’t do that, he just couldn’t.

I shook my head finally “So it only leaves the last problem and I must say you do a really good job at hiding yourself and avoiding people, have you ever thought that maybe you create no chance?” she suggested softly, motherly rubbing my shoulder.

I nodded sighing heavily as I absorbed all of her words, trying to take it all in. Her words – all of them – honestly made sense, yet there was still some part of me that was resisting it as the truth. Why was I still hesitant? Maybe it was because at the end of the day I had never experienced such form attention from any male in my life and the fact that it was happening now of all times was unsettling.

She sighed softly “Look at the end of the day you more than anyone I know deserve to have the company of friends and maybe if you’re lucky more, you deserve to be loved and such, I mean I do but the more the merrier, yeah?” she said the mood lightening “At the end of the day, who’s going to complain about some gorgeous Greek god bowing at your feet and listening to every single command of your own?”

Together we burst into a fit of giggles.

Gradually but surely the two of us settled down from our fit of laughter and composed ourselves as we had rolled about in the grass laughing like hyenas.

I sighed heavily, wiping the tears from my eyes as I sat up and scrambled lazily to my feet “I’m going to the toilets.” I murmured softly.

I figured going to the toilet is only daunting and scary for toddlers learning potty training. Yet today I proved myself utterly wrong, walking into the same girls toilets I felt ever so nervous. I rather rushed in their than walked, anxious to just get in there and get out, if I could postpone going to the toilet I truly would. But nature was calling so I practically ran into a cubicle in the utter opposite end of the girl’s toilets than the other time I visited here and made a sickening discovery.

“Oh.” I gasped slightly startled at the sight before me, or rather the person.

It was Cindy dabbing and coating her lips thickly with some thick gloss, her blue eyes wide as she study herself closely in the mirrors, vapidly. I stopped watching her closely, she looked so….normal. She didn’t look out of place or emotional, she didn’t look like her best friend had just died. I guess that was the beauty of acting and makeup, it helped in creating a strong façade.

Sighing softly I walked over to stand beside at the sink as I washed my hand “So….how have you been?” I asked softly feeling a deep need to speak, to just say something.

She shrugged slightly “I just don’t know how to be.” She whispered softly.

I smiled at her sympathetically; slightly content in knowing she was after all human with that reply. Another part was shocked that she was being so opened with me, of all people; I was a measly invisible girl that she had never shared a second glance with. So why the sudden change? Maybe it was the fact that she felt out of all people I’d understand best since I was the one to find Georgie.

Pulling myself together I nodded faintly “I guess it’s a good thing you have Ben to confined in, talk to and even relate to, you two loved her both so much.” I whispered honestly as I thought to Ben, her boyfriend of three years. The relationship and girl or romantic was jealous of.

Instantly though her face darkened “Oh cause he is so great. You know who cares about Cindy; she just lost her best friend since the age of three. But her boyfriend oh no, he must be ever so saddened. Let’s just pretend I don’t even exists!” she shouted throwing her hands up in the air, startling me as I stepped back cringing at her loud voice.

Sending me one final glare she stormed out of the girl’s toilets leaving me speechless.

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It was again lunch time and I was back in the music room in front of the piano in desperate need to relax and thaw out my muddled and utterly scrambled mess of a mind.

Cindy’s outbreak was the current issue taking front of my mind and thoughts, controlling. I was so confused and lost in thoughts I didn’t even have the attention or decency to blush at the open stares I continued to receive, my mind elsewhere. By lunch time Kate literally shoved me into the music room with an exhausted “Clear it out and sort it all out and then I’ll talk to you.”

Except I couldn’t, instead I sat staring at the piano keys, my eyes unfocused my thoughts a million miles away with no strength to even try to play the piano or try to remember what key was a C sharp.

It wasn’t that I couldn’t play which confused me; no I was confused why I bothered so much about Cindy’s outbreak and why I was so earnest about understanding her and her outbreak. I had three possible answers already; one being that it was that I just naturally worried about other’s benefits. The second was that it was Cindy who was affected by Georgie’s sudden death, the same as I. third, was it possible that I was intrigued because Cindy’s outbreak was utterly bizarre and it had caught my interest. Or lastly – and in my opinion the most likely – I just solely liked to get involved and shredded apart by the worse things possible.

I shook my head away from all the negative thoughts, well why would she honestly act as such? Was she just jealous that Ben was getting all the attention? Could someone honestly be so vapid during such a time, even when it was their best friend?

At the end of the day though I knew she had always gotten along with Ben, unless it was just an act so she didn’t fight with her best friend. Still no matter what it was utterly weird, first her perfectly calm appearances, her trip out of the janitor’s room and now this outbreak.

Or was I just paranoid since it was me who found Georgie’s head?

“Hey.”

I jumped at the soft voice that broke through my thoughts and brought me back to reality. Gavin slid onto the bench beside me “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you there.” He murmured gently to me, apologetically as I clutched my chest in fright.

I tried to shrug indifferently when I was really breathless “I know, it’s okay.” I murmured still shyly.

He smiled softly at me, my heart fluttering “I didn’t think you were in here, I couldn’t hear anything.” He shrugged as he glanced around “But when I spoke to Kate she said you should be in here…..” he trailed off “venting.” He finished.

“Yeah,” I smiled “it usually relaxes me and allows me to clear my thoughts.” I said honestly as my pinky traced the keys on the piano.

“Usually?” he asked, picking up on it, sounding genuinely interested.

I smiled weakly “I can’t seem to play today.”I said honestly gesturing to the piano.

He smiled “I can’t play full stop, so it’s understandable.” He teased sending me a wink that made my heart melt and for me to be unable but to smile back blushing softly as I pulled a lock of hair behind my ear.

“It’s not that hard.” I laughed softly, at his mock drama.

“Teach me.” he murmured suddenly, softly.

I blinked up at him wide, startled “Really?” I asked surprised and skeptical.

“Yeah, teach me how to play and then I can be the judge of if it’s really not that hard.” He said mimicking my voice as some squeaky mouse voice.

I laughed softly, more so a giggle as I hit his arm “I don’t speak like that thank you.” I said in mock sternness. I couldn’t help but to be stunned by that outlandish action, was it possible that I just….flirted with Gavin?

Gavin chuckled as he flicked my scrunched up nose “Sure you don’t mousey.” He teased making me giggle and blush some more as I looked away.

Taking a steady breath I sighed “Alright, I’ll teach you the keys first at least. This one here is….”

That was how I vented and cleared my mind, all without even playing the piano myself but just sitting right here and teaching Gavin to play and just by Gavin’s comforting presence alone. With him by my side, his body heat feeding into me, and his tantalizing scent I couldn’t help but lean slightly closer, relax and feel an inner peace I hadn’t felt in a long time.

“Riiiiight.” He drew out, a sound of slight doubt or hesitation in his voice.

“Yeah,” I began utterly absorbed in the teaching “that’s for later, but yeah it’s for….” I trailed off as I saw the huge smile and the spark in his eyes on his beautiful face, his eyes solely on me and in all honesty utterly close as he towered over my body. “What?” I murmured softly, blushing greater as again I pulled a curl of my hair behind my ear.

He laughed shaking his head, the sound low, rich and sinful.

“You’re laughing at me, don’t you deny it.” I accused laughing as I playfully shoved him, his body leaning away than coming back to straighten out. He held out his hands shielding himself before I could shove him again making me laugh some more as he knew just as well as I that I had no strength. The two of us were laughing and fooling around as I continued to try and shove and jab at him, his hands shielding himself as we laughed greatly.

I sighed softly wiping at my eyes “My jaw hurts so much for too much laughing and smiling.” I murmured sighing softly as I held my jaw.

He smiled softly, friendly “Yeah, that’s why I was smiling at you for. You instantly relaxed as soon as you began to teach me, you didn’t even have to play.”

My smile grew “I noticed that, but I wasn’t sure if it that or just because you’re here.” I murmured softly. Instantly I regretted that, my cheek turning crimson as the piano keys had never been so interesting, I couldn’t believe I said that!

The silence was utterly deadly; I internally cringed by every long second that passed, the seconds feeling like hours. I truly just wanted to curl into a ball and die I was that embarrassed.

“True.” He said suddenly breaking the silence.

I couldn’t resist but to glance at him to gauge his reaction to my words. I was left breathless at the sight of him smiling, his eyes sparking with humor and friendliness, soft and friendly. He was just so gorgeous! I couldn’t help but sigh in relief to find no disgust, angst or mocking in his eyes and face.

“I mean I am pretty talented and definitely sexy, I mean I’m bound to have that affect on a lot of people.” He teased, his eyes sparking greatly in amusement.

I elbowed him in the ribs giggling softly, but there still a blush.

“So….can you play now?” he murmured softly once he finished laughing.

I took a side glance at him smiling, and in all honesty the smile was flirty. “Sure, what do you want me to play?” I asked.

He paused in thought than looked down at me smiling “Something I’d remember, maybe something from the charts.”

I shrugged nodding before I let my hands dance along the keys, playing ‘Last Day On Earth’ by Kate Miller-Heidke, the song utterly emotional but beautiful to play on the piano.

“Hey,” Gavin said finally speaking as I reached the chorus “I know this song.” He said happily.

I laughed softly “Well it was on the charts once upon a time.” I allowed “But since you’re so talented” I mocked.

“And sexy, don’t forget the sexy.” He added quickly.

I giggled softly, sighing dramatically “Fine, since you’re so talented and apparently sexy, you tell me what song it is.” I challenged.

He shook his head as the song progressed “I’ve got nothing, give me a hint.” He asked, or rather begged dramatically as she put his hands together.

I giggled softly before I began singing along to the song, my voice wasn’t anything great but I had a fair idea since I played a music instrument and I sang along to any song if I wasn’t in company or sadly if drunk and suddenly confident. “It's the last day on earth. In my dreams. In my dreams. It's the end of the world. And you've come back to me...”

Blushing I turned to face him as I tugged a lock of hair behind my ear “So, do you know it?” I asked.

He shrugged before answering “Some Kate chick, I don’t really know, I don’t listen to the hits. I just now it’s a pretty beautiful song.” He murmured.

I smiled “It is, and sad.” I agreed.

The bell suddenly rang and grabbing our bags we got up and made our way out the door, chatting and Gavin making me laugh as he spoke of his class before lunch when he had gotten in trouble over something he didn’t even do.

“Oh, hey Kate.” I said brightly as she walked over to us smiling greatly, amusement and a knowing look in her eyes having me slightly nervous and shy.

“Hey.” She smiled softly.

Standing there for a minute, all of us smiling and the two of them looking at me, my eyes grew as I finally understood what they were waiting for “Oh, sorry. Kate this is Gavin, Gavin meet Kate my best friend.” I introduced the two of them properly.

“Hey.” He smiled at Kate with a curt nod after he shot a bunch of students a look – almost a glare – as they openly stared at us after seeing how I blushed and shied away.

It didn’t take him long to turn back to face me “Do you need a lift home again?” he asked looking at me, being as sweet as usual.

I shook my head “Uh, no. Kate is walking home with me, right?” I asked looking over at her.

“Right.” She bobbled her head nodding before her eyes suddenly grew “I mean no, no sorry. I forgot to tell you but I’ve got to stay behind after class to finish my art assignment.” She looked at me with a sympathetic and guilt ridden face that I could see through easily, the lie easy to see the longer I looked at her.

I knew what she was planning.

“Okay, well than a lift sounds great.” I said looking back up at Gavin smiling brightly, his towering height I wasn’t used to but yet comforting “As long as that’s okay?” I asked.

He smiled softly down at me “Sure, I’ll meet you here after the bell.” He said offering another smile.

I nodded “Okay.” I said smiling goofily and stupidly up at him still.

“Steph we have to go, we have Mr. Grumpy, we can’t be late.” She sang tugging on my elbow.

I was bought back to the surface like getting cold water thrown in your face “Oh, okay. Right. Okay.” My flustered and frazzled self only making Gavin smile greater as he watched Kate drag me away as I blushed fiercely.

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