Moving through streets have been my favourite therapy since I can remember. When you move through lanes sometimes you end up waiving your own. It's really peaceful and magical until, you feel like you are being followed with two stony people who won't even let someone near your five meter radius. And that's when it starts to piss me off.
" Can you two give me some space? I feel like a highly acclaimed celebrity who's mortal state is threatened. " I turn towards Arundhati and Kartik my newly appointed bodyguards who have been tailing me through every corner of the world and by that I mean it, even in the corners of loo. They stop and instead of looking at me they look for some unexisting threat lurking near me.

" Hey! You two, chill. I am not the president of any country. "

Arundhati turns towards me, " Mam for us you are more important than that. "

I nearly stomp my foot like a child. " I told you to not call me mam, please it's Shanvi. And I am here for a walk like to see people and buildings and my surroundings while I walk you know! Not just you two, no offense. "

" None taken, it's our duty. " Kartik nods. Still stiff as a statue ready for some action in black tight t-shirt that screams kung fu karate honestly.

" You guys aren't going to listen are you? Now can we have some coffee? Like a normal person. "

They both nod, I guess they both need coffee too, instead of some superman stuff like green smoothie. After five minutes of walk we make way to one of my favourite coffee shops in Germany, Oslo Kaffebar. I almost groan when we enter the coffee shop, the smell of dark chocolate cookies and coffee mixed with soft wood reminds me of certain someone. And a feeling of nostalgia enters me. It feels like I have been away from him for two years rather than two days. I shake my head and regrettably wish I could have dragged him here with me. He also has work to do Shanvi !

We all order and a pretty auburn hair cashier named ' Nina ' takes our order. We take all our order out and I happily take a bite of my dark chocolate oatmeal cookie even before we take a seat. Heaven. I sit down and frown when Arundhati and Kartik refuse to sit with me. I frown at them " Please don't make me feel like an asshole and sit down. " They both after my continual squabbling finally sit down with me.

I check the time and video call Kiyansh, hoping he would be free and not into any of his meetings. My call goes two ring and instantly his gleaming face lights up the screen of my phone. I can't help but feel my heart squeeze when he smiles his dimpled smile.

" Hey! Are you Okay? " Why does he keep asking this same question first things first since two days.

" Yes sir I am. " I wink up at him and he smiles that smile at me. I can see that he is wearing the shirt which I gave him for one of his birthdays. I inwardly squeal like a maniac. " Why are you smiling so much? Is there something you are planning on? " I ask and his smile gleams like a sparkling sun even more.

"Tell me" I ask again. He immediately stops and tries to set his face straight. Emphasize on 'tries'.

" Okay spill. " I roll my eyes.

" Nothing. "

I huff. " You can't lie to me you know! And yes what have you said to these two they don't properly even let me walk. They behave like as if I am in a mortal threat or something. "

" Hey! we are sitting right in front of you!" Arundhati immediately sits straight nearly spilling her coffee in the process. Her face has a red tinge, she looks flustered clearly annoyed with me because I talked about her sacred duty. And my mind wonders to the time when she must be like this performing her duty with her discipline in the army. I guess she would make her enemies run with her look.

I laugh and stick my tounge out at her. Kartik just glares at me. Huh! Back at you.

I glance at the phone still laughing when I see Kiyansh's serious eyes. I stop and a wave of something like guilt passes right through me.

" I am serious here Shanvi. You need to listen to them okay? Whatever they say. Do it. " He says in a crisp tone.

I freeze. " What are you not telling me Kiyansh? " Clearly there is something he is not telling me.

" Nothing " he says again, like I am not strong enough to handle whatever he should tell me or as if he thinks I am straight out dumb. He is definitely not telling me something. That's why he is behaving like this since I came here.

It seems to piss me off even more. " Okay then you will call me when you have something. " And that's when I cut the call.

" Are you guys going to tell me or am I wasting my breath? " I ask those two staring at me. They both look atleast embarrassed but doesn't answer or even open their mouths.

After that the whole day is like that. I am pissed off. So I take the escape I know will take my mind off these things. I delve full face into shoot . And then it's all just roll, shouting, screaming and yes acting.

It's almost midnight when we reach our hotel. My legs are dead tired, I drag myself through the white marbled hotel lobby. My irritation grows even more when I open my phone and see that after the call in the morning Kiyansh didn't even try to call me once. Only a text from him saying. " I love you. Trust me. "

I don't reply and almost call him. But I know I have to make a point so I don't. And then see one more text from my best friend Prisha.

" Meet you tomorrow at Nordbahnhof . I have got a thing for you. I am so excited....see ya. xoxo "
A smile immediately comes on my face and I text her back saying I will pick her up.

I smother my face with a pillow and groan because I miss his presence until I feel like I can't breathe.

I open my gallery and look at all 1015 pictures of him extracted at a seperate folder, until I am sure I can officially say that I am crazy. Just as I am about to fall asleep I get another text from him.

" You are back. Have some rest and don't wag your brain. You are my whole world. I love you and you know that."

I almost text him back. Almost. But then I realise he hasn't told me yet. And he didn't call even though he knows I am back ofcourse courtesy to his safekeepers who competely listen to him only. I feel like a fussy kid who isn't involved in a group activity. And with that thought I fall into deep sleep.

*****

Mornings are my favourite part of the day. I have always felt like I can complete any task in the morning. So this time we have an early shoot. The thought of Prisha coming here excites me so much that I miss one shot. And we have to do that again.

" Let me see. Go fourty five degree right. And here Aaina you stand near the park bench holding your newspaper. And let's change your walkway from right to left to, left to right. " I motion at the current protagonist of the movie. My heart melts when I realise I have almost set up the movie scene like Kiyansh's garden. And I remember that day..

"What you think you are doing? " Kiyansh tapped on my head, coming out from nowhere.

I scowled at him and tried to hide the acceptance letter away from him into the pile of papers. My heart was turning in itself, contracting into a lurking ball. " Alteast something, not standing and irritating like you."

" You think that ha? Let me see what exactly you are doing that you didn't even listen to me calling you from my window. " He said and before I could blink he grabbed the file from me. My heart jumped. No not right now. I have to think.

" Hey give me that! " I tried to yank the file away from him. Instead he stepped back and opened the file grinning. And..his smile vanished.

Anger and confusion settled on his features. His whole posture stiff when he looked at me. He was barely holding his breath, so was I .

" What is this? It says you have been accepted to Kings College, London. When did we decide that you were going to King's College? "

I faltered. My heart threatning to come out of my chest. I did not decide yet, I wanted to say to him we can change that. Instead I said, " Not we, I decided. I thought.. "

Tell me you don't want me to go. Tell me Kiyansh. Say that I shouldn't go. Tell me to stop. Tell me you want me here. Tell me all those girls they don't matter. Tell me you want me and I will stay.

" What? " He stiffened as if I slapped him. " Very well " he spitted. " You want to go to King's College, you go to King's College. I don't fucking care." He threw my acceptance letter on the grass.

My soul went rigid. I froze. Then it broke. My heart broke into thousand different pieces. Pieces I knew I couldn't gather ever.

He doesn't want you. I gulped the pain like acid on my throat. " Okay. " I said from whatever voice I had left of me. .

He threw my file too. Like my heart it was all drowned. Soaked. Teared. Gone.

" Very well, as you might as go to hell. " He didn't yell, but the words cut through me like vice. He didn't say anything else and I took it as a message that he didn't care.

And then I was off to London.

I was a fool.

I AM A FOOL!

I almost groaned out loud. My heart beat picked up. I forgot the scene in front of me. I am an idiot there must be some reason that he isn't telling me. I look back and see Arundhati and Kartik standing, gauging every action in the vicinity.

And that's when I realise. He is scared. For the first time in our life. Kiyansh is scared and it's for me. And even then he let me go because he knows that I love doing this. Stupid stupid Shanvi. Whatever it is, you are going to call him and ask him straight away, and this time without any tantrums. And even if he is not going to tell you, you will not behave like a child and cut his call. You are going to talk to him like an adult. Like his best friend. And he is going to tell you everything. And you are gonna make him feel alright.

" Yes go on. " I motion to the hero and heroine of my movie. " Take the file from her and tell her to stop. And if she doesn't want to, take her hand and tell her that you will go with her, to any corner of any world. "

My mind just goes and goes around him. I barely wait for a second and jot towards a trailor after the whole scene is shot. Arundhati and Karthik hot on my shoes.

I turn towards them when I am near the gate. " Need some privacy. No one's inside the trailer. "

Arundhati hesitates. " Mam but...."

" Please I need to make a phone call and Arundhati I am Shanvi." I emphasize on the please.

She sighs. " Okay just let me check inside first Shanvi. "

I nod.

They both go inside and check for five minutes. Gosh. What are they doing. I can barely stand without moving my legs back and forth. Call him. Call him..

I step inside when they give me a go. " We will be standing here. Don't worry no one's going to enter. " Karthik says and I am sure no one can just after looking at him.

I lock the door and settle into the green velvet sofa. My phone rings. Voila'. I grin and take the phone out of my jeans pocket.

I look at the caller ID. Oh shit, Prisha. I chastise myself how could I forget! She is coming here to meet me and I have to pick her up at Nordbahnhof. We both decided that we wanted to explore the city old style so she was coming through railway wearing baseball cap and tank top with her favourite jagger pants, her face hidden with a mask to hide her identity, which we both already decided beforehand, we didn't want to take risk. I immediately pick up the phone.

" Hey I am sorry just give me ten minutes on the way! " I ramble before she does because I am sure she is pissed off. But when she doesn't say anything for two minutes I am not so sure. " Hello Prisha. What's up. Can't you here me? " Another thirty seconds. I am sure something is wrong with the network. Just as I am about to cut the call, a voice comes through. But I am sure that's not Prisha.

My blood runs cold when I hear the gruff words coming through. " Oh I seem to think you were going to miss your friend. Now now wouldn't you like to meet your pretty pretty friend? She was making such efforts to see you in her pretty little outfit. All the way from Rothenburg ob der tauber. "

I was not breathing. " Who.Who are you? Prisha are you playing some prank with me? It's not funny. "

The man clucked his tounge. His voice daunting sending chills down my body." Oh girl believe me I wouldn't find this situation funny if I were in your place. Considering the fact that you really like your friend. Don't you now? Imagine having the most famous actress as your best friend and then finding her dead in the middle of street just because you couldn't come to meet her. Now would you like that? "

I couldn't move. Couldn't find any words. Prisha. Prisha, I wanted to scream. No. no. No. He is lying. It's a sham. I gathered my brain. " Whe..where is Prisha? " I tried to coax my tone into a hard tone. No. No. No. God please." Give her the phone. I need to talk to her. Who the hell are you? "

The man sighed, " I knew this was coming. My friend! I need to hear her. Only then I will believe. Shit and shit. " He enacted a lame female voice then laughed maniacally.

For a dead minute I thought he was going to just cut the call. But then a hazy soft voice of my best friend came through. " Shanvi..." My heart stopped.

" Prisha Prisha are you okay? Where are you?" I asked fast as I could breath.

" Sh- Shanvi, please d- don't...." her voice sounded so broken, before she could complete her sentence a static signal voice sounded and the man's voice boomed.

" I am bored. Now i am sending you the adress and you will be with me on the call and following my instructions while you come here and if you cut your call even for a single second or try to gesture your two puppets who are waiting for you outside, your pretty friend here is going to lose her fingers, then something else, then something else. Now do as I say. Put a smile on your face. Won't you now? " He purred.

I couldn't move.

" Won't you? "

" Ye..Yes. " I gulped.

" Good. Come here Darling we are going to have a party. "

I need to do something. I need to do something. " What what do you want? "
I put the phone on speaker. And texted a quick message to Kiyansh. " My GPS is on tell them not to follow me and tell them to not react. Please please listen to me. Tell them to not react. Just see the location. I love you so much. I am so sorry. "

" Not the same dumb question again. " He said in a bored tone. Then suddenly his whole tone changed lethal. " Get up right now and do as I say. No more questions, if you want your friend alive you will come here and listen to me. Like a good girl get up and smile and come out of your trailer my patience is running out. "

Goosebumps erupted on my skin. I steeled myself up. Images of Prisha and Kritika coming inside my head. Her laughing at my jokes. Her holding on to me for the very first time when I came to bollywood and standing by my side. Her and Rohit bickering at each other then sneaking looks at each other. A wave of pain passed through my heart. Not her. Not her. I wiped the tears from my face and put up a forced smile. Just before stepping out of the trailer I prayed to God, Let them be safe. I will do anything just save them. Tell him that I love him. Please always make him smile. Give me the strength to save her.

And I stepped out with a smile on my face and my heart out in the ground.