PS; Avoid typos as the chapter is highly unedited.

Swara, it hurts...

CHAPTER: 27

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Swara.

For the very first time, I took a decision about my life myself. From the past 23 years, my family have been with me. They had helped me with everything. Even if, it was about my studies or career, they have always guided me for the best. When the marriage proposal of Sanskar came, dad said yes as he knew he was a better choice than anyone else for me. But little did he know, his decision has costed my life and happiness? Naah! A big no!

I know, if I divorce Sanskar, there would be a lot of people to question us. For everyone, we were rab ne bana di jodi. But now, I don't care about this society, but my self-respect. Till now, I was bearing his torture. Now, that's enough. He can't justify himself always. Yes, he may have misunderstood me. But still, he could have talked with me. But no...he judged me even without knowing a thing about me. And I hate myself for loving him.

When I asked him for the divorce, his face became blank, why? Maybe so that he can't torture me anymore. He said a sorry. But a sorry wont change anything, at least not a broken trust and a stained relationship. I need to prove that my love isn't my weakness, but strength.

Last night, I saw a vulnerable Sanskar. He cried in front of me. But how could I trust him? What if, he had faked his emotions in front me? He will break me again if I trust him! I won't trust him, ever.

Yes, it hurts me. But I don't have any other way. Sanskar is my only love. And when I got married to him, I was the happiness girl on Earth. But look at my fate! It played a bloody game. No women wants hatred from her husband. But I got that too. And I'm done with it. He don't love me. So it's better to part our ways. At least one of us will be happy. I can't withstand him anymore. He had stabbed my self. So it's better to part our ways.

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It have been 4 days since, I submitted the divorce papers. I called Sanskar and asked him to come to the court with his lawyer. We have applied for a mutual divorce. So it wasn't that hard to get a divorce. 

He reached on time. He was wearing a sunglass. Huh! We were going to part ways, still he can't go off of his god dammit attitude. I sighed. Both of us entered the room of counsellor.

"Look, Mr and Mrs Maheshwari, marriage is a sacred and pure relation. You have been married for only 5-6 months. How can you be so sure that you needs a divorce? You cant take married life as a joke!" The counsellor started to say.

"Sir, we have been discussing about it from long. We want divorce, that too mutual. We cant make our life a joke, that's why, we are applying for a mutual divorce." I tried to explain.

"See, you are grown up adults. So yes, you have rights to take your won decisions. But I don't want you to regret it later. Can't you work this relation out? And you Mr Maheshwari, you haven't said anything till now." The counceller was trying to reconciliate us.

"I agree with her, sir." Sanskar whispered. Why the hell I'm feeling something odd!

"Okay, then I will be proceeding the divorce petition." The counsellor sighed and declared. Sanskar got up went outside without replying him. I closed my eyes at his behaviour. Everything was going to end.

"Mrs Maheshwari, I will be sending the records to the family courts. Once the statements are recorded by the court, an order on the first motion will be passed by the court. And after that, a six months period will be given to both of you to a divorce. And on that six months, both of you should live together. Only after that you can file the second motion to the court." The counceller explained.

What? Six months? I sighed and nodded my head. After thanking the counsellor, I went outside to see Sanskar.

"Mr Maheshwari?" I called him as he was so busy in typing something on the phone.

"We need to stay together for almost 6 months." I stated. Sanskar nodded his head.

"When are you going to inform our family about it, Swara?" Sanskar asked.

"Let's not hurry! In between this 6 months, we can let our petition of divorce out." I thought for a while and said. Sanskar nodded and walked away.

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"Hey, Sanskar..." I saw Nita banging into Sanskar's cabin even without knowing the door. I and Sanskar were having a discussion about the ongoing government project. But I don't think that, now I could concentrate on it.

"Nita? You here?" Sanskar asked her being surprised. He smiled and welcomed her.

"Hey, Swara! What are you doing here?" Urg! That's not really her business.

"Actually, I should ask that. What are you doing here, Nita?" I smirked and asking faking innocence.

"Of course, I came to meet my Sanskar. I haven't seen him since a long time." She replied by stretching the word my Sanskar. I really need to slap her! Swara!

"Okay, Mr... I mean Sanskar, I'm going. We can discuss the project later as now you will be busy, right?" I said and started to walk away.

"Swara, you can't leave the cabin, until I say. Nita, if you have just come to my office for catching a sight of mine, then I think you are done with it. I hope you will be exiting the door now." Insult! Such an insult! I saw Nita lowering her head because of embarrassment.

"Sanskar, can't we have a coffee together?" Nita asked slowly. I grinned my 32 teeth like a vampire. Can't she understand a simple word?

"Nita, Sanskar is busy. He don't have time for sharing a coffee." I smirked and said. I saw Nita fuming.

"I asked him, not to you!" Nita yelled at me.

"Manners! You are taking to my wife! Talk with respect and some manners, Nita." Sanskar shouted at her. I looked at him amused. I mean...wow! He just proclaimed that I'm his wife and suddenly I became caution about it. I mean till now, I was just a bitch, right? Anyways who cares.

Nita flew from the cabin hearing the shout. I looked at Sanskar and said, "You don't have to act in front of me!" He turned his shoe and said, "Common, wifey...I'm a businessman, not an actor." Oh my! Oh my heart! My heart fluttered like anything. No, Swara...no! You have already did a mistake by falling in love with this jerk, not anymore.  I faked an anger and walked away.

Why he was doing like this. That too after singing the divorce papers?

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I was too tired to attend today's sangeet. From the last 3 days, I was running here and there for arranging the marriage. We have given the event contract to Kolkata's best event management company. Till now, everything went well.

Yeaterday's Haldi was so much fun. I accompanied Aryan as his sister. We played with haldi. It was so amazing. Everything was satisfactorily. And today, it was sangeet.

I got ready. Actually, I'm staying in Singhania mansion itself. After getting ready I went to hall for looking at the arrangements. Everything was decorated very well.

The sangeey ceremony started. All were dancing and singing. Even aunty and uncle danced like a lovesick teenager. Aryan and Arpita was stealing glances. I looked at them and laughed.

I saw Sanskar moving towards the spotlight. He was having a guitar too. I looked at him amused. As far as I know, he don't sing. Then for what, he was going on? Maybe for an announcement! I turned and started to talk with Aryan.

"Hum tere bin ab reh nahi sakte
Tere bina kya wajood mera...

Hum tere bin ab reh nahi sakte
Tere bina kya wajood mera...

Tujh se juda gar ho jaayenge
To khud se hi ho jaayenge juda
Kyun ki tum hi ho, ab tum hi ho
Ki zindagi ab tum hi ho
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho"

Oh my!! Sanskar sang looking into my eyes. Asif, he was dedicating the song for me. My heart was running a marathon race, now. Never in my life, I saw him playing a guitar.

"Tera mera rishta hai kaisa
Ek pal door gawara nahi
Tere liye har roz hain jeete
Tujhko diya mera waqt sabhi
Koi lamha mera na ho tere bina
Har saans pe naam tera
Kyun ki tum hi ho, ab tum hi ho
Zindagi ab tum hi ho
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho
Tum hi ho, tumhi ho"

He continued and I looked at him totally stunned. I wasn't expecting this from him. I heard everyone whistling for him. Everyone was cheering him up. He was still staring at me. I felt hard to breathe in front of his gaze.

"Tere liye hi jiyaa main
Khud ko jo yoon de diya hai
Teri wafaa ne mujhko sambhala
Saare gamon ko dil se nikaala
Tere sath mera hai naseeb judaa
Tujhe paa ke adhoora na raha
Kyun ki tum hi ho, ab tum hi ho
Zindagi ab tum hi ho
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho

Kyun ki tum hi ho, ab tum hi ho
Zindagi ab tum hi ho
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho"

He finished singing. Even without my knowledge, tears were flowing through my eyes. I wiped immediately. He hates me! Then why?? Or...what if, he-. No, Swara! Please, don't think like that. He don't have any feelings towards you.

I saw him going to the pub corner. He asked for something. After waiting for sometime, he got a glass of- wait! Alcohol? What the hell! He don't drink! What going in his ant sized brain. I fumed. But...why should I care?  Let him drink and die. I don't care...But Swara, if he drink like this, everyone will call you as a alcoholic's wife. My mind was triggering me! After thinking a lot, I started walking towards him. Sanskar was drinking too much.

"Hey, handsome..." I saw a girl trying to seduce my Sanskar while taking a glass of alcohol. I fumed and went towards her. That girl was wearing a very short piece of cloth. Her body was revealing too much.

"Shall we take a room at any hotel?" How dare she? How dare she asks like that to him.

"I have a wife and I'm happy with her. You can get lost, dammit!" I saw Sanskar shouting at her in a drunken state. I felt happy, in fact proud. No matter how much I tried to hate him, my heart was finding very possible way to adore and admire him!

"Sanskar, come with me." I shouted his name to gain the girl's attention. She looked at me from head to toe. And after giving me a disgusting look, she walked away.

"Swara..." Sanskar whispered in the drunken state. I took him to my room. Everyone was busy in the music. So no one noticed us.

"What the hell! Is this the way how you will behave? And from when did you started alcohol?" I yelled and asked.

"Swara, it hurts..." Sanskar broke down. I looked at him confused. Is he acting again? But a drunken person will always spill truths out! Then what's he blabbering.

"San-" He jumped and pulled me towards him. Our face were just an inch apart. He started to lean towards me. I was trembling in his touch. I tried to push him away. But his hold was so strong. And atlast, he sealed his alcoholic lips to mine. I looked stunned. Sanskar was kissing me like heaven. I tried every possible way to push him. I struggled for breathe. It was my first kiss...

"Swara, I love you." He whispered into my ears after breaking the kiss and passed out.

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How's it?

So, Sanskar confessed his feelings in a drunken state. And yeah, they shared a kiss too. What's gonna happen next? Let's wait...

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