I'm sorry.

CHAPTER: 16

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Arpita.

I'm sorry, baby. Please forgive this sinful mother. I know whatever I did to you was a mistake. No, a sin! But I didn't have any other way than aborting you, when your own father wasn't ready to accept you. I'm sorry...at that age, other than aborting you, I didn't found any other way.

I and Swara were the best of friends. She used to be my strength. She wasn't like me. She was a one-man girl. Her Sanskar. I know, even if she won't admit...he was her love, not crush. But I used to flirt with everyone.

That's when he came into my life. Aryan, my Aryan. He became my everything. He changed me. His love brought a tenderness in my life. I started loving him the same way he did. He became my family. I, Aryan, Swara and Sanskar became so close. I still could remember, Swara's cheeks getting red because of Sanskar's presence. That was her love.

I will never say that I was a good person. Because I have been a flirt. But after Aryan's arrival in my life, everything changed. Three years. Those were the day, I have been myself. I don't know, suddenly what happened to Aryan. That day, he came and said something weeping.

"I have trusted you more than my own shadow. I have loved you more than anyone else in this world. But you...cheated me!" I was shocked. Cheating? Him? I can't even imagine cheating on him. I don't know, why he was saying all those things to me.

"Don't try to act innocent. Sanskar has always warned me that you will betray me one day. But I ignored his blabberings. But see, what happened now! You cheated on me." What the hell. Wait, so Sanskar was thinking that I was a cheater.

"Aryan! I haven't cheated on you. Don't you trust me?" I was so broken. How could he say that to me? I haven't even looked at anyone since he arrived in my life. How could he even blame me?

"Really!" He replied sarcastically. It hurts. "Then what's this?" He showed me some photographs with my classmate, Varun. It looked like, me kissing Varun. Hell! It was taken in another angle. It wasn't like it seemed.

"Aryan, it's not like that. Me and Varun..." I tried to explain to him the situation. I didn't kiss Aryan. Oh my!

"So, yesterday night, you lied to me and went to that hoe, right." I was stunned seeing him angry. Everything was a misunderstanding. Yes, when Aryan asked me for an outing, I lie to him that I wasn't well. Actually, I had something to do with Varun.

"Just answer me, yes or no!" Oh my! What am I supposed to answer?

"Yes." I closed my eyes and muttered. I saw Aryan nodding his head with a sad smile. "Aryan, it's a misunderstanding---" before I could complete he went away from me.

"Aryan!" I shouted his name again. He ignored me and walked away.

That day, everything went out of my hand. I felt betrayed. We had been loving for 3 years. And still, he didn't trust me. More than to him, I was angry with Sanskar. I'm sure, it would be him, who has given all those photos to Aryan.

After some days, I went to Swara and said we broke up. She slapped me and went. Even she didn't hear me completely. What was my mistake? I cursed my fate. Many times, I saw Aryan. All that time, he was drunk. Whenever I tried to meet him, I thought that he won't hear anything on his alcoholic state. At last, I went from Koltaka. I went to my maternal house.

One day, I got to know that I was pregnant. I felt so much happiness. Which women won't get happy and excited. I thought that our problems will be solved. I happily went to Aryan to speak about it. I haven't even informed Swara about it. I wanted to share this news with Aryan first. I went to him.

"Aryan..." I called his name out. He looked at me and as usual ignored my presence. I stood in front of him, blocking his way.

"I need to say something to you." I chirped forgetting our fight. I want us to get married as soon as possible.

"I'm pregnant," I announced and he looked at me without any emotions. What the hell! Wasn't he surprised? Wasn't he happy?

"So what! Abort it." I felt like the ground was slipt from my foot. How could he! It was his baby. It was a symbol of our love.

"Do you even know, what are you speaking," I shouted at him. He came and held my hairs. I looked at him shocked. Am I dreaming? It wasn't my Aryan. My Aryan hasn't hurt me even by a pinch.

"Look, I don't want your child. Just abort him. And if you aren't doing it, you will face the worst inside of me." Aryan warned me. For the first time, I felt scared of him. But no, I need to be strong.

"What will you do?" I questioned him. He stared at me.

"I will kill your baby myself. You know, what Aryan Singhania can do." Oh my!! I held my abdomen and cried silently. I wish, I haven't loved this man.

I aborted my baby. So that my baby's own father will not commit that sin. That's why I choose to abort my baby myself. I cried that day very much. Earlier, I and Aryan used to dream about our child.

And now it's almost 3 years, I haven't met Aryan nor Sanskar. After that incident, I run away from the Kolkata. And then, to London. If Laksh wasn't with me, I don't know what would have happened to me. I was an orphan. It was my maternal relatives who looked after me. And when Aryan came into my life, I thought that I would get a new family. Alas! That's were my dreams, not reality.

Today, Swara called and asked me about the abortion. I was shocked at first. Then I tried to explain to her about Aryan. But she didn't believe me. Why? We were best friends. Why couldn't she believe me? It hurts...

"Arpita, don't cry thinking about them. They don't deserve you." Laksh came into my room and said. But I wasn't in a sense to hear him out.

"Please, Laksh. I don't want to hear anything." I pleaded to him. He sighed and sat on the couch nearby. I looked at him confused.

"So, you are still in love with him, right?" Laksh asked me. I stood there numb.

How could I ever forget him? No matter what, I will always love him. He was the only one. I don't know, where he was. But my heart will always find his heartbeat. I'm sure about it.

"Yes, I love him...Laksh" I said in a broken tone. He embraced me and I choked out. How much I need to suffer everything. I miss everything. I miss the way I used to smile.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked you that." Laksh sincerely apologised. I shook my head negatively. I don't need a sorry now.

"Arpita, we have been staying together for almost 2 years. I'm a famous psychologist here. But I wasn't able to cure your pains. Why?" Laksh was becoming emotional. I hate it! I hate it when others become depressed because of me.

"It's nothing like that Laksh. It's just, I miss everyone." I tried to chirp. Laksh looked at me and smiled sadly.

"Arpita, you don't need to fake happiness. At least, not in front of me. You know, I could understand people well." He stated and I shook my head.

"Laksh, I need to go back to India." I immediately said and he looked at me shocked.

"Are you sure? I mean you know you have just started an Architecture firm last year. Do you really think, you have to go back to that place, which has always given you sorrows? Also, who will look after your firm?" Laksh was right. But deep inside my heart, I wanted to see Swara and clear every misunderstanding.

"One or two months. I will be back in London. After all, I can't leave this city, easily." I replied as a matter of fact.

"Do you want me to accompany you?" He asked me. I nodded my head negatively. He sighed and went from my room.

I have always seen a good friend in Laksh. If he wasn't with me, I swear, I would have died. Only because of him, I was here. Sometimes I wonder, how was I going to pay back to him. I chuckled sadly. I don't want to trouble Laksh anymore. That's why I took a decision like that. I sighed and drunk the cappuccino.

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