"Hiya.... Our... Our..." he stammered... I gripped his palm tight.. "before I take you, you must know a truth... our marriage was not a coincidence..".. he breathed... my eyes widened... I was bewildered...!!! what the shit was he talking about..??? "you are not making any sense"...

"Hiya..."thrice opened his mouth, but abruptly stopped. I could see he was trying to speak but he was hesitating..!!! wait.. relax... I know how my husband is.. so I should hold my patience until he spills the beans.. he was trying hard... I somehow managed a reassuring smile, he needs to trust me.. but I myself got into anxiety due to his silence..!! come on.. this cant stop now...!! after he has started this topic, it needs to be completed.. otherwise we wont be in peace.. neither me.. nor him..!!! I made the tea and passed him..!!! he drank it in a single go.. shit..!!!!

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"please don't interrupt me in-between. You can ask anything after I finish." He chipped... "hmm" I sat on the bed looking straight at him. He removed his spectacles, rubbed his eyes and started..

"I FOUND YOU BEAUTIFUL THE VERY FIRST MOMENT I SAW YOU. BUT YOU PISSED ME OFF WITH YOUR ATTITUDE..!! I GENUINELY WANTED TO HELP YOU, SO THAT , THAT TOPPER GUY COULDN'T MOCK YOU, BUT YOU TOOK ME WRONG. YOU TOOK IT AS A FAVOUR. OKAY.. I AGREE, MY WORDS ARE TO BE BLAMED, THE WAY I SAID, IT WAS TO BE BLAMED, BUT I HAD ALREADY LOST MY HEART TO YOU.. YES... THE VERY FIRST DAY... AND STUPIDLY ENOUGH I THOUGHT YOU WOULD READ MY HEART AND STUDY HARD TO BECOME A TOPPER. ISN'T IT NORMAL TO TAUNT. TO SCOLD OUR LOVED ONES IF THEY ARE NOT PERFORMING WELL??? EVEN OUR PARENTS DO SO... SO WHY CANT I??? BUT AS I SAID I WAS IDIOT. I JUST MET YOU 2 HOURS BEFORE. THAT TOO FOR FEW MINUTES AND I WAS CHURNING ALL SORTS OF CONCLUSIONS, THAT TOO ACCORDING TO ME.. FUNNILY ENOUGH THE SAME ATTITUDE WHICH PISSED ME, HAD ATTRACTED ME TOO!! I COULD NOT STOP MYSELF.

NEXT I SAW YOU IN THE BADMINTON COURT PLAYING. WITH A GUY. AGAIN I COULD NOT STOP MYSELF FROM GOING TO YOU. I SUCK AT GAMES, YET COULD NOT LET YOU PLAY WITH SOME OTHER MALE..!!! I KNOW I AM A COMPLETE JERK BUT I WAS STUPIDLY IN LOVE, LIKE THOSE TEENAGERS AND COLLEGE GOERS...

YOU DID GREAT IN THE SURPRISE TEST, AND MY CHEST FILLED WITH PRIDE... EVEN THAT TOPPER GUY WAS LOOKING DOWN WHEN YOU EXPLAINED THE CONCEPTS TO BE USED..!!! AND I KNEW, WHY YOU WERE SO POPULAR IN COLLEGE. IN MIND, I HAD ALREADY STARTED CHANTING, 'MY HIYA', NOT EVEN GIVING A SECOND THOUGHT THAT YOU DON'T KNOW ME YET.. AND YOU MAY ALREADY HAVE A LOVE LIFE.. AND THAT DAY, WHEN I SAW YOU WITH THAT GUY... MY WORLD WRECKED.. I DIDN'T REALISE HOW IMMATURE I WAS BEHAVING.. AND UTTERED THOSE WORDS... I JUST PUT MY THOUGHTS ON YOUR MOUTH.. IT WAS ME... YES IT WAS ME WHO CRAVED FOR YOUR ATTENTION... DIED TO HEAR A "MAYUKH" FROM YOUR LIPS BUT I YELLED ON YOU THAT YOU WERE TRYING TO WOO ME..!!! I WAS TRYING TO BOOST MY EGO..!!! FOR EVERY GIRL GAVE ME ATTENTION MORE THAN I EVER EXPECTED AND YOU WERE THE ONLY WHO WAS NOT GIVING ME A SHIT.." Mayukh stopped... gasping... gripping my hands... he was sitting on his knees on the floor with his head in my lap... though initially I was running my fingers through his hairs.. but gradually and unknowingly... I had stopped.. what he said made me go freak...!!! how can a person be so idiotic, self centred...!!! but wait... this is nothing related to marriage..

"but I cant get that 'marriage not a coincidence' thing...." I chipped trying hard to keeping myself composed..!! "coming to it.." he continued...

"YOUR EXAMS GOT OVER AND YOUR COLLEGE LIFE GOT ENDED, BUT YET I HAD A MONTH AD A FEW MORE DAYS TO JOIN. AND TRUST ME THOSE 35-40 DAYS WERE THE TOUGHEST DAYS OF MY LIFE... HOW I LONGED TO SEE YOU... EARLIER WHEN YOU WERE IGNORING ME.. BUNKING MY LECTURES IT WASN'T THAT DIFFICULT, FOR SOMEHOW I WAS ABLE TO SEE YOU, HEAR YOUR LAUGHTER, WATCH YOU PLAY.. BUT.. AFTER YOUR COLLEGE GOT OVER.. I WAS FREAKING OUT... MORE CAUSE MANY TIMES I HEARD THAT YOU AND THAT TOPPER GUY, I MEAN RANGON WERE RECRUITED BY THE SAME COMPANY, AND I FELT LIKE MAY BE YOU TWO HITCH UP TOGETHER AGAIN..!! I GOT FRIGHTENED.. AND I DID WHAT A GUY LIKE ME, FROM A FAMILY BACKGROUND NEVER DOES..!!! I STARTED KEEPING AN EYE ON YOU THROUGH THE SOCIAL NETWORKING SITES.. BUT MY GOD..YOUR PRIVACY SETTINGS...!!! I COULD NEVER SEE ANYTHING ELSE OTHER THAN YOUR NAME AND GENDER..!! SHIT..!!!AND I KNEW YOU WOULD NEVER ACCEPT MY REQUEST, AT LEAST THEN..!! I STOOPED MORE LOW... ONE OF YOUR CLASSMATES NEVER HAD ANY PRIVACY SETTING.. EVERYTHING HE POSTED, UPDATED WAS ALWAYS PUBLIC. GIVING A DAMN TO THE ETHICS, I CREATED AN ACCOUNT... USING HIS NAME..!!! AND SENT YOU THE REQUEST. YOU ACCEPTED IT.. I JUMPED IN HAPPINESS.. BUT YOU HARDLY SPOKE... AND AGAIN I FELT IGNORED, BETRAYED..!!! I SAW YOUR PHOTOGRAPHS UPLOADED WHERE YOU WERE WEARING SOMETHING LIKE A BIKINI TOP AND A HOT PANT... HOLDING A BEAR BOTTLE AND CHILLING ON THE BEACH..!! WITH RANGON.. AND FEW OTHER UNKNOWN GIRLS AND GUYS.. I COULD UNDERSTAND THEY WERE COLLEAGUES.. BUT I WAS HURT SEEING YOU AND RANGON TOGETHER.. SMILING..!! BUT YOU NEVER REPLIED MY MESSAGES...!! I FREAKED OUT..!!! HARDLY REALISING... THAT YOU WERE ACTUALLY NOT REPLYING THE GUY, WHOSE NAME I WAS USING... BUT EVERYTHING WAS DRIVING ME CRAZY.. AND THEN.... THEN...

I HAD TAKEN YOUR ADDRESS AND EMAIL I.D FROM THE COLLEGE DOCUMENTS.. I MADE FRIENDS WITH A HIGH SCHOOL BOY OF YOUR AREA... AND MADE A DEAL WITH HIM"... Mayukh stopped....I was almost in a daze... what was he talking... fake account?? Deal with a little boy..??? and he was stalking me???? Holy hell...!!!! he was pacing back and forth but I was stuck on the bed.. I was bewildered..!!! my head was spinning..!!! I gulped... "What deal Mayukh..??" My voice almost chocked...!!! he started again...

"THE DEAL WAS, I WOULD HELP HIM IN HIS SCIENCE PROJECT, FOR MY PROJECT WERE PRETTY HIGHER STANDARDS FOR A HIGH SCHOOL LEVEL, AND IN RETURN HE WOULD PROVIDE ME WITH ALL YOUR INFORMATION.. THANK GOD, HE WAS A PRETTY STUDIOUS AND AMBITIOUS CHAP, THAT MADE MY WORK EASY. JUST LIKE COLLEGE I FOUND YOU WERE WELL KNOWN IN YOUR LOCALITY TOO... AND WITHIN A WEEK, HE GAVE ME A HANDFUL OF INFORMATION ABOUT YOU..!!! THAT WAS IT... USING THOSE INFOS.. WITH SOME PERMUTATION AND COMBINATION.. I CRACKED YOUR PASSWORD..!! YES... I EXACTLY DID SO... THAT WAS SOME THREE YEARS AGO... AFTER THAT I REGULARLY KEPT YOUR TRACK... EVERYDAY I USED TO LOG INTO YOUR ACCOUNT.. READ YOUR CHATS WITH YOUR FRIENDS... BUT NEVER DID A SINGLE CHANGE ANYWHERE... SO YOU NEVER SUSPECTED ANYTHING.. AND YOU WERE NOT AMONG THOSE WHO FREQUENTLY CHANGED THEIR PASSWORDS..!!"

What the hell..!!! I sprang!!! He has been trespassing my account??? For the past three years??? I felt like kicking myself for being such a fool..!!! how come I never came to know that I my account was being by someone else too... he had been doing these for three years..!! I felt like someone has touched me without my permission..!!! my vision was getting blurred... but yet, I gathered the courage to listen more.. to kill myself a little more....

"IT WAS THEN, HIYA.. I GRADUALLY CAME TO KNOW YOUR PARENTS GAVE ASKED YOU A GET A GUY FOR YOURSELF.. IN A PERIOD OF THREE YEARS... AND IF YOU WOULD NOT FIND ANY.. YOU WILL MARRY TO A PERSON OF THEIR CHOICE. I STARTED TIRING MY BRAIN WHAT NEXT COULD I DO... ONCE I THOUGHT OF APPROACHING YOU.. BUT THEN.. ONE DAY, I READ A CONVERSATION OF YOU AND FRIEND OF YOURS... YOU WERE CHATTING ON TROUBLESOME LECTURERS... NOT EVEN ONCE TOOK MY NAME. WHEN THE YOUR FRIEND DRAGGED MY NAME, YOU ADDRESSED ME AS 'MANHATTAN RETURN... RANK FREAK PSYCHOPATH'!!! AND THEN I KNEW WHAT YOU THOUGHT ABOUT ME... THOUGH YOUR FRIEND WAS STILL UNDER THE SPILL OF THIS PSYCHOPATH... YOUR PSYCHOPATH... SHE MENTIONED UNLIKE YOU SHE WOULD NEVER MISS MY CLASS... BUT YOU SAID NOTHING... YOU TOLD NO ONE WHY YOU STOPPED ATTENDING MY LECTURES.. AND AGAIN AS A BLOODY IDIOT... I THOUGHT YOU HATED TALKING ABOUT ME... BUT I WAS TOO BLIND TO SEE THAT YOU HOLD MY IDIOCY TO YOURSELF... AND NOT LET ANYONE KNOW ANYTHING..!!! THEN I ONLY THOUGHT HOW TO TEACH YOU A LESSON..!!

GRADUALLY ANOTHER THING I KNEW.. YOU HAD DECIDED TO CONCENTRATE COMPLETELY ON YOUR CAREER AS YOU HAD JUST THREE YEARS TIME... AND YOU DIDN'T BOTHER WHOM DID YOUR PARENTS CHOOSE..!! NEITHER YOU WERE INTERESTED IN MEETING HIM.. TALKING TO HIM.. AND THAT WAS MY TRUMP CARD...

IN DUE TIME, I LIED TO MY PARENTS.. ABOUT US.. ABOUT ME.. ABOUT YOU.. I TOLD THEM THAT ONE OF MY FRIENDS KNEW YOU... SHOWED YOUR PICTURE... I LIKED YOU, AND GATHERED INFORMATION ABOUT YOU. AND WISHED TO MARRY YOU.. AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN KNOW ME... BEING A VERY GOOD BOY SINCE BEGINNING... MY PARENTS READILY BELIEVED ME... AND MY FAMILY APPROACHED YOURS' ... THE SAME LIE WORKED THERE TOO... THOUGH YOUR DAD, BEFORE REPLYING ANYTHING.. HE INSPECTED MY BACKGROUND IN VERY DETAILS... RIGHT FROM MY QUALIFICATION TO JOB TO FAMILY TO MY CHARACTER.. EVERYTHING... AND I SAY IT WITH PRIDE THAT HE WAS TOTALLY IMPRESSED..!! BUT YOU NEVER KNEW THESE THINGS FOR YOU WERE ON A OFFICE TOUR FOR A FORTNIGHT..

FINALLY WE TIED THE KNOT.. AND YOU BECAME MINE... NOW IT WAS TIME TO SHOW YOU, WHAT THIS RANK FREAK PSYCHOPATH COULD DO..!!! BUT SINCE THE VERY BEGINNING OF OUR MARRIAGE YOU STARTED AMAZING ME... YOU WERE NOT THE COLLEGE GIRL WITH SKY HIGH ATTITUDES... I COULD NOT CLOSE MY HEART TO YOUR ATTEMPTS TO MAKE OUR MARRIAGE A SUCCESSFUL ONE...!! I LOVED YOU... ALWAYS.. BUT MY MISCONCEPTIONS HAD BLINDED ME TILL THEN.. BUT NOW I KNOW, YOU ARE THE BEST THING HAPPENED TO ME HIYA.."

He cupped my face, his eyes rained my pains... I was spent..!!! felt like a trash...!! how could he be so selfish..!!! he violated my personal space just like that..??? I could not cry even... I looked blankly at him... he was chipping something.. but I was position to hear anything... my brain had stopped working...

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Suddenly I winced, thus breaking my own trance.. I could see the lapels of my night suit unhooked wide... he was giving soft bites all over my chest... I kept sitting there blank... I winced as bit me hard.. I jerked up.. "Hiyu.. say something atleast.. shout on me.. for I what I did to you.. see I am touching you with seeking your permission.. without caring what you are going through right now... shout on my.. yell on me please Hiyu.." he was pleading... I smiled...

"Since when did you start caring about my feeling Mayukh..??? since when did you feel like seeking my permission before violating my privacy..??? you are touching me now?? You have already fucked my trust .. my emotions.. my confidence... you really think I can believe you anymore??? I feel like virtually raped... for the past three years you have been bloody stalking me??? That too this badly?? Stalking would be less.. how could you stoop so low??? You created fake accounts..???" I burst.. I was crying now... he made our marriage... our relationship a joke.. a fun..!!!

"I am really ashamed of myself.. I am sorry... Hiyu.." he kissed my toes.. "Don't be"... I flinched back wiping my tears...