I am bored so i wrote this

It's raining outside and i have to stay in.I must be all alone with my abusive boyfriend again.He made me leave my parents and live here in Los angeles.He made me steal from a shop.He made me a bitch so i could make his every imagine real.Now i am just sitting in my bed.. In our bed i mean.. He wants to sleep with me so he can check me in case i would leave his side and go back to my parents or try to find someone better.Currently,he is sitting in the living room and watch porn.Yeah so he can take ideas from it. Me, the innocent one, i'm just sitting in my bed watching in my little pink laptop markiplier.He's the only one that takes away the pain.. The tears.. My sadness.. My depression.. Markiplier plays Super Mario Maker.. He is screaming cuz he can't pass the level but i am laughing with this.I am in another world now. A world full of happines, colours with little cute animals.And suddenly the colours faint... The animals die one by one.. Darkness takes over the place.. And i am again in the dark.

"Y/N YOU LITTLE BITCH"

Andrew screams to me as he opens suddenly fast the door.He nearly broke it.

"TELL ME YOU WATCH AGAIN THAT MOTHERFCA!"

He said. He hates Markiplier becuz he knows he makes me happier than he makes me.

"His name is Mark, Andrew.. "

I said so he could not hear me but he heared me.Then he puts his hands on my neck and he starts to chocking me.

"LISTEN THERE YOU LITTLE WHORE! I DON'T GIVE A SHIT IF HIS NAME IS MARK OR WHETEVER!IF YOU WATCH ANOTHER VIDEO OF HIM I WILL FCKING KILL YOU AND HIM, OK!?"

he said and took his hands.He leaves the room and goes back to the living room.He takes my laptop with him so he could be sure that i will not watch more videos from that "Motherfca".He also locked the room's door so i could not get out and turn off the lights"

"AND IN 15 MINUTES I WILL BE IN OUR ROOM AND I HOPE YOU WILL BE NAKED BECUZ I HAVE TO LEARN YOU SO MANY NEW THINGS!"

he screamed from downstairs.Why to me.. Why.. Hot tears are streaming down my face and i try to wipe them.My eyes are becoming red as i cry more and more.I try to find in the dark something in the room so i can end my life.There's no hope in my life.Sadness and depresiion is lurking in the corners of my mind.Two voices in my brain are fighting

"DIE JUST END YOUR LIFE, YOU ARE A NOTHING!"says the first one

"STAY STRONG EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE!"says the second.

But how.. How i can stay strong.. If i have an abusive boyfriend.. My parents are far from me.. And my only friends are my laptop and a guy behind a screen!?

"7 MINUTES WHORE!"

Andrew screamed from downstaurs again.I lay on the cold wooden floor trying to think something...

Heya guys! Zoe here!Do u want a part 2?Cuz if u want Mark could be appear.. *sings*