(Warning! Sad! Slight mentions of suicide!)

You sat in your room, on the floor beside a smashed mirror. Glass everywhere. You were crying your eyes out, you couldn't stop. He was gone, and you felt it was your fault. He was gone, and you were here, why? That was all you could ask yourself. You felt cold, yet hot tears streamed down your face non-stop. You sniffed and looked at yourself in one of the larger pieces of glass, you saw your red puffy eyes, the stains from the tears. You threw the glass against a wall, it shattered into a million smaller pieces. "W-why?..Why?!" You screamed. 

You heard a door open and close, you figured it was your friend Sean, he got on a plane as soon as he heard the news, and came to comfort you. "Y/N!" He yelled, "Bedroom..." You croaked. He opened the door slowly and saw you on the floor, tear stained face, shattered glass, much like your heart. "Hey, i'm so sorry..." He whispered and knelt beside you, hugging you tightly, you hugged him back a bit tighter, feeling only the slightest bit better. 

"Are you....Are you okay?" He asked, You shook your head no. "I know it's hard. Believe me, i miss him too. He was my best friend, but he's in a better place.." He tried to reassure you, you just let more tears spill from your eyes, "I-...miss him..so much!" You wailed, bawling again. "Why did it have to be him? Why not me!? He meant the world to me...and-....and now he's gone..." You cried. Sean began crying too, "I know...i know..." He replied quietly. "I can't do this Sean....." You confessed, He looked at you shocked, "What do you mean?" He asked, "I don't wanna live...not without him." You told him, "These wounds, with him gone...they won't heal. There's only so much that time can erase!" You cried. 

"Don't you ever say that! Don't even think it!" Sean yelled, now crying much harder. "I can't lose you too! I will not lose two of my best friends in the same day!" He said. "You have to keep fighting! He's in a better place....trust me. Just don't do anything that you'll regret...please." He begged. You sniffed, looking at the shattered picture of you and him. "He's gone. I know you don't want to believe it, i don't either...but he-..he is.." Sean told you. You nodded.

You both got up, he led you to the Kitchen and made you some coffee, and gave you a cookie. You looked around, you looked at everything, all the happy memories you had with him, now gone and grey. It was so much darker, and much more quiet. Sometimes quiet is violent. You took a walk around the house, looking in his recording room, so many happy and silly memories, gone. All the challenges, the games you played, when he proposed to you on camera so all his fans could see. It was happy, now, not so much. 

You looked at the last video on his computer, it was him doing a challenge with you. You walked out, not wanting to watch it. Not wanting to feel that pain. You looked in the driveway, no car. It was smashed and in a scrapyard. You closed your eyes and felt a hand on your shoulder, but no one was there when you turned around.

You and Sean drank coffee together in silence. After a while, you checked the clock, it was midnight. You both went to bed, he stayed in the guest room, you had to sleep in the bed you shared with him. All those memories, gone. You sat on the bed, and clutched a picture of him to your chest and sobbed softly. "I miss you...so much Mark.." You whimpered.

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A/N: I don't know why i wrote this, it's so sad! I almost cried...twice! I was listening to safe and sound, jar of hearts and my immortal. So yeah, enjoy? And as always, i will see you..in the next chapter! BUH-BYE!