Prompt: Inspired by a song

Ship: hints of Colria

So, for a little bit of background information, I'm not using my main OC (or my series OC as I call her, aka Maria Walker-Jones), I'm using my Movie verse OC, Maria Jones. I explained most of the events that occur in this oneshot in part two of "Father I need you" but some of the backstory has changed since then. I recommend you read that first, but it's not required. Also, I know I said in the description (and I think in the introduction) "mostly fluffy oneshots" and then I come up with angst for prompts that don't need to be angst-

Anyway, enjoy my first angst prompt!

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It's been a rough few months for Maria. What, with work piling on her, exam season around the corner and two small girls to look after. It's been difficult to keep herself together, her mood dropping dramatically and threatening to drag her back into her dark place. A place she'd only just crawled out from. She didn't want to go back. She couldn't go back there. She couldn't leave Gemma, her mum, her cousins, Lloyd, Cole, her bandmates and everyone who knew her. She couldn't do that to them, not after everything they've done to help her.

Sitting cross-legged in front of her full-length mirror, she grabs her phone and opens Spotify, hitting shuffle before throwing her phone onto her bed.

I lost my faith, made my mistakes

Sighing, she grabs her blending sponge and starts blending in some foundation. She's definitely made a lot of mistakes in her life, all of which she regrets terribly. The aftermath of them was always the same. It would drag her self-esteem down and resulted in her locked up in her room all day.

I Gotta find a way to make it easy, I'll be better on my own believe me

When things got really bad after her father left, she'd wanted to run away, live out by herself. Dropping her blending sponge, she grabs her concealer.

Pain I hold back, can't live like that

Dapping the concealer under her eyes, she grabs her blending sponge and rubs it in. When her father left, she hid her pain to help her mum and sister, keeping all her emotions bottled up inside her. It made her life even worse.

Yeah, I made my peace with all of the sorrow and now I'm living for tomorrow

She learned to accept her fate. From a young age, she learned about loss and how it affected her family. She saw how the loss of her uncle affected her father when she was just two years old. She didn't experience loss and grief until her father passed when she was fourteen. They all knew it was coming, but nothing could have prepared her for it.

I'm a girl with a new face and a life that's been changed

Opening her bronzer palette, she grabs the brush and dusts it across her cheekbones. Her heart sunk as the lyric bounced across her room. Her life had changed, yes it turned out worse than she ever dreamed of. But she changed too.

You know? You know? You know?

No one truly understood her pain. None of her friends had ever experienced death the same way she had. Lloyd didn't even know who his father was and she hadn't met Cole at the time. But Cole had experienced death like she had. He understood her and her feelings. He helped her through her grief, and she helped him through his.

I was a little bit lost, but I'm not anymore
I was a little bit hurt, but I'm not anymore

Picking up her eye shadow brush, she closes her eyes and dusts the pale shade across her eyelids. It was on the thirteenth of August when she experienced her first breakup. He'd messaged her that morning, confessing he'd been cheating and he didn't want to be with her anymore. Her father had died two days before that message.

I was a little left out, but I'm not anymore
'Cause the tears fell down, but they don't anymore
I was a little messed up, but I'm not anymore
I was a little locked out, but I'm not anymore

That day is still clear in her head. The day her father was rushed to the hospital. Her directed had driven her to the hospital and she'd rushed in, trying to see him. They'd shut the door on her face, locking her out. All she'd wanted was to see her dying father.

I was a little far gone, but I'm not anymore
Yeah, it's alright baby, I got the cure

She had no cure. No one to help her. She was alone in the world.

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Yeah, it's alright now baby, I got the cure

Now, it's me and myself, yeah, yeah, yeah, don't need no one else

She had noticed a change after her breakup, she felt a lot less pressured to be with him and texting him twenty-four seven. She could focus more on herself.

The happiness was always inside me

She remembers her parents' favourite memory. The day they got married. The day itself was the end of August, her mother wore a beautiful long white dress, her short blonde hair curled with flowers weaved into it. Her father wore a black suit with a white tie. His red hair gelled back. Her and her sister wore matching cream dresses, their hair tied up in fancy buns, butterfly pins weaved in. It was a day the family could never forget.

But Lord it took a minute to find me
And this freedom I found, is worth a million o' you now
And now I'm puttin' all my troubles behind me
I only need my heart to guide me

I'm a girl with a new face and a life that's been changed

Just as she'd started to accept life without her father, fate decided to throw more grief at her. After losing her aunt and uncle, from her mother's side, in a car crash, their cousins were brought into their custody. With her mum working all the time, her twin still being in school, it was up to Maria to look after them. A two-year-old and a two-month-old.

You know? You know? You know?

I was a little bit lost, but I'm not anymore
I was a little bit hurt, but I'm not anymore
I was a little left out but I'm not anymore
'Cause the tears fell down, but they don't anymore
I was a little messed up, but I'm not anymore
I was a little locked out, but I'm not anymore

She'd been a ninja for a couple of months. Lord Garmadon had attacked and was now on their side, thanks to Lloyd. The ninja had all revealed their identities the same day. It was a shock to everyone, yes, but they'd been accepting. Maria's mother? Not so much. They'd argued, two hours long to be exact. Which ended up with Maria kicked out. Locked out of her families apartment, she had nowhere else to go.

I was a little far gone, but I'm not anymore

Lloyd had arranged for her to stay at Kai and Nya's house for a week, so her mother had time to cool off and for the situation to be explained.

Yeah, its alright baby, I got the cure

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Its alright baby, I got the cure
Oh, oh, oh, oh
oh, oh, oh, oh
Yeah, it's alright now, baby, I got the cure
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Yeah, it's alright now, baby, I got the cure

And I
I learned to love again

She remembered seeing him across the warehouse. His tan skin, his raven hair in a man bun. She felt something in her heart. She knew he was the key to opening her heart again.

Cause I
Cause I finally understand
Ooh hey!

I was a little bit lost, but I'm not anymore
I was a little bit hurt, but I'm not anymore
I was a little left out, but I'm not anymore
'Cause the tears fell down, but they don't anymore
I was a little messed up, but I'm not anymore
I was a little lucked out, but I'm not anymore
I was a little far gone, but I'm not anymore
Yeah, it's alright now, baby, I got the cure

Grabbing her lip pencil, she carefully outlines her lips.

I was a little bit lost, but I'm not anymore
I was a little bit hurt, but I'm not anymore
I was a little left out, but I'm not anymore
'Cause the tears fell down, but they don't anymore
I was a little messed up, but I'm not anymore
I was a little lucked out, but I'm not anymore
I was a little far gone, but I'm not anymore
Yeah, it's alright now, baby, I got the cure

Rummaging through her makeup, she pulls out a nude coloured lipstick. Opening it and rolling it up, she gently goes over her lips.

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Yeah, it's alright now, baby, I got the cure
Oh, oh, oh, oh, (I got the)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, (I got the)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, (I got the cure)
Yeah, it's alright now, baby, I got the cure

Tilting her head slightly, she checks her face in the mirror. Pulling herself up, she stops her music and walks out of her room.

Did I get lazy at the end? Yes. I may have run out of tragic events so...I just let the song play out. Also, the "get ready with me" style wasn't intentional, it just sorta happened and I stuck with it.