Title: Like a dream pt. 2|2

Pairing: Sirius Black x Female!Reader

Word count: 2.9k

Published: 25 January 2021

Author: Heloise Daphne Brightmore

Notes: Important note at the end.

Challenge: This is part of @sleep-i-ness writing challenge on tumblr. I used the below dialogue

"Can I kiss you?"
"I don't know, can you?"

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Luckily your head injury wasn't as bad as Marlene said, so Madam Pomfrey decided to let you go from the hospital wing. You were having some difficulties with your memory, certain events and days missing here and there. You weren't sure what was going on, but when you voiced your worries to Madam Pomfrey, she reassured you that it was temporary and that after drinking your healing potions, everything would come back to you in no time.

It was 2 days ago and since then every time you saw Sirius, you turned around quicker than ever and rushed in the opposite direction.

You weren't sure if it was your dream or the fact that you felt embarrassed for even dreaming so vividly about an event that never even happened, but you just couldn't get yourself to face him and the easiest solution seemed to be running.

Of course, it did catch your friends' attention as well and they decided to speak up.

"Why are you trying to avoid Black as if he got the plague?" Lily asked as she walked along you after your last class finished.

"What do you think, why?" Marlene chipped in instead of you. "She can't stand him."

Lilt tilted her head curiously as she opened her mouth to speak, but before she could have, you interrupted her. "I'm not avoiding him, I just don't want to talk to him. I don't really have the energy to start bickering about some stupid thing he has done again," you heaved a sigh, a heavy one. Of course, you wanted to be around the boy, but Marlene didn't know about your crush on Sirius and you weren't ready to tell Lily about your dream.

"But you enjoy bickering with him," Lily added in confusion as if trying to solve a puzzle.

"Well, now I don't," you attempted to finish the conversation, but Lily didn't seem to want to.

"Marlene, can you please leave us alone for a second?" Lily asked turning to the blonde girl, who although seemed even more curious about what Lily wanted to say, she decided to walk away with a grimace.

"Why did you send her away?" you asked, frowning.

"You like Sirius. What is this distant behaviour?" she furrowed her brows, trying to figure you out.

"I just don't feel like it, Lily," you shook your head.

"I don't understand you. Since we came back from Easter holidays, you are being very secretive," she added, feeling slightly suspicious. You frowned at her reply, your memories of your break and the following week blurring together in your head.

"To be honest, it's hard to know what happened. My memory is still a bit fuzzy," you sighed, trying to remember, eventually causing yourself a headache. "I will just take a nap, Lily. I'm not feeling well," you said as you arrived in your common room.

She shook her head, knowing something was off about you, but she didn't dispute it. "Go and rest, but try to come down for dinner," she added as you headed inside, and she hurried off to the library.

You threw your bag on the floor and jumped on your bed, still in your uniform, not even caring about the creases you would get on them. You rolled from left to right, from stomach to back, before you finally shifted off to dreamland.

...

You were walking through an empty corridor when you heard an unrecognisable noise from beside you and a hand reaching for your arm. You didn't even have time to fight it off, you were pulled into a secret passage.

When you looked up, you met your favourite grey pair of eyes and a playful smile that made your heart flutter. You didn't object against his touch anymore, if anything, it just made you happy.

"Sirius, what are you doing?" you asked, folding your hands in front of your chest.

"Sorry, I missed you," he chuckled playfully. You shook your head, trying to indicate your disapproval, but he didn't seem to care. He sneaked his arms around your waist and pulled you closer to his body with innocent, puppy eyes trying to get you to forgive him.

Of course, you couldn't stay mad at him and within seconds you opened your arms and wrapped them around his neck. "I told you to be more careful. If we want to keep it a secret, no one can see us," you scolded him.

"I'm trying, but it's hard to pretend. I just want to kiss you whenever and wherever. Is it too much to ask?" he whined like a little boy, but instead of you feeling guilty, you offered him a sceptical expression.

"Believe me, I want the exact same. I want to kiss you whenever I see you, but you agreed to keep it a secret," you tried to convince him once again.

"Sure, I did, because you asked me to, but I don't understand why we have to keep it from others. It's not like they didn't see it coming, even though you tried to deny that you fancied me. Which let's be honest, sounds ridiculous, how could you not like me," he grinned proudly, which earned him a gentle punch on his chest from you.

"Don't get cocky, Black," you huffed, but once again, you couldn't be mad at him. "I just don't want the whole school to talk about us. You have quite the reputation, Sirius and I don't need haters right now. I have to focus on my studies and quidditch," you explained as Sirius heaved a deep sigh, giving up on opposing.

"Fine, but try to spend some time with me, I feel abandoned," he pouted, making you giggle.

"Stop making that face, it's not working," you scoffed with a playful smile threatening to expose how happy his words made you.

"How exactly?" he asked, pouting even sweeter, his eyes opening wider, looking like a small little puppy. The exact definition of adorable.

"I hate you, Black," you groaned as you grabbed his collars and kissed him. His scent made you want to pull him even closer, his arms around you felt as if they belonged there, his lips on yours melted your heart.

"I can see that," he chuckled with a cheeky gaze looking back at you as you parted.

"Zip it, Black," you giggled as you tried to wriggle out of his arms. "I have to go to practice," you attempted to convince him, but he didn't seem to budge. "Sirius!"

"Fine, but on Sunday you are mine," he raised a questioning brow, but his gaze showed no place for objection.

"Yes, I am. We can go wherever you want, just let me get to practice or James will kill me," you added.

"I would like to see him try," he scoffed. "He would rather let me punish you," he grinned playfully, wiggling his brows, once again earning him a slap on his chest from you.

"You are a pervert, Black," you laughed as he finally let you go.

"Come to the Astronomy tower tonight. Noone will be there, I will make sure of it," he pleaded and as much as you wanted to say no, you wanted to spend time with him too.

"Fine, but make sure no one is going to be there," you replied and quickly kissed him again, before you walked out of the little passage.

"Even I?" he called after you, laughing.

"Very funny," you scoffed as you started walking away.

You couldn't remove the wide grin from across your face. Sirius made you feel so happy, you never even knew you could possibly be as giddy as you were around him. His touches, his kisses, everything felt just perfect. To know that Sirius belonged to you and finally you belonged to him almost felt like a dream.

...

You hit the floor hard as you rolled off the bad, your head landed loudly on the carpet covered wood, making you whine. You opened your eyes to realise you were in your room. Remembering back to the previous few hours, you could recall parting from Lily as you headed to take a nap. And now here you were again, dreaming about Sirius so vividly, it drove you crazy.

You groaned as you got up from the floor, your back and elbow feeling numb from the fall. It was already 6pm so you quickly ran your hands down your uniform, trying to straighten it out and rushed down the stairs heading to the Great Hall.

As you walked across the corridor, a door opened beside you and a hand dragged you inside an abandoned classroom. As you looked at your kidnapper, you recognised Sirius standing in front of you with a hurt expression, his hand still holding your wrist.

"What is wrong with you?" he asked as he let go of your wrist and folded his arms in front of his chest. "Why are you avoiding me?"

"I'm not avoiding you, I just have nothing to say," you furrowed your brows in confusion. You never tried to be in the same space unless it was necessary and his unusual need for your presence seemed suspicious.

"You have nothing to say," he stated, but it held a slightly questioning tone. "If I were you, I would start with a sorry. That's not nothing," he huffed in an annoyed tone.

"Why would I have to say sorry?" you raised your voice, feeling anger rising within you. "I have nothing to do with you. I can't possibly apologise when I don't feel sorry," you huffed in annoyed tone, feeling agitated.

"You have nothing to do with me? I didn't confess my feelings to you so you can just step on me," he raised his voice slightly, but stepped back, feeling hurt.

"What are you talking about?" you asked, surprised. Your eyes winded, your heart quickened. You didn't understand what he was on about. "What confession?" you lowered your voice, your head spinning from the information you received.

Sirius watched your surprised state with confusion across his face. He wasn't sure if it was a prank, if you were joking with him, or in the worst-case scenario, you really had no idea what he was talking about.

"You really don't remember?" he asked, hoping to receive any answer, but a no.

"Remember what?" you asked back.

Sirius heaved a deep sigh, walked around one of the tables and sat down on a chair. He hid his face between his palms and took deep breaths, trying to find a solution. "Did you get a concussion?" he asked, but instead of replying, you nodded. Sirius huffed, before he let out a deep breath and leaned against the back of his chair. "That makes sense."

"I really don't understand what's going on here, Black," you spoke up as you walked in front of his table. He flinched at his last name coming out of your mouth. "Care to explain?" you asked.

"We were together," he replied without hesitation. Your eyes widened in surprise, your lips parted involuntarily.

"We what?" you asked back in a higher tone.

"We got together when my family visited yours during the Easter holidays. We went over for dinner and apparently I looked miserable when our parents were having their polite little tea party, so-"

"- so, I asked Walburga to let you come with me," you finished his sentence, making him frown deeply.

"I thought you didn't remember," he replied, confused.

"I thought it was a dream. When I finally gained consciousness in the hospital wing, this was the dream I woke up from," you added. "I thought it was just a dream," A small smile started forming on Sirius' face as the words left your lips.

"That means you do remember. Or at least some parts," he smiled happily. "It's only been a week or so since we got together, so I don't expect you to recall many memories, but is there anything else you remember?" he asked curiously.

"Erm- I did dream about a passage where you dragged me into and that we were supposed to keep it as a secret, then there you talked about a date up in the Astronomy tower and another date on Sunday," you tried to recover some of the information from your dreams.

"That was supposed to be the reason for your apology. I was waiting on Sunday. I didn't understand what was going on. When I went to the hospital wing to visit you late at night, you were asleep and by the next day you were gone. I couldn't even catch a glimpse of you, you avoided me so carefully," his face wasn't happy anymore. You could clearly read the hurt off his face. You were confused, you didn't really know what to think, but from Sirius' expression you were sure you hurt him.

"I'm sorry, I really thought it was just my head playing with me. If I knew it was true, I-" you didn't know how to finish your sentence. Sure, you wanted to be with him, but you were still processing that your dreams weren't even dreams. They were indeed real events, they just seemed like a dream.

"If you knew- what would you have done?" he asked hopefully.

"I- I wouldn't have avoided you," you admitted.

"Why did you distance yourself? Even when we weren't together, you never avoided me on purpose," he questioned, his tone upset.

"My dreams- they felt so real, I felt embarrassed about them. I didn't want to think of them because they were so vivid, even looking at you makes me feel- strange," you replied as honestly as you could, hoping he would understand you.

Sirius heaved a deep sigh as he stood up from his chair and walked over to you, engulfing you in a hug. Your body tensed for a second, but soon it relaxed into his arms as if it knew where it belonged. "I missed you so much," he whispered into your hair. "I just didn't understand what I could have possibly done to you to feel the need to avoid me," he hinted a small kiss on the top of your head. "I don't want to push you to remember, but- but do you still feel like you like me," he asked, but didn't let go of your body. He didn't dare to look at you as he waited impatiently.

"Of course," you replied without hesitation. "I liked you even before I got hit by that stupid bludger," you added quickly.

Sirius pulled away from you, a small, genuine smile spread across his face. "That makes me incredibly happy," his adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed nervously. "Do you want to give it another go?" he asked and the sudden happy and warm feeling rushing through you made you smile widely.

"I would be stupid to say no," you giggled as you pulled him closer again and hugged him strongly, enjoying his arms around you, his warm embrace engulfing you.

"I'm assuming we are still going to keep it as a secret," he stated, but it sounded more like a question.

You quickly shook your head. "No, I don't want to. I hate that no one knew about us and I felt like it was all just a dream, as if it was only all in my head," you were slightly panicked as you played the whole scenario over and over again in your head. You never wanted to feel like you didn't belong together.

Sirius' smile widened at your words, relief taking over him as he placed his hands on your cheeks and tilted his forehead against yours. "Well, I'm certainly glad to be able to finally show off my girlfriend," he grinned playfully, his words making your stomach fill up with tickling little butterflies.

"You are-?" you asked, earning a questioning expression from him.

"Of course! I fancied you for so long. Being able to tell others that you belong to me and I belong to you makes me the happiest man alive," he chuckled happily. You bit into your lower lip as you tilted your cheek against his hand, enjoying his touch. "Can I kiss you?" he asked, making you feel like you were having a deja vu moment.

"I don't know, can you?" you giggled as you remembered back at your dream which eventually revealed itself to be reality. "This question seems awfully familiar."

"I am not planning on going into your game this time. I want to kiss you right now," he breathed against your lips, his words impatient. You didn't want to waste any more of your time either, you stood on your tiptoes and attached your lips to his. His movements, his scent, his breath, his lips, everything just felt familiar. Even though your brain thought it was a dream at first, your body couldn't be fooled.

As you parted, Sirius smiled down at you, his grin growing wider. "I feel like we should repeat that. We have to make up for a couple of kiss-less days," he added with a cheeky grin and before you could have even replied, he leaned down and kissed you again. You giggled into the kiss, but it soon died down and you gave into Sirius' embrace.

Being with him was even better than you remembered in your dreams and whilst it did feel like a dream, it was reality at its best. You never wanted to let go of it, because Sirius in reality was even more addictive than in your memories.

Notes 1: So, many of you have been slightly baffled and unhappy with the way I left pt.1. However, I did have my reasons. You see, it was an experiment. I wanted to see what is the level of frustration or anger you would feel and honestly, I had a blast reading your reactions. So yes, it was simply because I was mean xD I'm sorry though. Some of my readers responded as the below and I just couldn't stop laughing;

"I'm pissed!" | "Dude!" | "OH SHOOT!" | "NO WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME" | "So cruel 😢" | "I feel betrayed" | "I nearly got whiplash from that sharp turn" | "the plot twist caught me so off guard" | "WHAT???NOO!!!!" | "oh... ;-; oh no..." | "NO THIS ISNT FAIR" | "I feel like I was hit by a train"

You people always say I'm so nice and kind. I guess, not anymore xD So to quote myself "It was my intention to break hearts" but now I do feel a tad guilty :D <3

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