Title: Interest in you

Pairing: Sirius Black x Reader and James Potter x Lily Evans

Word count: 3198

Published: 1 July, 2020

Author: Heloise Daphne Brightmore

You have always been interested in Sirius Black. You knew he was somewhat of a player and he was not one to settle down with anyone for longer than a week or so, but it didn't stop you from "occasionally" admiring him.

You were jealous of his long, black locks as they were always playfully entangled around his fingers, if not one of his admirers ran their hands through them. His cheeky winks and mischievous glances made you weak in your knees, making you excited like a little child who gets their first letter to Hogwarts. His white teeth that always presented themselves in full as their owner had the most devilish smirk when swooping the ladies, making you envy the touches they could share. The voice, the deep baritone voice that left his lungs each and every time he let out a deep laughter, warming up your inside.

You didn't just have a crush on Sirius Black, you were way beyond that. Every single day, you left your eyes wonder towards his form and watched every move, every word, every gesture he made. You sighed more often than ever, which honestly bothered you, but you just couldn't take your eyes off him.

Sirius was sitting in front of you on potions, with his current girlfriend on his side. He secretly placed his hand on her thigh, slowly wondering up towards her most sensitive spot, making her squeak as he reached farther up the skirt. You could just about see his mischievous glance directed towards his girlfriend, who looked back with a lustful expression.

You wanted to watch them, fill your thoughts with all that was Sirius Black, but a parchment piece rolled into a tiny ball, interrupted you. You opened up the letter and recognised your best friend, Lily's handwriting. You looked at her from the seat beside you, but she acted as if she was concentrating on something very interesting Professor Slughorn explained. You opened the letter and started reading its content.

"Stop!

I really don't understand how Sirius can't see the hole your eyes are burning into the back of his head. Get yourself together and just ask him out. You have been longing for him like  a little puppy for years, it's painful to watch.

I'm begging you to do something about it already."

You frowned at your friend's unnecessary concern, but still you quietly chuckled at the thought of you and Sirius being together. You took your ink and quill and started a reply.

"Nah."

You crinkled the paper and slid it to her. She opened it curiously and loudly snorted followed by a smirk on her face. You returned the playful expression, before you realised the whole class went silent.

"Is something funny over there?" Professor Slughorn's alarming glaze was wondering between you and Lily. "Would you like to discuss with the class what seem to entertain you?" He questioned and you just shook your head.

"We are sorry, Professor." Lily replied, looking down at her table nervously, but you were still hiding a smirk across your face with your hands. Soon enough Professor Slughorn turned away and you gently nudged Lily to get her attention. She just shook her head being scared of getting detention, which caused you to snort again. Luckily just in time you hid it with the palm of your hand.

You felt as if someone was looking at you. Your eyes immediately drew you to Sirius' stormy grey irises, which were looking at you as if he was studying you. You raised an eyebrow at his intense gaze causing him to smirk. You just rolled your eyes and turned back to annoying Lily.

*

"Why not?" Lily attacked you as soon as you left the potions classroom.

"Why not what?" You asked not understanding her reference.

"Why don't you ask him out or just do anything, literally anything about him?" Lily asked almost as if she was begging you in despair.

"Look Lily, he is incredibly handsome and of course I am attracted to him, but just because you fancy someone, it doesn't mean you want anything from them. He is just part of my fantasies, I guess." You chuckled to yourself.

"That doesn't make sense." She waved you off. "If you like someone, you want to be with them." She explained, not expecting the whole-hearted laughter exploding from your lungs.

"Says the one who can't even accept that she has feelings for a certain Lazy, Arrogant, Toe-rag!" You wiped a tear away from your face.

"That's completely different." She shook her head.

"Yes, because in your case, the subject of your fantasy actually likes you back." You chuckled playfully.

"I do not like James Potter." She said, but you started pushing her on purpose.

"So you don't think James is handsome?" You asked with a raised brow.

"I mean, I guess he is not bad, but that doesn't mean I fancy him." She huffed in annoyance.

"But you did say that he's kind of changed over the years, right?" You questioned her again and looked behind her with a mischievous smile. She missed that though.

"He did change, he isn't getting into trouble that much, but that has nothing to do with it." She growled, getting annoyed by your interview.

"So he is not bad looking, and even you agree that he has changed. Come on, at least admit that you fancy him just a tiny tiny bit." You looked at her innocently.

"I guess, maybe a small part of me took an interest in him." She blushed and you happily clapped your hands together.

"So what about that date now?" You saw James putting an arm around Lily's shoulder with a cheeky grin sitting across his now very happy face. Lily on the other hand was dumbfounded. She didn't know what to even do with her own existence and her crimson red cheeks betrayed her usually expressionless face.

"My job is done here." You said and walked away from the couple.

"You are dead." Lily shouted after you, but you just turned back and winked at her before turning around the corner.

*

You were sitting in the common room, writing an essay on transfiguration for Professor McGonagall. You shifted yourself on the ground, in front of the fire place as you adjusted to a more comfortable position behind the table.

The door opened and you could hear Lily's cheerful giggling followed by James' laughter. As they saw you they sat down on the couch in front of you. Soon Sirius and Remus arrived as well, each taking an armchair for themselves. You looked up at Sirius for just a second but quickly turned away, deciding to focus on your essay.

"That was mean." Lily sighed happily.

"Excuse you?" You looked up at her laying your chin into your palm, focusing your complete attention to her.

"What you did earlier." She said.

"You don't seem to mind though." You looked at James' arm around her shoulder.

"That's not the point." She huffed, trying to sulk. But you weren't having it.

"It is though. James has liked you for years and you have liked him for a while too. You were just too stubborn to admit it. Let's just say, I gave you a little nudge into the right direction." You smirked causing James to snort playfully.

"You could have done it differently." She crossed her arms in front of her chest.

"I could have. But it was more fun like this." You stack your tongue out at her and went back to your essay.

"Says the one who has a crush on a certain person, but she does nothing about it." She pouted. You didn't move your head, you stayed still, but your eyes gazed up at her.

"That's a completely different story. I don't want to date my crush. He is just good to look at." You shrugged.

"What?" James asked with a frown across his face. You put your quill down, giving up on any further work you could have done.

"It's what I said." You rubbed your temple in annoyance.

"What does that even mean?" He asked curiously.

"It means, he is very handsome, he is quite smart, so he is good to look at. But I wouldn't want to date someone like him." You explained.

"That doesn't make sense." He continued. "If you like someone, you want to be with them." He shook his head not believing you.

"Thank you. I've been saying that." Lily commented. You just gave her a bored look, before turning back to James.

"Not necessarily." You replied. "I do fancy him, but his fame preceded him. His behaviour towards women is something I do not agree with. So I rather look, than to do anything about it." You explained with an expressionless face.

"Who is that guy?" He asked.

"Yes, who is that guy?" Lily asked as she tried to push you, but you just smirked.

"Sirius." You replied simply looking at the mentioned boy, whose eyes grew wide at your straightforward answer. You looked back at James to continue. "As I said, his fame preceded him." You shrugged.

"What?" James asked in disbelief. "How can you not want to date Sirius?"

"Because I am not into the whole weekly partner change scenario." You said still expressionless.

"Everyone wants to date Sirius." James scoffed.

"No, James they don't." You shook your head. "Most of the girls don't necessarily want to date Sirius, they want to own him" You raised a brow at your theory.

"What does that even mean?" He asked with a frown.

"When you date someone, it's not just because of how they look, but you actually want to get to know them. However those girls only date him for his looks and his witty comments." You looked at Sirius. "I honestly don't think you have ever had a meaningful conversation with any of them, have you? Of course not." You answered your own question and turned back to James. "Because it's all about physical attraction. Which is not bad. But that's not how dating is working. I would rather call it friends with benefits of some sort." You shrugged.

"You are unbelievable." He shook his head.

"You really never wanted to date me?" Sirius cut in this time.

"I didn't say that. I did want to date you, back in the day when I started to fancy you. But not anymore." You shook your head.

"Not even a little?" He asked frowning. You thought for a second before laughing out loud.

"Nope. I can't even imagine it." You grinned at the weird thought.

"I don't get you." He said leaning back into his armchair.

"You don't have to." You smiled and turned back to your essay.

*

You were walking to your transfiguration class alone. Lily was with James this time and you left for your class rather late anyway. Soon you heard quickening footsteps behind you, but you didn't turn around.

"You really don't want to date me? Not even a little?" You turned as Sirius reached you and started walking along you, through the corridors to your next class.

"For the 100th times, no. Why does it even bother you so much that you keep nagging me about it every single day?" You asked. For the last couple of days he has been onto you like a little puppy, asking the same questions every single day.

"Well, I don't even know myself." He scratched the back of his neck awkwardly.

"Then let me explain it to you." You stopped and focused your attention to him. You were tired of his questions at this point and you just wanted him to stop. "There's a person between your hundreds of admirers, who doesn't want to date you even though she fancies you. While this boosts your ego, it also destroys it because she doesn't want anything from you. This makes you more interested in her. It's kind of like trying to hunt down the prey. It's more fun when they run, compared to if they wait patiently to be hunted down. You are just going after what you can't get or is harder to get. To summarise it, your interest is simply for the sole purpose of your ego-boost." You shrugged and started towards your class once again.

"That's a bit harsh. But you might be right." He frowned, getting lost in his deep thoughts.

"I know. Now if you don't mind, I have a class to attend to. So do you." You said walking farther.

"But, wait." He stopped you, gently grabbing your arm.

"What now?" You rolled your eyes in annoyance.

"What if I am actually interested in you?" He tried once again.

"You don't even know me. The only interest you have is out of curiosity. You just want to know if you could make me go on a date with you." You replied.

"Don't people start dating to get to know each other? I don't have to know you just yet." He said and for a second you stopped in your tracks. "I'm interested in going on a date with you, because you are interesting as a person, not as a prey of whatever psycho bla bla you said before." You snorted at his reply, but you couldn't hide your smile.

"I guess you are right. But that still doesn't make me want to go on a date with you." You shrugged and walked to your class. But Sirius stopped you just before you could have touched the door handle.

"I haven't dated anyone since you told me that you fancied me." He said with a cheeky smile.

"Good for you." You nodded and walked into the class, barely hearing a last sigh escaping Sirius' lungs.

*

You were sitting in the courtyard with Lily, asking each other questions to test your knowledge of charms. You were quite deep in your thoughts, but Lily didn't seem to concentrate.

"What is bothering you?" You asked giving up on your task at hand.

"You." She replied pouting. "I talked to James. Sirius genuinely wants to go out with you. Why are you acting so cold towards him?" She asked.

"I am not at all cold towards him. I talk to him quite a lot." You explained frowning.

"Yes, but those are just casual conversations. As soon as he asks you about going out, you just reject him." She huffed.

"I learned from the best." You chuckled.

"That's not funny. My situation was different. I didn't like James for a long time. You on the other hand has fancied Sirius for as long as I can remember." She gave you a know-it-all look.

"Yes and I did say to all of you that I wasn't interested in dating him." You said giving her a stern look.

"Why not? He hasn't dated anyone for a while and he has been after you like a loyal little puppy." She tried to convince you.

"Lily, he will find someone to date in no time. I don't plan to be a fill-in." You shrugged and stood up, pulling your bag over your shoulder.

"He doesn't need a fill-in. He wants to go on a date with you. Not anyone else. Is it so hard to say yes to even one date?" She asked as she stopped you from getting inside.

"No, it is not hard. It's unnecessary. It wouldn't develop into anything anyway." You pulled your arm out of her hold.

"And how would you know that?" She asked. "I thought James was an arrogant and lazy little boy and look at me now, I couldn't be happier. You just have to learn to give a chance. Thanks to you I did, so now it's your turn to listen to me." She growled almost like an angry mother. "Can you just give him one chance?" She glared at you with a look that you couldn't say no to.

"Fine, I think we can arrange one tiny date. But if he screws up..." You started, pointing your finger towards Lily's face.

"He won't, believe me." She chuckled pulling you towards the common room.

You walked through the corridors, climbed the stairs, all while Lily was already planning the double dates with James, Sirius and yourself. You just kept rolling your eyes at her, but you found it quite interesting to say the least.

As you walked into the common room, you saw the marauders gathered around. Lily pulled you towards them, taking a seat next to James on the couch, while you decided to go for your comfortable carpet in front of the fire place, behind the table.

Remus and Peter occupied another sofa while Sirius was laying across on an armchair, to your left. You stared at his messy, black hair and cheeky smile sitting on his face as he joked with Remus. You smiled at his cheerful expression. You didn't mind having one little date after all. You took out your parchment from your bag and ripped a rectangle piece from it's corner. You took out your quill and ink as well and started writing.

"Do you still want to go on a date with me?

☑ Yes!

Please tick your answer!"

You made sure to tick the little box on the parchment, that said yes, so Sirius didn't have a choice. You found it maybe a tiny bit comical. 

You took out your wand and lifted the parchment from the table and levitated it over to Sirius. He looked at you with curious eyes and as he tried to take the parchment, you made it move away. He tried again, this time he was faster, but not enough. You dodged his grip. He looked at you with a deep frown sitting across his brows. You moved the paper closer to him, this time letting him get hold of it.

He opened the letter and at first you could see his confusion, causing you to giggle at his reaction. Soon, however he joined you with a heartfelt laughter and put the paper into his trouser's pocket.

"I guess, I don't have any other option, do I?" He smirked and you just shook your head.

"Would you like to have another option?" You asked playfully, but this time it was his turn to shake his head.

"Not at all, I am perfectly content." He smirked and you giggled at him as he joined you behind the table, starting a conversation with you.

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