Title: Go on a date with me!

Pairing: Sirius Black x Reader

Word count: 3668

Published: 2 April, 2020

Edited: 1 May, 2020 (Photo/Gif added)

Author: Heloise Daphne Brightmore

Warnings: Explicit public display of affection

You were sitting in the Great Hall, munching away on some toast and jam as it was breakfast time. You were accompanied by the Marauders and Lily Evans. You were usually quite talkative, always making yourself involved in each and every conversation. However on this occasion you were completely out of it. You had something on your mind. Something that you really wanted to do, but didn't know how to. You weren't scared, but you knew if you did what you wanted to, it could have changed your relationship with the Marauders drastically.

Your toast has already gone cold by the time you wanted to take a second bite out of it, but you didn't mind. You weren't really hungry, you just felt the obligation to feed your stomach with some crumbs at least. You felt a nudge coming from next to you and you looked up at none other than Sirius Black, as he was sitting next to you. He was saying something, you saw his lips move, but it didn't register in your head. You tried to focus to be able to at least read it off of his lips, but your mind seemed to be wandering towards another path. You found those moving lips more desirable than ever and you really didn't care about what they were saying. The only thing in your mind was how would they move against yours.

"Love, care to reply?" Sirius asked. At first you were surprised as your brain started slowly processing that he was talking to you and you could actually understand the coherent sentences. However you didn't care what he was saying. You wanted to say, what you were going to since your brain went into overdrive over his lips.

"Go on a date with me." You said bluntly and everyone of your friends stopped their movements and a deadly silence fell on your group.

"I'm sorry, what?" Sirius looked at you with his grey eyes wide open in surprise.

"I said go on a date with me." You repeated as if you were talking to a child who had issues understanding your words.

"Yeah, I think I heard it well the first time too." He said scratching the back of his neck.

"Oh Godric, I never thought you were that brave." James chuckled lightly and showed you a proud thumbs up. "I mean I knew it, but this is just awesome." He was unable to get rid of the ever growing grin across his face, but you didn't mind. You happily mirrored his expression as you turned back towards Sirius.

"So is that a no?" You asked, impatiently waiting for a reply, which didn't seem to want to come out of his mouth.

"I mean... well..." He was blubbering something under his breath, but you were incapable of understanding him, other than a couple of words here and there.

"For Godric's sake, Black! I didn't ask you to marry me, I asked you out on a date." You chuckled and you thought your eyes were playing with you. Sirius Black was slightly blushing and you couldn't comprehend how adorable that usual cocky bad boy looked. You leaned closer to his ear and whispered not to let the others hear you. "If you say yes, I will not tell the others that you are blushing." You smirked as you leaned backwards with clear confidence radiating from you.

"I guess, we could go." He said unsure of what was really going on. He wasn't used to girls asking him out. He was used to girls crawling after him or whining until he asked them finally. However noone ever attempted to ask him for a date in such a blunt, straightforward manner.

"I am sorry, it sounded like you weren't sure of your answer." You teased and he let out an annoyed growl.

"I said let's go on a date." He replied before rolling his eyes.

"Now that's better. Hogsmeade this weekend." You chuckled and gave a kiss on his cheek. He should have gotten used to that as you have done it almost everyday. Still, this time he turned red straight away. "Cute." You whispered as you pulled back and decided to stand up and leave. You felt his gaze following you until your silhouette finally disappeared behind the doors.

As soon as you left the Great hall, a huge sigh left your lungs. You seemed confident and strong, but inside you felt like they were suffocating you. You wanted to ask him out, you wanted to be with your crush, but noone ever told you that it would be so difficult.

It was already evening, right after dinner, when the Marauders joined you and Lily in the common room. James dropped down next to Lily on the armchair, pulling his chuckling girlfriend onto his lap, while Peter sat across the table taking out some of the books from his bag. You thought Sirius would at least take a seat next to you, but he sat down on the other side of the couch forcing Remus to sit next to you.

You looked at him frowning, but he just kept focusing on the fireplace, being lost in his thoughts. You turned away with a disappointed sigh. You started questioning what you have done. Your feelings were so strong towards Sirius. You wanted to spend some quality time with him. But after realising the distance he was keeping, you knew you have made a mistake. He very clearly didn't want to be next to you, let alone go on a date with just the two of you. You felt a stinging feeling in your eyes and you were sure that soon enough you would start crying. You were debating to go to your dorm, but then you didn't want your roommates to ask you all kinds of 'whys'. Instead you stood up and decided to head to the library. You were basically spending 90% of your free time there and knew that you would not be kicked out at such late hours.

"Where are you going?" Remus asked.

"I have to finish my potions essay. I have to take some books from the library." You replied casually and left without hesitation.

As you arrived to the library, you sat down at the farthest and darkest table. You barely got comfortable before your silent tears started rolling down your face. You just kept looking at the bookshelves reading each and every title trying to get your thoughts to change from him to anything. Literally anything. However you were interrupted.

"That doesn't seem like you are studying potions." You looked up to see your friend flicking her red hair behind her.

"I am warming up." You answered shrugging your shoulders.

"What is going on?" She sat down across you. "I thought everything was okay. Sirius agreed to go on a date with you." She smiled reassuringly.

"Exactly. He only agreed, Lily." You let your head fall behind as you took a deep breath and exhaled. "You see, he was very hesitant when I asked him out, right? So I thought it was only because he wasn't used to situations where the girls make the first step. But then he started blubbering and instead of taking that as a hint, I basically blackmailed him into saying yes." Lily frowned at your confession. "The last blow however was when he sat down on the other side of the couch. Come on Lily, if someone asks you on a date and you like that person, you wouldn't avoid him, would you? You would rather look for his company." Lily looked down on her hands and started playing with her fingers. You knew you were right and you knew that Lily knew you were right. You never felt your chest as heavy as you did in that moment. You just felt incredibly stupid and naive. You wished to turn back time and forget about what you have done.

It was already Saturday and the Hogwarts students were ready to leave for Hogsmeade. Everyone was downstairs waiting for McGonagall to do her headcount. You were watching the growing group of people, but you were only looking for a certain person. You knew you should have faced him and told him to forget about the date, but you didn't have enough courage. You just watched him from the window, laughing with the marauders and Lily. You wished to be there, to be a part of whatever made them feel so at ease, but for now you couldn't be in the same place with him. It would have been too painful.

As the group of students started to follow McGonagall, you decided to make your way downstairs too. You wanted to go to Hogsmeade to buy some necessities aka sweets for your sweet teeth, but it was crucial to avoid being seen by Sirius, so you decided to wait for them to leave and give them a head start.

When you arrived to the little village your legs started to lead you straight to Honeydukes. However just before you could have entered, you saw a glimpse of a long red hair. As she turned around and looked at you, you knew you were busted. You turned as fast as you could humanly manage and headed towards the Shrieking Shack, knowing noone really went there unless out of necessity. You waited a good hour or so before deciding to try your luck again. You walked back to Honeydukes but before entering you have inspected the shop from its giant windows. You have not seen anyone who you were trying to avoid so you decided to step under the colourful, warm structure.

As soon as you finished shopping, you stepped outside while trying to force the plastic bag full of sweets into your unexpectedly small bag.

"Well, well, well..." You heard a very familiar voice and your head involuntarily snapped up. James was standing in front of you with a very obvious questioning look on his face, while the others stood back. Your eyes met with Sirius' now dark grey irises for a second, but you didn't feel like making any eye contact. You turned away to close back your bag and looked back up at James with a straight face.

"Can I help you?" You asked as if you didn't understand what he wanted.

"Erm... yeah?" He looked confused. He expected you to understand him, but for Godric's sake, it was so much easier to act dumb. "Were you not having some plans for today?" He asked while a frown started crawling its way to his forehead.

"Yep and I am done." You nodded, pointing at your bag. "Bought everything I needed in Honeydukes." You replied casually.

"Are you having amnesia or something?" He asked scratching the back of his head.

"Not that I know of." You shrugged and started walking away. However James didn't plan to give up and you started getting frustrated at his persistence.

"Correct me if I am wrong, but you have asked Sirius out on a date, didn't you?" He asked and you turned around with an annoyed expression very visibly sitting across your face.

"Yes, I did ask him out, however nothing was finalised, such as where and when we would meet. So basically, you do not have the right to question me. And to be fair, I think Sirius is a big boy and if he is annoyed by it, which I would hardly believe, he can open his mouth. I don't think he needs a spokesperson." James' eyes grew wide. You didn't look at the other's but you heard your friends gasp in disbelief. You knew you were ruder than you wanted to be, but sometimes you just opened your mouth before thinking of what you were about to say. You didn't regret it though. What's there to regret? You just said your honest opinion. Luckily for Sirius, he didn't have to go on a date with you. Everyone is happy, right? Without a second thought you turned around and headed to Hogwarts, leaving the dumbfounded group behind.

It was already evening and you were laying on top of the couch in the common room, reading one of your favourite books. You completely shut your surroundings out, therefore you didn't even realise Lily's presence up until she sat down next to you.

"What was that all about?" She asked with a straight face and arms crossed in front of her chest. You didn't even look at her, you focused your complete attention on your book.

"What do you mean?" You turned the page with an uninterested expression.

"You were supposed to go on a date with Sirius." She exclaimed dramatically.

"So?" You asked.

"What do you mean so?" She questioned. "What is wrong with you?" She shook her head in disbelief.

"There is nothing wrong with me." You rolled your eyes in annoyance.

"Really? So why didn't you go on the date?" She asked.

"Because." You replied casually.

"I don't understand you. You have had a crush on him for ages. Finally you ask him out and then you don't even appear? But that's not even the worse. When you finally decide to show up, you just shrug the whole thing off with an uninterested behaviour? Who are you?" She was frowning at your unusual behaviour. And you understood her. But somehow you just didn't feel like getting your heart broken. You already broke a friendship with the marauders, which hurt like hell.

"Guess what, things don't always go the way you want them to." You replied finally looking up at her. "And if you don't mind, I would like to continue reading. But you are more than welcome to waffle on if you wish." You growled in annoyance and turned back to your book. Lily understood that you didn't want her presence near you, therefore she decided to leave you alone for now.

The next morning you woke up to feeling like a tank rolled over you. You growled as you got out of bed and started taking care of your morning routines. As you got ready and walked down to the common room, you recognised Lily, sleeping on an armchair in a very uncomfortable position. You felt guilty for your behaviour and you wanted to apologise. You gently shook her a couple of times before she started showing signs of waking up.

"Hey." You greeted her gently, which she returned with a cute 'hmm' sound. "I am sorry." You said out of nowhere and Lily's eyes snapped open. "I am sorry for being so stubborn and stupid." You were not one to apologise, so when you did, it was a one time deal of some kind. Your friend immediately sat up and gave you a big bear hug.

"It's fine. You probably had your reasons. Although I do not understand them." She confessed while releasing you.

"I think I just didn't know how to handle it. I will just apologise to James and Sirius as well. I just acted as a child instead of acting as my age and that bothers me the most. I don't even know why I behaved like that." You nodded agreeing with yourself.

"It's fine. You realised how dumb you were and that's what matters." She chuckled and you fake gasped at her cheeky comment while punching her gently on the shoulder.

"I don't even need enemies with such friends like yourself." You grinned as you walked out of the common room. You walked around corridors, however you couldn't find the marauder's on their usual spots. You checked the Great Hall, the Black Lake and even attempted to enter the Forbidden Forest, making sure not to go too deep, but you found nothing. Finally you decided to return to the castle, when you recognised the mischievous group of boys in one of the less frequently used corridors.

"James, Sirius!" You shouted to get their attention, successfully. All four of the boys turned around but as soon as they turned, you realised that it would be harder than you expected. They didn't just seem unhappy with your presence, but their body language of crossed arms and eyes focusing on anything but you, revealed how much they didn't want you around. You jogged in front of them and stopped, taking deep breath to normalise your oxygen intake.

"Look James, I am sorry for my behaviour yesterday. I don't even know what has gotten into me and I just released it all on you. I really am sorry." You tried to speak coherently, but you wanted to get it over quickly as you felt quite embarrassed and you weren't sure if you have made any sense.

"So an apology is all it takes?" James asked and you sighed looking down on the floor. You knew he was mad at you. You have been friends for a long time and you never really snapped at him like that. You quietly muttered another 'sorry'. "I am just messing with you." He chuckled and gave you one of those warm, strong hugs you liked from him. "But I don't think it's me who you have to apologise to." You turned towards Sirius who was looking at you with an expressionless face. You gulped at the scary thoughts appearing in your head.

"Sirius, I am sorry for not being straightforward enough to cancel the date." You kept playing with your hands instead of daring to look into his eyes. You just didn't have the courage. He might have been unhappy with your date proposal, but it was still you who behaved like a caveman. "And I am sorry for my behaviour in Hogsmeade. I know I could have handled it better, but unfortunately I didn't." You shook your head looking into his grey eyes, focused completely on you. "I guess my brain stopped functioning for that day." You chuckled slightly, trying to break the awkward, tense feeling growing between you.

"You know I am not even angry that you didn't tell me about not wanting to go on a date. I am not even mad because you were being an ass towards my friend. But I am angry because you wanted to cancel the date. What is that all about?" He asked and you frowned in confusion. You had no idea what he was talking about.

"What?" Was the only word that you were capable of forming. He stepped forward standing just a few inches away from you.

"Why did you decide not to go on a date with me? What changed?" He asked raising an eyebrow.

"Well you didn't want to go, so I didn't plan to make you feel uncomfortable and forcing you." You replied, uncertainty showing in your voice.

"And where did that smart little head of yours got the idea from that I didn't want to go?" He asked taking another step forward, closing in on you.

"Well, you only said yes because I blackmailed you and then you avoided me, so it was quite obvious." You were mesmerised by his closeness, the way his smokey breath felt on your lips, his eyes deeply digging into yours.

"And that smart little head of yours could only see one explanation, right love? Is there no way to have another one?" He asked while gently grabbing your waist pulling you closer to him. You put your hands on his chest to keep yourself steady and you could feel his heart beating faster than yours.

"Well... not really." You shook your head slowly, not even taking your eyes off of his for a second. He chuckled at your reply and gently placed his soft lips on yours. 

You didn't even hesitate, you gave yourself into the kiss, melting in his embrace. With one hand he drew circles on the small of your back, while he placed the other on the back of your neck pulling you closer. You moaned into the kiss, pleasure overwhelming your senses. You wanted the moment to last forever but he left your lips with a quick peck. Your cheeks reddened at the thoughts crossing your mind and you scolded yourself for having such inappropriate thoughts.

"You look beautiful now." He sighed in content.

"Black, are you trying to tell me that every other day I look horrendous?" You teased punching his chest gently.

"I wish." He smirked. "The more I look at you, the more beautiful you become." He said with an ear to ear smile across his face.

"Oh Godric, save me. Sirius Black is ill." You chuckled.

"Shut up and just go on a date with me." He placed his forehead on yours.

"Happily." You smiled and kissed him again, but this time with more passion.

"Thank Godric. Them two were painful to watch." James started a congratulatory clapping.

"Are you still here?" Sirius looked back at as his friend while still keeping his hands on you, not leaving you for a second. James understood his friend and took Peter and Remus with him as farther as he could. "So where were we?" He grinned and you couldn't keep your laugh in. You pulled him closer and continued attaching your lips to his, savouring every moment.

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