You can hate updates but there is always sorrow after smiles. And happiness after sorrow.

Blinds are down. still some light comes in. and he gets to know that it has been morning. he gets up. he has not slept a wink last night. When he returned home it was already very very late. Standing inside army tent watching her leave he had let the time pass by. But the hell did night pass soon. It stuck. It refused to go. And when there was no option he returned. He came back to this house which suddenly felt empty. And instead of welcoming him this whole house attempted to swallow him. He for a first time in his life was so disturbed. Completely not at ease.suddenly he felt things are getting scary. and he has no hold over them. 

with room being enough lit with sun light he leaves. he gets ready in no time. khala is calling for him when he has left for base. skipping his breakfast..

khala sees him. he has been a troubled person. first arwa then all this. she herself has no idea what to do. but she is also feeling that somewhere something happened and then things turned pretty bad. a fight erupted and it led to immediate distances . she has seen palpable gap between them. but after the night both were together she thought perhaps something good will turn out. but the good that night brought was naina leaving this house. that too not alone but taking saira with her. she has not expected her to do something like this. she is such a gpod kind hearted woman who'll do anything to make naushad smile. but the way she left house when it was dark night she is sure whom to blame. she sighs. she has now a single duty to perform that is taking care of naushad hoping this mess would be cleared sooner. thats the only thing she can do.

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it has been whole day and now around twenty hours in night, there is no sign of naushad. he has not returned home yet. khala is waiting for him. 

he appears. he blesses her with his presence but the moment his eyes meets with khala' he looks down. before she can ask anything he is off to his room. 

in months it has become so claustrophobic in this house. window and doors ajar but she finds this house full of nothing still not able to breathe in. she is now giving up. she doesn't want to but...she has no option. naushad has plainly rejected her advances. she wipes her eyes. she doesnt know what turned this pleasant home into such a mortgage. she can see nothing but emptiness.

she sighs and leaves.

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it is third day. same routine of naushad. he goes early and comes back  late. kitchen has proved to be so out of use part of house. she has been cooking food but no use. naushad has not been having food. he is skipping meals. and it is so evident on his face. a face so full of seriousness yet handsome now looks so worn out. his skin losing its colour getting dull day by day. he has gotten skinny. he has lost weight. and not only this he has not spoken a word since the day naina has left. he has not even mentioned saira. his own daughter.

this is so messed up. khala has no idea how to deal with this. this is his personal matter but she cant see him in pain. he has been like his son. she has been in this house for so long as it seems now her own. she finds herself a part of this house. this may be a abode but she has seen her home here somewhere. between these walls and windows she has seen a part of her breathing and living. and now the way silence and sinister voids have been prevailed here. she wonders who cast her evil eye upon happiness of this house! few days ago it was smiles and giggles and now it is silence and silence. 

he looks at leaving naushad. uniform has started to hung loose on his body. he still shows no sign of being in pain. he is still not uttering a word. khala is now agitated. it is going overboard. he needs to speak. he does. 

before she can even stop him, he is out of door and in his jeep. 

'naushad, beta...nashta to kar ja. taiyar he. aise nahi chalega. wapas aa. ye bhookhe pet yu ghar se nikalna koi smajhdari ka kaam nahi he.'

he spares her a glance and tells her that he has something to take care at base. before she can even protest, he leaves.

she is at door...leaving naushad. what has become to this house and this shimla! all of sudden it seems no more than pole. cold and empty.

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naushad comes home late. he finds khala sitting in drawing room. before he can turn to his bedroom, khala stops him.

'pahle khana kha. baad me kapde badlana.'

'hume bhookh nahi he khala. aap kha lijiye.'

and khala loses her cool..

'ye kya kar raha he tu? kya sabit kar rana chahta he? yu bhookha rah kar kaun sa mukam hasil karna he? itna hi ghut raha he to jane kyu diya usko? aur wo gayi to gayi saira ko bhi le gayi. kyu nahi roka apni bacchi ko! ab yu is tarah se kya hasil karega? yaha mere alawa tujhe aur koi nahi dekhne wala he. aur mene pichhle teen dino me bahut dekh liya. khana kha. chal.'

he doesnt budge. neither he replies. 

'naushad! jabse me yaha hu, kabhi koi shikayat nahi ki. jo bhi mushkil aayi khuda ka karam samajh kar uske samne khadi rahi me. lekin ye khali ghar aur bhikhri huyi mayusi ki wajah khuda nahi tu he! kyu? naushad? aisa kya ho gya he ki tujhe ab teri jindagi se mohbbat nahi rahi..saira to teri jaan he na. to kyu nahi he wo yaha!

aur upar se tera khane se bhagna. kiska matam mana raha he? agar uske jaane ka itna hi gam he to kyu door door bhagta raha us se ab tak. kitne din tak us bacchi ne koshish ki. tera dard baatne ki. teri jindagi me shamil hone ki. tab tune kabhi usko tawazzo nahi di. aur ab wo nahi he to tu khana peena chhod kar baitha he. me poochti hu ki ye sab kiske liye!'

she sighs..

'beta. jindagi bahut badi he. meri bhi aur teri bhi. har pal bahut lamba jaat he beta. aur waqt se jyada zalim koi nahi hota. agar ek baar isne apna muh mod liya phir koi kuch nahi kar sakta. naushad..abhi bhi waqt he. mat rok khud ko. tujhe bhi jeene ka haq he. mat maar khud ko..mat maar.' she breaks down.

and naushad has to speak..

'khala. usko saira ki jarurat mujhse jyada he. meri beti meri jaan he..lekin uski saanse he. wo usko dekh jinda he. aur rahi baat meri maayusi ki...

mere pas iske siwa aur kuch he bhi to nahi. har baar yahi to bachta he mere pas. jab bhi me koshihs karta hu, mayusi hi to haath aati he. ab nahi hoti koshish. thak gaya hu me. sirf saira he mere pass. usko nahi kho sakta. me ab kuch bhi nahi aajmana chahta. aur phir uske paas mere se jyada waqt aur jindagi he. kal ko agar uski jindagi me koi khushi aayi aur usne bhi is ghar se nata tod liya, phir?? 

me andhero me khush hu. khala. mujhe roshni mat do. ummed ab parayi lagne lagi he..'

he leaves crying khala. she sees an insecure and scared husband who is selfless father too. but she doesn't know when this selfless father'll get what he deserves. she wants allah to show mercy for this man has witnessed just wrath all along..