As a 16 year old girl , when you for the first time start having feelings for someone...what would have you done?...well sab ke aapne aapne jawab honge...but me being that 16 year old girl , I ran far away... away from the person..away from the unsettling feelings of mine...

Well , it all started with a stupid section change and ended up being one of my scars..

Jaise hi main class 11 ka torture jheelne ke baad...class 12 taak pohachi hi thi ki meri principal ko laaga that our section's need to be shuffled..

And that is how I met Madhyam...Madhyam Singhania..
meri bestfriend ka so called dost

We both were chalk and cheese....

Mera tiffin khaane se leeke mere books and copies pein aapna naam likhne taak...he never left any stone unturned to irritate me..

Jaan bujh ke woh mujhe ajeeb ajeeb naamo se bulata...kabhi ' Chhoti Chudail ' toh kabhi ' Double Battery Single Power '...meri zindagi pein grehen baan gaya tha...in short meri zindagi ka ' Kaali Billi ' baan gaya tha...after all that is what I ended up calling him..

Sab kuch sahi tha...until and unless I started enjoying his company...or his teasing...

Prayer line mein woh hai ki nehi dekhne se leekar class mein woh aas paas baitha hai ki nehi dekhne taak...I never knew when I started having feelings for him..

Jab bhi koi usska naam le toh sharmane se leekar hamesha ussi se baatein karne taak ka safar taay karne mein zyaada waqt nehi laaga..

Ek toh pehela pehela pyaar...upar se inexperience ...trust me it is the deadliest combination of disaster...and eventually my fate met with a disaster...

To be precise...I am talking about 2016...tab just Facebook ne humari zindagiyon mein entry liya hi tha...

Ek din aapne not so active Facebook account ke feed mein scroll karte karte Madhyam ka post dikha hi tha ki bass...next din se humari baatein shuru..by God kya din the woh...aur humari baatein badi hi ajeeb si thi...ek dusre ki taang kheechne se leekar...ek dusre ko sarcastic reply dena hi humare chatting ka definition tha..

Par afsoos...jisse main healthy conversation samajh rahi thi...woh dur dur taak kabhi mental intimacy nehi baan paya..

Kya kare...usske pehele kisi ladke se kabhi baat ki hi nehi thi...joh yeh samajh pati...

Baaton hi baaton mein zyaada der nehi laaga usse aapni dil ki baat baatane mein..

Subh muhurat dekh ke usse ' I love you '
send kar diya...dil ki dhaadkanein badhti gayi...haath paair bhi thaande hone laage...jab thodi der baad usska jawab aya ' hmm '

Hmm...arrey yeh kaisa jawab hai!!...aap logo ki tarah mujhe bhi samajh nehi aya...par khair koi nehi...haan bhi nehi bola...aur naa bhi nehi bola...toh shyaad kahi chance hai socch ke main pagal umid mein baithi rahi...akhir pehela pehela pyaar tha...aise kaise haar maan
leti...

Dekhte hi dekhte board exams aa gaye...aur college ka admission saatane laaga....

Pyaar...ishq...mohabbat ko deactivate kar ke hum sab jut gaye aapni future baanane mein

Exams khatam hue...toh pyaar yaad aya...par Facebook khola toh khud ko unnki blacklist mein paya...

Ek toh dheet...upar se self respect ki bhooki....ek aasun nehi bahaya...Madhyam se wajah pouchne ki jagah...usski yaadon ko mitaya...

Akhri baar usse shyaad result lete waqt dekha...clean shaved...white shirt with blue stripes...aya tha woh meri bestfriend se baat karne...tab toh gusse ke mare kuch kaha nehi maine...par baad mein aapni bestfriend se poucha toh pataa chala ki Madhyam yeh sheher chhod chhuka hai...haan bahut udaas hogayi thi main...chhup chhup ke bathroom mein royi thi main...

Akhir mera pehela pyaar adhura joh reh gaya tha...