5 '0clock in the morning.
I am not at all an early bird. But, whenever I come here, I try to wake up early, so that I can have a glimpse of the sunrise.
Rubbing my eyes sleepily, I headed towards the balcony. It was still dark, the sun hadn't come out, yet. But I could clearly make out, that someone was already present over there.
Getting out of my sleepy mode, I carefully looked at the person. On realising who it was, a smile crept on my lips.
Me ( sweetly ) : good morning Dadaji
Dadaji immediately turned to face me, with a warm smile.
Dadaji ( still smiling ) : good morning beta. ....tum yaha? ????.....iss waqt? ????
I went and sat on the sofa, facing the beach.
Me ( calmly ) : haan. ...bass surya ko 'hi ' bolne ayi thi! !!!!!
Dadaji ( happily ) : main bhi wahi karne aya hu. .....par dekho naa. ....tumhara surya abhi taak nehin nikla. ....
Me ( jokingly ) : don't worry Dadaji. .....surya ko pataa hai. ....ki main usska wait kar rahi hu. ....toh woh zarur jaldi aa jaega. ....
Dadaji ( playfully ) : laagta hai surya aur tumhara bahut accha connection hai! !!!!
And we burst out laughing ,like fools.
Me ( controlling my smile ) : waise Dadaji. ....Manik ke mom dad nehin aye? ??????
On listening to this, Dadaji became a little uncomfortable, which I noticed.
Dadaji ( calmly ) : jab Manik 5 years ka tha. .....tab usske dad ki heart attack ke wajah se death ho gayi! !!!!.....meri biwi toh pehele hi chal bassi thi. ....Manik ke dad ki khabar sunn kar mujhe bhi stroke aa gaya. ....aur main hamesha hamesha ke liye iss wheelchair ka saathi baan gaya! !!!!.....uss ek saal mein bahut kuch badal gaya! !!!!......aur sabse zyaada Manik ko sehna padda! !!!!......meri tabiyaat ke karaan. ..... Manik ki mom ne business world mein kadaam rakha. ....aur humare company ko ek naye mukaam taak pohuchaya! !!!!!.....magar woh kehte hai naa. ....kuch paane ke liye. ....humein kuch khona bhi paddta hai! !!!!.....toh Nyonika ne bhi wahi keemat chukkai. .....bhale woh aaj business world mein ek influential women hai. ....magar usska parivaar bikhaar chukka hai! !!!!......aur uss ne Manik ko khoo diya hai! !!!!..... Manik ko kabhie bhi usske hisse ka pyaar nehin mila! !!!!..... mujhe ab bhi yaad hai birthdays, fests, parents teacher meetings, sports days par kaise Manik akele baitha rehta tha! !!!!.....bina koi shikayaat ke. ....bass iss umid mein ki shayaad Nyonika ayegi. ....par woh kabhie nehin ayi! !!!!!......aur Manik ki zindagi aisi hi chalti rahi. .....
After listening to all of this, I was literally in an emotional wreck. At this kind of moments, the best option is to change the topic, which I did.
Me ( complaining ): pataa hai Dadaji. .....Manik mujhe kitna pareshaan karta hai! !!!!.....usse laagta hai ki main koi chhoti si bacchi hu. ....woh toh mujhe manhandle bhi karta hai! !!!!!.....pataa hai. ....uss ne toh mera nickname bhi 'kid ' rakha! !!!!!.....he is really impossible. ....
And I just went on complaining, when I heard Dadaji giggling badly.
I looked at Dadaji, with a pout.
Dadaji ( controlling his giggle ): don't worry beta. .... Manik jinhe aapna mannta hai. ....woh unnka aise hi khayaal rakhta hai! !!!!
Immediately, my mind processed the words 'aapna mannta hai '.
Dadaji further said " laagta hai. ....naa chaah ke bhi tum Manik ke life ka hissa ho. .....ek bahut hi beautiful sa hissa! !!!!"
After listening to all of this, I just gaped at Dadaji.
Dadaji ( smiling ) : tumhara surya aa gaya. ....tumhari zindagi mein nayi khushiyaan leke. .....
I immediately looked at the sunrise. It was really beautiful, the way in which the sun rays where covering the sea. I don't know why, but it felt like these sun rays were entering my dark life, with new hopes.
I was so much engrossed in my thoughts, that I didn't even realise, when Dadaji left me alone.
After listening to Maniks side of story, I was emotionally touched. Manik was always a cheerful person, but who knew, that he had so many tears to hide behind his smile.
For the first time, I found Manik and my life similar. After all, we both were abandoned by our mothers. Maniks mother had no choice, but my mother? ????....She had every option, yet she decided to run away, just because she was frustrated of her life. These two mothers, played a very crucial role in both of our lives.
After that incident, Manik turned positive and I hell negative.
Hum dono ke life mein ek hi kami thi, aur woh tha 'pyaar '. Magar, hum dono mein sabse bada difference yeh hai.... ki Manik ko ab bhi aapne life mein pyaar chahiye. ....aur main. ...main khud pyaar se dur bhaagti hu. .... agar Manik pyaar hai. ....toh main nafrat! !!!!!.....Manik dil khol ke har rishte ko aapna ta hai. .....aur main har rishte ko thukra ti hu! !!!!!
Humara dard ek hai. Magar humari dawaa? ???????