#Heart keeps beating, regardless of it's posture#

It was not a Heartbreak!

No, it was not!

It was not a Separation!

No, it was not!

It was not a Breakup!

No, it was not!

It was a stop sign to my feelings. The feelings that I had for him. The feelings that I kept only for him. The feelings that I took care of, for him. 

It all stopped!

Just with his one answer.

No!

A No to my proposal. A No to my desire. A No to my dreams. A No to my hopes.

A No to making a family with me!

A No to marry me!

Simply because...he was afraid. He was afraid of making a family. He was afraid that I might end up like his mother. He was afraid that he might end up like his father.

He was afraid that we might end up, like how his parents did!

So what if we're in love with each other? His parents were also in love. So what if we promised each other a life of forever? His parents did the same.

So what if he could trust me then? His father trusted his mother in the beginning too.

If his parents, who were so much in love and trusted each other with everything they had, got separated and he had to suffer the aftermath, then we can also end up like them.

He believed in it, and I did not!

That's exactly why I'm here, now. Without him, beside me. Without him, in my life.

Living my own life, with my family! My new family!

"Ma!" I was jerked out of my thoughts, by her. My little bird! Smiling at that thought, I turned around to see her running towards me. "Ma!" she yelled out, joyfully, smiling beautifully.

"Annu!" I engulfed her in a warm hug, while she clung to my chest, panting heavily, yet gleefully. "Ma! I won the race." she squealed, delightedly, before looking back at something, and I turned to face a panting Ayu, who just stopped running.

"So Bhai-behen were racing, again, huh?" I raised my eyebrows at them, who grinned gleefully at me. "And I won the race." Annu clapped her hands, and I chuckled before looking back at Ayu.

"And you're not sad, Mister Murthy?" I asked, smiling down at him, who looked at me, and shook his head, while smiling. "Annu is happy, Boo. That's enough." He replied, shrugging, and I felt my heart melting at his tone.

"Awe! My little ones." I took both for a hug, while they giggled, hugging me.

"Boo! Where's Ma?" Ayu asked, on breaking the hug. "Here, Mister Murthy." I turned to find Tammu, Tamanna walking towards where I stood, with a plate of fruits in her hands. "And I'm here with fruits." she announced, and it didn't take Ayu another second, to run towards his mother. While my daughter stared at me.

"Ma! I'll eat fruits, you know." she whispered in my ears. "But no milk. Pleaseee!" she pouted, and I picked her up in my arms, squeezing her cheeks with mine. "Um...maybe, I'll agree with a little bit of milk and a lot of fruits. You can't say a full NO to milk, baby." I cooed in my baby's ears, who pouted, but nodded at me.

"Okay! If Annu's Ma says then, Annu will drink." she said, and I planted a kiss on her forehead. "My brave little girl." I whispered.

And she was enough for me. To forget all my pain!

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It was not easy!

Easy to live my life.

Easy to fake a smile.

Easy to fake happiness.

Easy to forget my pain.

It was not easy to forget her. 

My Love!

She was everything for me. I could have given my beating heart to her, if she had asked for it. But she didn't. Instead, she asked for something else.

A family.

With me.

I should have been happy that my Love wanted to stay beside me, forever, and have a family with me. I should have been jumping around, in happiness, but I did not.

I was afraid.

Afraid to lose her.

Afraid to lose the beautiful reality I had with her.

Afraid to lose her innocence to the worldly happiness that she might forget herself and become someone else.

That was cowardice of me to think like that! She would never be something like that. She was such a pure soul.

But...my mother was once a pure soul, too.

Yet...here, she is. Being the cruel fate of mine.

And what did I gain? What did I gain in saying a NO to her?

Nothing.

I just...lost her. And maybe...forever!

"Manik!" I looked up at my reflection in the mirror, before looking back at her. She took in my appearance, before nodding at me, in the form of greeting.

"They are all waiting for you. At the breakfast table." and she turned to leave. "Mukti!" I looked back in the mirror, and called out to her, hoping she would stop.

"I'm going to office. I have an early meeting." I said, and put on my watch.

"Every day?" I heard her, and I realized that she did stop to hear me. "When will your early meetings come to an end, Manik? I don't think every day could be a day for an early meeting." I heard her curt tone, laced with a tinge of...sadness, maybe!

"I don't have a choice." I replied. "Work calls for me." I added, before putting on the blazer. "You always had a choice." she muttered, softly, and I got halted in my work.

"And you always choose the wrong choice." I shut my eyes tight, when I heard her footsteps fading away.

Yes! She was right, there. I always had a choice, but...I do not know how to make the right one!

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Hey guys,

A new book is here. I won't make any promises regarding the update. It won't have a weekly flow like how my others books used to have in the past. Also, this might be a short book too. I have no plans regarding this book. Just wanted to write something new, and I tried.

P.S: Nothing in this book will be similar to the kyy series, except for the main characters' names and the third breakup scene. The plot, relationships between the characters, and everything else is my own.