As we made our way to the camp, the situation in the car was slowly approaching awkward, so I turned up the music and tried to drown out my worries. I was thinking of Lyle and how he had that blunt, if he got caught he would be going to jail for sure… but he was good at weaseling his way out of trouble. 

I looked in the rearview mirror, seeing Allison’s bobbing head with her earphones in, she was totally oblivious to my stare but that’s how I liked it. In a way, I kind of missed her, the way she made me feel good about myself… but I also couldn’t forget the way she made me hurt. She tore me down, built me back up, and then tore me back down again… but she made me feel something. Within all the hurt and the pain, I kind of started to fall hopelessly in love with her. 

She didn’t know that though. 

It had been a month since we talked normal, she could’ve changed, and Kate had claimed that she only came for me, but that was hard to believe. Sure, maybe she was delighted with the fact that I was going, but I wasn’t the only reason. 

I couldn’t be.

I remember the night I blew up on her like it was yesterday, when I cried in front of her for the first time. She seemed taken back that night, and ever since we haven’t been the same. She knew she hurt me, but was she ever going to own up to it? Apologize like a normal human being?

In my mind I doubted it, but I always had that tiny hint of hope. 

Besides, there was no one else here that was gay, Kate wasn’t for sure, so it was just me and Allison, even though I was pretty sure she was bi-sexual. 

I watched the city leave behind me in the rearview mirror and I sighed, wondering if this was going to be a good weekend. It didn’t feel bad, I had no uneasy feeling, besides the fact that Lyle had illegal weed in his presence, but other then that I was fine. 

Then I heard Kate groan, “Jeez I cannot take the awkwardness anymore! It’s killing me, seriously, you two need to kiss and make up already!”

Her words weren’t my favorite combination, but the awkwardness wasn’t bothering me one bit, I shrugged, “I have nothing to apologize for.”

I saw Allison folding up her headphone, “I don’t think it’s appropriate in front of you, Kate.”

Kate sighed heavily, she knew she wasn’t getting shit out of us, but I knew she wasn’t going to give in quite yet. “We’re spending the weekend together, and it’s going to be a long one if you two ignore each other the entire time. Just be normal…”

I laughed, “We’re anything but that Kate.”

She rolled her eyes, “I know that, but get over yourselves…”

I fell silent again, good try Kate, but it wasn’t working. I wasn’t apologizing, or talking to Allison before she apologized to me… 

And that was final. 

I glanced at Allison again in the rearview mirror and this time her eyes locked with mine, and I felt my heart flutter. I pulled my gaze away from hers quickly and looked straight, seeing nothing but empty highway road in front of me. 

The gaze… it was weird, like she was sending me an apology with them instead of words. 

And I realized in that moment, I missed talking to her. I missed the cute texts and the comments we used to give each other… then she had to go and fuck with my heart. 

I felt the anger return, reminding me why we haven’t talked in so long, and like I said before, I wasn’t starting now. 

Then the boys pulled up next to us, rolling down the driver’s side window and Kate rolled mine down. Lyle yelled, “You all look to awkward in there!”

O yelled, “We are! Trust me!”

He smirked, “So kiss and make up, lesbos!”

I felt my face redden, he wasn’t talking about me, Kate, and Allison, he was talking about me and Allison only. 

I rolled my eyes, “Perv.”

He screamed, “Kiss and make up! Kiss and make up!” 

Then everyone started chanting, and I figured they didn’t realize how annoying it really was. I was hurt because of Allison, and it felt as if none of them respected that!

What friends they were…

Then I felt my seat snap backwards, and soft lips were on mine, and I heard cheering coming from the guys truck. My eyes were closed but I knew exactly who the lips belonged to, and for a split second I didn’t want her to pull away. 

I had missed this to. 

She pulled away, screaming, “Happy?!” Then rolling up the window and looking at me, “Sorry, I had to do something to shut everyone up.”

I rolled my eyes, mumbling to myself, “Not because you actually wanted to.”

It was meant to be low and unheard, but I was guessing I needed to work on my whispering voice because I heard Allison respond.

“No, I wanted to.”

***

Kate groaned, “Ugh, I must’ve forgotten to fill up! I need gas.”

I looked at Kate, “I thought you filled up on the way to my house?”

She shrugged, dialing Nathan’s number, “I thought so to but I’m almost on Empty… we’ll have to stop a few miles ahead.”

I looked away, seeing the fast passing trees and hearing Kate on the phone, “Hey, I need gas… I forgot to fill up…”

I didn’t believe that… there was just no way we were almost out of gas, I glanced at the fuel meter before we left Zeke’s! The dial had read Full to the top! 

Where had all the gas gone in an hour?

The occurrence was weird, but maybe she did forget to fill up and it was all in my head. Although, I couldn’t shake the feeling that something just wasn’t right…

Kate mumbled, “Dammit, now we’ll definitely be late.”

I caught a glance at Allison in the backseat, she looked just as uneasy as I felt… and maybe I wasn’t the only one that thought something strange was going on. I didn’t know why of course, maybe it was just a feeling, because nothing else bad was happening. 

There was no car trouble, and as long as we didn’t get stranded on the side of the road I was fine. 

Then finally we pulled up to a gas station, Kate exiting the car, leaving me and Allison alone in the car. I glanced at Nathan’s truck and saw Lyle and Zeke exiting while Nathan made his way over to Kate. I unbuckled, and started getting out of the car, and immediately feeling bad for leaving Allison without an invite. 

Should I? 

Kate was right, holding a grudge over the weekend could be awkward… but I still wasn’t apologizing. 

I turned, “You comin?”

Her face lifted a little at my words, and it made the undying weight on my shoulders diminish a little bit. 

“Yea.”

We exited the vehicle and Kate and Nathan looked at us, Nathan smiled, “That was some kiss you gave back there.”

Allison smiled sheepishly and spoke, “It was just to shut you guys up.”

Then their figures disappeared and we made our way into the gas station, it wasn’t the best one, but it was the first one for miles, so this was the best we got. 

Might as well take a piss while I can. 

We would be there in maybe 45 minutes anyway…

I hadn’t realized Allison was still following me until I made it to the bathroom door, and I spoke uneasy, “Um…”

She smirked, “I need to pee to, but I’m not coming in there with you, so chill.”

I gave her a unreasonable look and disappeared behind the door, leaving Allison outside waiting for me. 

Which is what I was going to keep her doing this weekend.