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Anyways, has anybody heard of the song I Won't Say I'm In Love from the Disney movie Hercules? If so has anyone think about Malec while listening to that song? I sure have. Since we are on the topic of some tunes making you think about Malec comment down below a song that makes you think about Malec (War of Hearts is included 😁)
The songs that make me think of Malec is Born To Be Yours by Imagine Dragons and Crash and Burn by Savage Garden (soon you will see why I choose Crash and Burn)

Enjoy!
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5 times Alec Lightwood denies his love for Magnus Bane and one time he admits he's in love.

#1
Alec's POV
If there was a prize for rotten judgement... I guess I've already won that...

"How many times do I have to tell you Izzy I don't like Magnus. He wears too much make up, he wears weird clothing and he wears wayyyyy to much glitter" I yelled at my sister. Her and I were currently hunting down a demon when Izzy brought up my stay at Magnus's place after I apparently got drunk and passed out on his couch. Ever since I told Izzy I was gay she thinks every guy, especially Magnus is my boyfriend or something I mean i appreciate my sister's support but seriously though shut up Izzy I do not like Magnus Bane.
"Deny it all you want brother I can see it in your eyes you like Magnus...even Magnus himself can see it. It's okay Alec." She said smiling. I rolled my eyes and contiue to search for that demon.

No man is worth the aggravation...that's ancient history; been there done that.

#2
Who'd ya think your kiddin', he's the earth and heaven to you, try to keep it hidden, honey we can see it right through you (oh nooo)

Alec's POV
Magnus is currently at the institute helping us find a Warlock to wake up Clary's mom. I walked in with my "fiancee" Lydia. Magnus looked at the both of us and got jealous. Lydia felt uncomfortable and so did I, but Lydia looked at me her experssion was saying "just admit you like him Alec, we both know this wedding isn't going to happen." I looked away from her and focused my attention on Magnus. Lydia smiled at everyone.

I don't like Magnus. Izzy still had the look like "you like him dont deny it"
It's like my world is against me.

Boy, you can't conceal it. We know how you feel and, who you're thinking of.

#3
Alec's POV

Oooh, no chance, no way, I won't say it, no, no (you swoon, you sigh) (why deny it? Uh-oh)

I once caught myself staring at Magnus for more than a second. Okay find I admit it he is attractive but that doesn't mean I don't like him...cause I don't. My idea of a man is a strong guy, black hair with gorgeous brown eyes, gorgeous up sweep hair, flawess caramel skin, wears a little bit of make up but not too much- okay I want my dream guy to look like Magnus Bane but not to be Magnus Bane there's a difference.

Excuse me while I set up for my wedding, chase myself around and play hard to get. I will say it once and for all I don't like Magnus.

It's too cliché I won't say I'm in love.

#3
Alec's POV

(Ooo) I thought my heart had learned its lesson, it feels so good when you start out.

To be honest, I am scared of loving someone, the last time I fell in love with a man, he ended up kissing a girl in front of me. Yes I am talking about Jace. It's just...there is something about him I liked and I wanted him. He had these perfect lips that was begging to be kissed or his hair that looks so perfect you just want to run your fingers through it while whisper loving things in his ear. Izzy realized my feelings for Jace and knew I was gay but she wanted me to come out to her. Then there's that red-headed bitch that stole my man away. Magnus realized my feelings for my Parabatai and said it's okay, I needed time to process what I saw in that memory but Magnus made it so much worse by flirting with me and trying to get my drunk or in his bedroom...perhaps all of the above.

My head is screaming "get a grip boy! Unless you're dying to cry your heart out"

I remember fighting my parabatai, I remember feeling hopeless of being happy since my wedding was near. I knew I was making a mistake the moment I dropped to one knee in front of Lydia when I should've dropped to one knee to the man I love...that man is not Magnus no I do not like him.

He is a warlock and I'm a Shadowhunter.

(Ohhh..) You keep on denying, who you are and how you're feeling. Baby, we're not buying.

#4
Alec's POV (honestly, idk why i keep saying "Alec's POV" at each number but I can't seem to stop)

Hon, we saw you hit the ceiling. Face it like a grown-up. When you gonna own up that you got got got it bad

Tomorrow is officially my wedding, I wasa nervous wreck I am making a huge mistake.
"You're making a huge mistake" Izzy said helping me fix up my suit. Took the words right out of my mouth sis, I wanted to say that so bad but I couldn't form any words.
Izzy sighed. "Look Alec, if this whole wedding is happening because I keep trying to push you to be with Magnus, then I am so sorry"
"What? Izzy no it's not your fault, I choose to do this to restore the Lightwood name. None of this is your fault" I said to her.
"I just want what's best for you" she said.
"I know, and I thank you for that" I said and hugged her.
For some weird reason, my mind startrd to fill with Magnus.
"You will be alone you're entire life...neither of you deserves that...neither do I" he said to me when he said to me that I shouldn't marry Lydia.

Maybe he's right. Once I marry her I will live with regret and I will be alone. But I have to do this to make my parents proud.

No chance, no way, I won't say it no, no (give up, give in) (check the grin;  you're in love)

#5
Alec's POV

This scene won't play I won't say I'm in love (we'll do it until you admit you're in love)

Here she was, walking down the aisle in a stunny white dress. I was still nervous but still kept my cool. I helped her up, the Silent Brother began to talk.
(Skipping the talking scene cause truth is, it's not important)

I held my rest out as Lydia was about to draw the wedded rune. She gave me a look, she was hesitant but we about to proceed.
Then all of a sudden she abrutly stopped when we all heard the door open and walked in was....Magnus. Oh god what is he doing here.

You're way off base I won't say it.

"What's that warlock doing here?" My mom asked angerly.
"Magnus leave this wedding now-"
"Maryse this is between me and your son, I'll leave if he ask me to" he responded back shutting my mom up.
I stood there frozen looking at him, why am I frozen? Why am I looking at him? WHY COULDN'T I BREATH.

"You're gonna to be okay buddy?" Jace asked behind me.
I was still trying to catch my breath. "I can't breath" I said
"I can't do this"

Get off my case I won't say it

"Hey all I want for you is to be happy. I will be fine" Lydia said to me looking way to excited to get dumped. Poor girl dressed up for nothing.

(Boy, don't be proud!) (It's okay you're in love)

I stared at him once again. FUCK IT. I made my way down.
"Alec what are you doing?" My mom asked
"Enough" is what I said to her.
I grabbed Magnus's jacket and yanked him towards my lips.
I crashed my lips against his. It was nice, kinda sloppy but yet perfect. Our lips moved insync. I pulled away but Magnus wanted more, I gladly gave him more, I kissed him again. I like Magnus Bane but I don't love him.

At least out loud...I won't say I'm in love.

+1
Alec's POV

Oh god where is he? Where's Magnus. The Soul Sword went off and there was a bunch of dead Downworlder bodies everywhere.
"Where's Magnus? He wasn't here was he?" I asked freaking out.
Clary stood there shocked. Simon was holding onto her, I'm still surprise he's still alive, Izzy was in the state of shock. Jace shooked his head
"I don't know" he said.
"Oh god" I said and ran out of the institute. If he isn't outside waiting for me then that means he's....no he can't be.

Oh god please let him be okay. I looked around outside, my heart was still beating out of my chest. I was panting after running around trying to find Magnus. I didn't find a body...that means he could still be alive.

I felt someone grabbed my arm. I turned and saw Magnus, alive. I wrap my arms around him hugging him tightly. Thank the Angel, he's alive.
Magnus explained to me what happened. He and Madzie portaled to Catarina just in time.
Good at least Madzie is safe.
"Look...Magnus on every mission I've ever been on I've never felt that type of fear...ever. Not knowing  if you were alive or dead I....I was terrified" I said to Magnus.
"So was I" he said to me.
"Magnus I..." I took a deep breath trying to calm down "I love you" I spilled out. My heart was still racing.
Magnus looked shocked like he wasn't expecting that. Finally he spoke.

"I love you too"

Without hesitation I kissed him and he kissed back. I broke the kiss and hugged him tighter than before, not wanting to let him go.

I'd admit I'm in love with Magnus Bane.

-The End-
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