Happy September 28th. Larryversary <3 <3 <3 I'm kinda scared but also excited for today:) 

This chapter on this day was supposed to be a happy Larry chapter because of their day but it turned out to be one of the most saddest ones. So, sorry for that :/ 

Maybe a Trigger Warning, a small one, could be good here, even if I don't think it's necessary. But here you go you have been warned.  

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With a pale face and a racing heart, Louis stared at the person at his front door. His whole body had turned to shock and his throat was dry. "Kyle?" Louis breathed breathlessly.

"Well, you still know my name. Remember it so you can scream it later" he smirked evilly.

Louis wanted to slam the door in his face and hide in the basement forever, but he was frozen. His hand gripped the doorknob tightly. Kyle reared up in front of him and pushed him roughly back into the house, causing Louis painfully to let go of the door, slamming against the partition wall with his back, and Kyle closed the door behind them. Now Kyle was right in front of him, looking down at Louis. He's so much taller than Louis and incredibly intimidating.

"You're sure wondering why I'm here, you cunt" Kyle hissed. Louis didn't trust his voice. He was helpless and lost.

"I've seen your little videos on YouTube with this ridiculous band. People seem to like you for some reason, maybe just because you're new. That will subside. But when I saw you there, I remembered we still have an open issue that we should settle, don't you think?" Kyle came even closer to him. His voice was cold and grassy,​​ sending a chill down Louis' back.

"We have to finish something and this time without any interruptions. So, be glad that I'm spending so much time with you, you little pussy. You don't deserve that much attention. You're worthless. But for one day you could be good for something, even if only for a minute" Kyle scolded him.

In Louis, the panic rose. He felt his whole body tremble and his heart beat faster than ever. He knew exactly what Kyle wanted to do next and Louis couldn't help it. His body no longer obeyed him. It was as if he had fallen into one of his nightmares, only that this time it was reality and not an awakening as salvation. Kyle pushed him against the wall and pressed his whole body against him. Louis didn't dare look at him. His hand moved from Louis' side down to his hip until he grabbed his butt and grabbed him hard, making Louis squeal.

"How cute. You're really a little pussy, you worthless piece of shit" Kyle laughed amusingly through Louis' reaction.

Louis tried to ignore the words but in his head he heard the same words as someone else said. Harry. He had said it and now Kyle. Louis felt more worthless than ever before. Dirty and ashamed. He felt tears forming in his eyes and tried to hold them back, which was hard because Kyle was still gripping his ass. He was trapped in his own rigidity and this time there was no escape.

"What's going on here?" a voice came from their right out of the hallway. Louis knew that voice. He had been looking for him. Apparently he hadn't disappeared.

Immediately, Kyle released Louis' arse, took a step back, and looked at Harry. "We just talked and clarified some open issues. How rude of me, I'm Kyle" Kyle pretended politely. Harry just looked at him crookedly.

"And you know this little bitch? Are you a 'friend' ? Or are you forced to be here? I'm guessing the latter. Your appearance is screaming womanizer. Looking at you I guess the ladies are lying at your feet. But what do you want from the ugly faggot then? Oh, don't tell me you just wanna have some fun too? Quite my taste. He may not look like a lot but his ass isn't bad" taunted Kyle Louis and slapped his ass, causing Louis to flinch.

"I was actually here to have fun on my own, but I would share with you. What do you think of it, we both can do a lot of damage here" Kyle suggested cruelly to Harry to divide Louis against his will.

Louis could feel Harry's eyes on him, but he didn't dare to look up. Any new word from Kyle has completely shattered the pathetic remnants of Louis' self-esteem. That would be his chance to run away. Kyle was distracted, but his legs wouldn't obey him. He was rigid with fear. Fear of Kyle. Fear of what could happen and fear of Harry's answer. An irrational fear spread through him and he could already see in his head how Kyle and Harry joined forces and together they destroyed Louis' life and existence.

"What's your name, my friend?" Kyle asked curiously now as Harry still didn't say anything.

"I'm Harry and I'm his boyfriend" Harry introduced himself and made himself big. At the word Boyfriend Louis looked up and confusion was written in his face. What? Did he just say that? Louis had expected everything but not that. His psyche was a miserable wreck without reset button.

"What? You can't be serious. You're also one of those disgusting fags and then of all the perversions you choose him? Look at him, you let yourself be kissed by that ugly worthless little dwarf? I'm going to be sick. Does he at least let you in? He is probably a grenade in bed and to fuck him senseless makes you briefly forget the rest that you have to endure. My condolences. But the offer is still there. Once you could share him with me. That'll give you a kick. I imagine that it must be very dull normally, right you piece of shit?" Kyle still didn't stop.

"If I were you, I'd think twice about saying something bad about my boyfriend in my presence again! What's wrong with you? If I were you, I'd go and never come back" Harry told him sourly.

Kyle's eyes widened and he looked disgusted and annoyed from Harry to Louis. "You got yourself a great protector there, did you? Hopefully, you revise yourself decently. It must be a blessing to fuck you if he doesn't want to leave you to me".

"Get out of here, now!" Harry ordered, glaring maliciously.

Visibly pissed off and annoyed by Harry's resistance, Kyle sighed loudly. He ran his finger over Louis' cheek again and down his neck and over his chest until he was over his waistband, which gave Louis unpleasant goose bumps. One last time Kyle hit him hard on the arse and then turned away. "That's not over" he whispered menacingly and then Harry grabbed his arm and dragged him to the door.

"You're missing a unique opportunity" Kyle told Harry before he slammed the door in his face and locked it.

When Harry turned around, Louis wasn't there any more. He went down the step and found Louis sitting huddled on the sofa with his legs pulled to his chest and his head buried in his arms. He could see from his point that Louis was sobbing softly. Carefully he came closer and sat down next to him. Immediately, Louis stopped crying and froze.

"Louis?" Harry said quietly, wanting to put his hand on Louis' back, but Louis flinched and slid sideways. He couldn't help it, especially not now, but of course Harry didn't know that, and Louis knew that too. He hated himself so much right now.

"Louis, talk to me. I thought we were over this. Who was that and how did you know him? What was that all about?" Harry tried to understand all this.

Louis was still paralyzed. The events hadn't helped his soul and psyche. "T-Th-a-t  w- was K- K-  Kyle" stuttered Louis, but then his voice broke.

"I know, he introduced himself. How did you know him, what did he want, why did he treat you like that, what did you do?" Harry asked endless questions and Louis didn't have the time to work it all out.

"Nothing. I ... he ..." stammered Louis but couldn't bring out a whole sentence.

"Louis, with words that we all understand" Harry was frustrated.

"He's from the US, we were at the same school, he's an idiot, that's all" Louis managed to say four short sentences before reality caught up with him. Kyle was here and he planned to finish it. This time right. His nightmare had come true.

"That looked like more to me. Come on Louis, this isn't a movie, just tell me. No one needs that tension" Harry urged him impatiently.

That was when Louis remembered why Harry didn't know. He just wouldn't understand. He wasn't ready yet and Louis couldn't tell him. Not now. No way. This impatience and the lack of understanding and the presumption that Louis did anything were enough reasons not to trust him. Louis just wanted to disappear.

"That's all, some people are inexplicable as they are" said Louis.

"Do you mean me? Unbelievable. I'm telling this stranger I'm your boyfriend, risking everything and for what? Now, talk to me" Harry ordered stupidly, causing Louis to flinch even more.

"I didn't mean it like that and no one asked you to do it. I want to be alone" Louis told him, pulling himself even closer until he was a small ball in the corner of the sofa.

"Louis what .... well if you really want that, then I'll go. Have fun with your secrets" spat Harry insulted.

Louis just whimpered softly and let the tears run wild. His life seemed so useless and he felt dirty and completely worthless. Every spot where Kyle had touched him burned like fire and burned more invisible scars in Louis' heart. The pain was unbearable.

"Zayn" cried Louis quietly and wished he was here with him now to be there for him. He was the only one who could help him now.

Zayn sat in his room and went through everything important for the performance again. He was pretty nervous and didn't know why. His clothes were already ready and Louis had written to him this morning that he can perform. Everything was perfect.

"Darling, do you still need something for tonight?" his mother asked as she came in.

"No, I have everything. I'm a bit nervous, but that'll be fine" Zayn replied.

"I'm so sorry I can't be there, but I'll be there next week" she apologized sadly.

"This isn't a problem Mom, really. The business lunch is important to you. Of course you have to go there" he assured her that everything's alright.

"Nevertheless, I feel bad".

"You don't have to" he smiled at her.

"Alright, we'll go now, it takes some time to get there" she said goodbye.

"See you tomorrow" he called after her.

Zayn didn't know why, but he suddenly felt the need to pack his clothes for later and make sure he could start right away. He had a bad feeling in his stomach and wondered what that meant. When he had just packed everything his cell phone rang. He picked it up and saw Harry's name. He hesitated for a moment then he answered. "Hi Harry, what's up?".

Zayn winced when Harry started to talk and heard the frustration in his voice. What was the problem? "Harry, again please. I can't understand a word".

"Louis is driving me crazy. I thought that was over. There was a guy at the door who was literally hovering over Louis when I got in. Louis was leaning against the wall, saying nothing. He said mean things about him and something about an open issue and whether or not I want to join in. Zayn, what does all this mean? Louis doesn't want to talk to me, he just sits huddled on the sofa for no reason. I don't get this drama. He's crying and said your name. Maybe you know how to bring him to his senses and behave normally again. I'm frustrated" Harry told him at the other end of the line.

Zayn stood frozen in his room, letting the words sink in on him. Not only was Harry an incomprehensible idiot but Louis had just gone through his worst nightmare and only Harry was there. Nobody who knew what he was going through was with him. A mixture of different emotions bubbled in Zayn. Anger, hatred, compassion, pity, sorrow, sadness, disgust.

Without answering, Zayn grabbed his things, stumbled down the stairs and put  on his shoes. "Zayn, what's going on? What's that all about?" Harry asked aimlessly. 

"I'm on my way. I'm running to you. Don't let Louis out of your sight but don't talk to him. Do you understand? I'll be right there" Zayn ordered almost screaming as he ran out the front door.

"What? Why should I ..." Harry asked Zayn but he ended the call. Now wasn't the time for stupid explanations and excuses. His best friend needed him more than ever. At the race Zayn opened the group chat and quickly typed in a message.

From Zaddy @Fishy Freaks:

"S.O.S, HE was with Louis, HE's here. Get your weapons ready, we're going on a death train. I'm on my way to Louis. See you at the soundcheck."

Before he could figure out if it was smart to write that into the group chat, he got an answer.

From Nialler:

"WHAAAAAT??? How can that be? I'll kill him. Should I come too? Does Louis need something?"

From Zaddy:

"A fucking bodyguard, but no. I'll fix it. Just um ... Harry is there."

From Nialler:

"Oh no, does he know? What did he do?"

From Zaddy:

"Louis didn't say anything as far as I know. Harry called me annoyed and frustrated, this idiot".

From Nialler:

"Maybe better. Now it's all about Louis, I'll forge the murder plan"

From Zaddy:

"Do that and make it painful. See you later". 

Read by Harry at 11.28.

With the last few letters Zayn arrived at Louis' and abused the bell until Harry finally opened. Instead of greeting him, he ran past him into the living room where Louis was still sitting on the couch like a pile of misery. He sat down next to him carefully and didn't move. He knew that now he had to be careful not to make it worse. Apparently Louis had noticed his presence because only a second later, Louis was in Zayn's arms and began to sob. It was heartbreaking.

"Shh, all will be fine. I'm here now" Zayn reassured him and gently stroked his back. The crying became a little less and Louis' breathing calmed down a bit. He still didn't look up. He had buried his face in Zayn's chest. Zayn felt Harry stand behind them, looking at them in confusion.

"Did you already eat something?" Zayn asked, Louis shook his head.

"Harry, could you make something to eat?" Zayn turned his head slightly to him and looked into a questioning face.

"Why not, I had already started" Harry shrugged and went into the kitchen. That was the perfect distraction.

In that state, Zayn couldn't let Louis deal with himself, so with one arm he reached under his legs and with the other he propped his back up and lifted him up. Louis made no move to fight back. Zayn carried him bridal-style up the stairs to his room, ignoring Harry's puzzled look on the way. An explanation for him they could search later. Now it was time to help Louis. Zayn gently laid him down on his bed and then hugged him protectively. He said nothing for a while but gave Louis the time he needed.

"Why Zayn? Why me, why now, why again, how did he find me? I deserve it" wailed Louis in Zayn's shirt.

"Don't say that. You don't deserve it, nobody does. You can't help it" Zayn said solemnly.

"It's my destiny, it'll happen until there's no one else in it to save me" Louis said wryly.

"That's not true, do you hear me? This guy's a sick bastard, he belongs behind bars" Zayn snorted sourly. His lust for murder grew more and more.

"I'm so ashamed. I didn't do anything. I just stood there stunned and frozen. If Harry hadn't been there..." Louis trailed off.

"Louis, it's not your fault. You didn't deserve this. This time I'll make him pay".

"No, Zayn, it's not worth it. We can't do anything, it's like it is. I have to live with that" Louis said sadly.

"But we have to do something, he can't get away with it, that's terrible" Zayn said, horrified.

"I wouldn't stand it mentally. I just need you, that's enough" Louis confessed sheepishly.

"Oh Louis" Zayn sighed, hugging him closer.

At that moment, Harry came in with the late breakfast. When he saw the two of them, he frowned, but said nothing for which Zayn was very grateful. He turned off the food and turned back. "I'll  go then".

"No, Harry, you don't need to. It's all right" Louis told Harry to Zayn's astonishment.

"Sure? It looked different a sec ago" Harry wondered.

"Sure. I overreacted. I'm sorry, it's all good or Zayn?".

"Um, of course" Zayn cleared his throat.

"Okay, so we should go to the soundcheck soon. Niall and Liam will be there before us" Harry changed the subject but Zayn didn't listen at all.

He watched Louis stare at the food as if it was attacking him every second. He didn't really eat, but Harry didn't seem to notice. Zayn nudged Louis and pointed to the food. He nodded slightly and then nipped at the food tentatively. Zayn sighed but that was better than nothing. When he looked at Louis, he was terribly worried about him. He was so frightened that he could do something to himself. Once was bad enough, but a second time it would completely destroy the psyche. He was looking for a way to show Louis that he didn't deserve this or it wasn't his fault and he was always there for him. Zayn had read a lot about the mental effects when Louis had told them back then. Fear of contact, trust problems, self-loathing and self-punishment. Zayn couldn't just watch Louis break more and more, he had to do something. But what?

After about ten minutes, Louis and Harry started to get ready for the soundcheck. On the way, Zayn didn't leave Louis' side, Harry walked beside him aimlessly. When they entered the JuiceNet and went backstage Niall came running to them and pulled Louis directly into his arms. He didn't flinch but wrapped his arms around Niall as well. "Oh, God Louis, how are you, are you alright?"

"All good Niall, he's gone" whispered Louis in the back of his neck. Before Niall could speak, Zayn glanced at him and pointed to Harry. Niall understood immediately and was silent.

Four of them did the soundcheck because Liam just didn't show up. Will was talking to Niall about the final details as Louis suddenly inhaled sharply and turned pale in the face. "Louis what's up?"Zayn asked worriedly.

"K- Kyle, he's-s here" Louis stammered in panic.

Zayn turned around and saw a tall blond guy enter the cafe. He looked very arrogant and radiated bad energy. Zayn still didn't know what Kyle looked like until this point, he even heard the name for the first time today.

"I can't perform, not when he's there" Louis said hastily.

"Louis calm down, take a deep breath in. Look at me, we're still there too, nothing can happen to you, let him suffer" Zayn put his hands on Louis' shoulders and looked deep into his eyes.

"I can't do that".

"What can't you do?" Harry added but nobody answered him.

"Wait, isn't that this guy?" Harry saw Kyle in the crowd and apparently a light went on in his head.

"It's going to be okay" Zayn assured him.

"What's wrong? Is he here, may I kill him now?" Niall asked as he stared at Louis' pale face.

"Niall, nobody is killed here" Louis rolled his eyes.

"Why would you want to kill him?" Harry didn't understand.

"Louis, let's go backstage" Zayn suggested, and Louis immediately went with him, followed by Niall. Harry decided it wasn't worth it and went to a couple of girls waiting for the gig.

In the rest of the time, three hours, Louis recounted every detail of the morning to Zayn and Niall. Every feeling. And they listened and tried to tell him that he wasn't to blame. Both were worried about Louis and feared that the performance could go terribly wrong. Liam still hadn't turned up and Harry was spending his time with the girls. With one he disappeared for a short time. Zayn asked no further questions. That was his business.

Five minutes before the gig, Liam ran into the cafe and quickly got ready. "Sorry, I spent extra hours in the lab, forgetting the time" he gasped. 

"You're here now" Harry said.

"Guys, there is a small change. We sing Midnight Memories instead of Moments" Zayn told them.

"What? Why?" It's so sudden!" exclaimed Liam.

"It's better this way" Niall said, looking anxiously at Louis, who was standing beside them absently.

"Did I miss something?" Liam asked.

"If you looked at your phone from time to time, you would know that" Zayn snapped at him.

"Woah Zayn, calm down. No one died, it's all good. Nothing happened" Harry intervened.

"Just amazing" Zayn muttered, leaving Harry and Liam standing there. He saw Kyle look over at them and stood so that he couldn't see Louis.

"Hey Harry, are you hiding your little sex god from me?" Kyle called over to Harry. Zayn wanted to jump over and knock Kyle off his head, but he had promised Louis to do nothing illegal.

"Sex God?" Liam looked at them in confusion.

"Don't ask" Harry sighed.

"Oh wow, Harry, how sensitive of you. You started this lie, would be nice if you thought about something that doesn't cause Louis any more trouble" Zayn snapped.

"What do you mean?" Harry looked at him crookedly.

"You told this arsehole that you're together. God knows why. If you go out there and ignore Louis or whatever and that ass straps that it was a lie, what could have serious consequences, then I swear, you will not be able to walk or sit for one week straight" Zayn threatened to piss him off.

"Shall I play his boyfriend in front of all the people? They ship Larry anyway. I don't need that bullshit".

"Selfish as ever. Why am I even trying?" Zayn sighed and walked over to Louis, who looked deathly pale. Zayn hugged him to calm him down and fixed his gaze on Kyle. He had another chicken to pick with him. Should he just enjoy the show, after it it was over with funny Zayn.

During the performance, Louis caught Kyle's gaze every few second. With every movement, every note. He tried to focus his attention on Zayn and Niall, who shot Kyle murder glances again and again. They started the show with Why Don't We Go There followed by Midnight Memories. Both songs let Louis relax a bit, but only a bit. Louis also noticed how Harry sought his closeness and looked at him again and again, but he looked very forced and rather annoyed. Then it occurred to him that Harry had introduced himself as his boyfriend to Kyle, and he probably tried to keep this lie alive while Kyle was there. No matter how grateful he was to him, it saddened him how tormented Harry looked as if it was the worst thing in the world. He did so reluctantly. Louis really thought they would build a good friendship, but then it wouldn't be so hard and bad to be tender or affectionate and show interest or pretend. You'd better believe that Niall or Zayn were his boyfriend or that they want to or have to keep it from the world. Who does something like that?

While Don't Forget Where You Belong Louis focused only on Zayn, but out of  the corner of his eye he saw Eleanor, Sophia and Danielle also sitting in the audience. It was good to know that their friends supported them. Michael, Callum, Luke and Ashton as well as Ed, James, Steve, Hailee and Camila were there too. That warmed his heart.

When Zayn and Louis sang their part, some of the girls began calling Zouis, whereupon Niall started clapping and Zayn and Louis grinned widely. But after that Louis felt Harry even closer to him and realized how he was stared. From Harry, but also from Kyle, who eyed the action with angry glancing eyes, because his plan had failed.

They ended the performance with Best Song Ever, whose text at the time everyone knew, and said goodbye for the evening. Will came to them afterwards and raved about how good everything had gone. Louis' attention wandered to his mother in the audience, who was surrounded by his sisters. He hoped she hadn't been seen his condition on stage. His soul felt scarred and every spot touched by Kyle felt like his fingerprints were branded as an eternally agonizing reminder of his failure. He had to leave.

Will went on stage and announced a new attraction in the cafe. "You know, the guys are going to sing for you every week now, but the fun goes on. After them there'll always be the opportunity for each of you to come on stage and sing something - I call it the Open Music Night. So who wants to be the first? ".

People clapped and cheered about the new change that seemed to please everyone. Ed stood up, took the guitar and started to play a song. Louis saw his mother beckoning to tell him that they were leaving now that it was too late for the twins. He nodded to her and watched as they left the cafe. 

"Louis, are you alright? Do you want to go home?" Zayn asked sympathetically.

"I think so, maybe it would be better" mumbled Louis.

"Good, I'll go with you" he told him.

"Me too. I will not leave you alone again" Niall hung up on them.

"Guys, we still have to clean up and then dismantle everything" Liam held them back.

"Since you were neither at the sound check nor build you can do it alone" Zayn turned to his best friend.

"All alone?" Liam exclaimed.

"Zayn, that's not fair. That's really a lot" agreed Harry with Liam.

"I don't need your help" Liam snorted.

"If you find that so unfair, you can help him. I'll take Louis home for my part and Niall will come along" Zayn announced.

"What? Why?" wondered Harry.

"Just because!" Zayn replied shortly, then led Louis outside before anyone could ask.

They fell silent over the path home and enjoyed the cool evening air and the sparkling stars in the sky. When they arrived at Louis', he turned to Zayn and Niall. "Thank you for everything, you two are the best" Louis thanked him.

"Not for that, that's self-evident".

"What are friends for?!" Niall agreed with Zayn.

"You two are more than just friends. You are my brothers, my family" Louis smiled at them and then they hugged each other.

"Are you good alone or should we come in?" Niall checked.

"I want to be alone. I need that now. Don't worry. I'm fine" Louis assured them few believable because it was a lie. He wasn't feeling well.

"You're not feeling well, but sleep can't hurt. Write to me tomorrow, will you?".

"Sure Zayn, until then" Louis said goodbye and disappeared into the house. As Niall and Zayn went back, Louis crept quietly into his room, threw himself on the bed and sobbed quietly to himself. He had to let it out or it would eat him up.

Niall and Zayn went back to the cafe, lost in thought, and saw Liam starting to take things down. Many guests had already left but Kyle was still sitting watching Harry amused. Zayn had promised Louis not to kill Kyle, but that didn't mean he couldn't speak to him. Niall seemed to have the same idea and together they approached Kyle.

"Look what we have here. Two of the Bitch's little friends. What do yo uwant?" Kyle rolled his eyes as he noticed the two.

"We want you to leave our friend alone. Don't you dare come too close to him or you'll regret it"  Zayn came straight to the point.

"And what do you two want to do about it? Sing me to death?" he only mocked them.

"Don't underestimate us. That's was the mistake of other people. We know no limits when it comes to our friends" Niall was intimidating.

"Shouldn't his boyfriend threaten me and not you two clowns?" Kyle questioned the matter.

"Be glad it's not Harry. I wouldn't mess with him in this city. The city is basically his" Zayn told him.

"One more reason why I don't understand what he wants from the pussy. He's supposed to be gay? Not believable" Kyle stood up now.

"He has a name, you bastard" Zayn snarled at him.

"LO--UIIIIS. Sounds like a girl, he probably fucks like a girl, but only one of you knows that" Kyle mocked the boys and Louis.

"Say that again and you'll wish to have never been born" snapped Zayn.

"Sure you're not his little boyfriend? Harry doesn't seem to care, but you do" Kyle eyed Zayn pejoratively.

"We know everything, and if I were you, I'd disappear, and best today. We promised Louis to do nothing to you, but some promises are broken" Niall said firmly to Kyle.

"What's going on here?" Harry came to them questioningly.

"Oh, we just talk, right, you bastards?" Kyle laughed nastily.

"Just make sure you leave. I don't have a problem with going to jail for assault if I protected my friends for it. What about you? Maybe you want to get a foretaste of your future?" Zayn was fed up.

"Are you threatening me?" Kyle glared at him.

"You don't deserve anything else" Zayn replied coolly.

"Leave and never come back. Breathe again in his presence and you'll never see the sun again" Niall threatened to piss him off now.

There was a loud bang behind them, and as they turned, they saw Liam standing in front of a wooden box he had seemingly thrown to the ground. The box was completely shattered and Liam was breathing hard. Somebody probably had aggression problems. Kyle's face went pale at the sight and he swallowed hard. "You won't always be there" Kyle tried to sound convincing.

"Come on, get out!" Niall finally threw him out and exhaled more relieved when he was gone.

"Did I miss anything? What was that? Did you threaten him with violence? Are you insane?" Harry asked with his hands on his hips.

"Insane? We? Not at all. He deserved it. Actually even more than that. He can be lucky that he is still free" Zayn said stunned.

"Free? What are you talking about?" Harry didn't understand a word.

"You're really asking this? You were there this morning and you saw it. Didn't you understand what happened there?" Niall asked horrified.

"Should I? Louis said everything is alright" Harry replied flatly.

"And you believe him?".

"Leave it Niall. If he doesn't get it himself he shouldn't know it. That's better" Zayn retorted before Niall could say too much. Harry had already seen and heard too much anyway.

"That sounds so reproachful again. I thought you wouldn't expect anything from me" Harry said insulted.

"We don't. Don't worry. We expect nothing" Zayn clarified.

"Except maybe some sense and empathy, but that's probably not human any more" Niall added, getting quieter with every word.

"Hey guys, where is Louis?" Eleanor came to them from behind.

"At home. Are you still here?" answered Niall.

"Yes, the girls and I helped Cami and wanted to say goodbye to you" she explained.

"Ah okay, did you like it?" Niall asked.

"Yes. You were great, but Louis looked downcast - he looked intimidated and scared, but not because of the gig - is everything all right?" Eleanor was worried.

"At the moment, but you should call him tomorrow" Zayn advised her. She understood immediately.

"That's so damn confusing" Harry sighed and Zayn rolled his eyes.

"It's all done, we can go. Where is Louis? Did I miss something?" Liam asked when he came to his friends.

"Incredible" Zayn sighed and left the cafe without any comment with Niall and Eleanor and the girls. Too many stupid questions for a day full of grief and sadness.

Louis spent the entire Sunday in his room isolated from the outside world. His mother had asked him if he wanted to go to the park but he refused. His phone vibrated countless times but he simply threw it away. He didn't want to hear anything, see nothing, feel nothing. In his pain and frustration, he surprisingly wrote two songs. Inspiration came whenever he didn't expect it. At the one text he was working at the moment and wrote the last words. That sounded all too positive for that he was so miserable. Pure irony.

I'm like a crow on a wire
You're the shining distraction that makes me fly
Oh home
I'm like a boat on the water
You're the rays on the waves that calm my mind

Oh every time
But I know in my heart you're not a constant star
And yeah I let you use me from the day that we first met
But I'm not done yet
Falling for you fool's gold

And I knew that you turned it on for everyone you've met
But I don't regret
falling for you, fool's gold
I'm the first to admit that I'm reckless
I get lost in your beauty and

I can't see two feet in front of me
And I know in my heart you're just a moving part
And yeah I let you use me from the day that we first met
But I'm not done yet
Falling for you, fool's gold

And I knew that you turned it on for everyone you met
But I don't regret
falling for you, fool's gold
Yeah I know your loves not real
That's not the way it feels

That's not the way you feel
And yes I let you use me from the day that we first met
ButI 'm not done yet
Falling for you, fool's gold
And I knew that you turned it on for everyone you met
But I don't regret
falling for you, fool's gold

Sighing, he lay down on the bed and stared at the ceiling. Unconsciously he stroked and rubbed his wrist and the faded scars. As if in a trance he shuffled into the bathroom and locked the door. He leaned against the sink and looked in the mirror. His face was sunken and his eyes were dull. He had reached another low point and was angry with himself. Angry because he had allowed it. Angry because he wasn't strong enough to continue as normal. Angry because he was sinking into self-pity and angry because he realized he was pathetic and worthless just as Kyle had said. He grabbed the familiar silver blade and held it for a while. His thumb stroked the metal. His hands were shaking and he felt the pulse throbbing in his veins. But instead of buckling and doing it again, he stayed strong and threw the blade away. Tears ran down his face and he sank to the ground. He almost did it again and all his strength would have been in vain. He would have failed, but he didn't. But only this brief moment of weakness shamed Louis very much. He felt useless and pathetic.

He padded back to his room and threw himself on the bed. Again his phone vibrated, but this time he took it and was killed by countless messages. He sighed and read them all.

From Zaynie: 

"How are you today? Could you sleep?"

From Nialler:

"Louis, how are you? All right?"

From Zaddy @Fishy Freaks:  

"Do you want to come over or should I come over? We could talk or watch a movie".

From Nialler @Fishy Freaks: 

"Feel like football?".

From Zaddy:

"Louis?".

From Zaddy:

"Louis, say something, give a sign of life from you".

From Nialler:

"I'm worried because you don't answer. Is everything good?"

From Zaddy:

"Louis????".

From Zaddy:

"????".

From Zaddy:

"Say Something!!".

From Nialler:

"We'll calm down, but please get in touch".

From Big Payno:

"Louis, for god's sake, answer them immediately, my cell phone is exploding with all this texts".

From Zaddy:

"Wow, you're still there". 

From Big Payno:

"What is that suppose to mean?".

From Zaddy:

"Do you have any idea what's going on?".

From Big Payno:

"Should I?".

From Nialler:

"What is going on with you?".

From Big Payno:

"I don't have time for this crap, I have to do something for Dr. T and then Lauren is waiting for me".

From Zaddy:

"Then go".

From Harry:

"Louis, are you there?"

From El to Louis:

"Louis, how are you? You were great yesterday, but you looked worried. What happened? Zayn said I should ask you".

From Zaddy:

"Louis, if you don't answer right away I'll stand in front of your door in three minutes".

From Nialler:

"Me in ten".

From Tommo:

"Calm Down. I'm fine. I was just busy and didn't have my phone with me, no need to worry"

From Nialler:

"You live!!!!".

From Zaddy:

"Do you need anything?".

From Tommo:

"No, all good, see you tomorrow".

From Tommo to El:

"I was with my thoughts somewhere else, should occur. I'm fine".

Gradually, Louis didn't feel like telling anyone he was fine. They should stop asking every three seconds, but the care of his friends made him happy. He was really important to them. Louis knew that for sure.

Just when he wanted to put the phone away, a new message came in. Harry's name appeared on the screen but not in group chat. Louis didn't know how to deal with Harry now after yesterday. He couldn't tell him, but Harry didn't really want to know it anyway. He had understood that yesterday. This made him sad and happy at the same time. Harry's lack of interest should be a good thing because he wouldn't be able to tell him, but it also kinda hurt him. 

From Hazza :) to Lou:

"Hey Lou, I see you're fine. I wanted to apologize in case I said something wrong yesterday. Zayn seemed to be so angry and Niall too and then they threatened that Kyle and I don't understand the world any more, but you're all right?"

From Lou to Hazza :) :

"Yeah, I'm all right. You didn't do anything wrong. A lot of drama about nothing".

Louis was overwhelmed. Zayn and Niall had threatened Kyle. For him. The love of his friends was indescribable. Suddenly it rang downstairs. He hesitated a second for what had happened last time, but then he went down. Timidly he opened the door, but there was no one there. He looked left and right but no one was to be seen.

As he was about to close the door, he noticed a note on the door. He took it off and closed the door. In a familiar handwriting his name was written on it. He opened it trembling and read the written words. Every word struck him in the heart and in the soul. He crumpled up that piece of paper, felt the tears running down his face, and ran to his room. He threw the note in the corner and cried himself to sleep, swarming with terrible nightmares.

"Enjoy it for as long as you can. They'll leave you someday because you're a weird freak, you nasty bitch. He'll realize you're worthless sooner or later, fuck you half dead and then just go when you have done your good. More you aren't worth, you little miserable pussy. Remember my words, you fag. Better end yourself right away, bitch".

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Do you hate Kyle as much as I do? It was so hard writing this...:/

What will happen next? 

Will this have effects on Louis now?

Still wondering what's up with Liam? 

Is Harry not ready for the truth? 

Please comment what you think :)

Happy Larry Day you all <3