POV Phil

We just spent hours sitting on the blanket near the lake cuddling our sides together. After some time, I laid myself down. My head was laying in the grass because the blanket was too short. But that didn't really matter, I liked the softness of the grass, I liked the nature around me. I closed my eyes and just started breathing in the air around me. I don't know why or how but it made me feel safe, it made me feel complete, especially with Nathan here.

Then suddenly something was laying down on my stomach. I reopened my eyes and glanced down. To my surprise it wasn't Nathan, who I was half expecting to be it. He had laid himself down beside me and was also glancing on the thing on my stomach.

"That rabbit really likes you." Nathan whispered a little sleepy.

"Aren't they shy normally?" All the answer I got was a shrug, followed by "This one? apparently not"

I looked closer at the small creature laying there. It looked like it wanted to sleep. Its ears pulled down, its whole body seemed relaxed, just as relaxed as mine was. I didn't think about it, I just moved my hand to pet it. It shortly flinched before relaxing completely again. I half expected it then to run away, half expected it to show a fearful look but no, just a short flinch.

I grabbed it and placed it higher up, nearer to my face. It opened its eyes, looked at me and got back to sleep. I pet it for some time before closing my eyes again and drifting off to sleep.

POV Nathan

                (A/N: Sorry, I don't normally switch mid chapter)

My gaze followed what Phil was doing for quite some time, before I lifted it towards the sky. The sun was starting to set. Then I heard a slight snoring coming from beside me. His cute little snoring... So he fell asleep?

I cuddled to his side, watching him. Yes, he fell asleep and yes, I know I sound creepy but I couldn't stop looking at him. He was so relaxed, all of his motions were so in harmony for once. Normally he seemed to always fight something, hold something back, that was throwing off his motions. Don't get me wrong it wasn't bad that he was like that but happiness always starts to spread through me body when he looked like he was in harmony.

He turned his body to the side, making the rabbit fall between us. It cuddled itself in Phil's arms and dozed off again as well. I let them sleep for another half an hour before turning my gaze to the sky again. A small sight exited my lips.

I sat up and shook Phil awake. "Come on sleepyhead, it's getting late, we have to go home." He also sat up but cuddled to my side.

"I don't want to." I sighted again. "Come on." To my surprise he reopened his eyes, locked them with mine and placed his lips on mine. I was too shocked to do anything at first, but than I closed my eyes liked he had already done and asked for entrance, which he granted. My tongue slipped into his mouth, playing with his.

After a few seconds of eternity, he broke the kiss, whispered "Thank you for today." And fell asleep again. So I'll have to carry him, don't I? I can't stay here with him; dad would be pissed. I don't want to make him worry.

So carrying it is. I can't make him walk and he's just so cute when he sleeps. I rolled him from the blanket and packed up all the stuff we brought. I grabbed the backpack, in which I had packed everything and placed it on Phil's back. Somehow I managed to lift Phil onto my back and somehow he still managed to sleep.

Thank god the car wasn't far because even though he wasn't very heavy, his weight was getting hard to hold up after a few minutes. I was gazing at the nature around me like Phil had done before but I couldn't feel the same excitement he had. Maybe because I saw this every other day?

When I came to the car I laid Phil down in the passenger seat, threw the bag onto the backseats and got in the drivers' side before driving off.

The sun had already set when we arrived at home. Let's hope my dad wouldn't be pissed. Normally he would be, I didn't leave any indications were we went and then we're back this late.

As silent as I could be with Phil on my back, I sneaked into the house. Slowly I went the stairs up towards my room and....

"Where have you been?" I heard my father say from the end of the hallway. 'fuck' was everything that shot through my head. "Next time: Tell me where you're going and when you'll be back."

"Ok, dad" Well, that was surprisingly easy.

With a sight I entered my room, happy that he let me off this easily, or should I say us? After all I was still carrying Phil. At least until now, I laid him down onto the bed and left the room to us the bathroom and get changed.

A few minutes later, after I was done, I re-entered the room. I saw his body shivering on the mattress and stormed over to him as quick as I could without thinking about it. I just realised it when I wanted to check what was wrong and he laid his arms around my waist, murmured "Mine" and pulled me onto the bed. A slight blush crept onto my cheeks. But good enough his shivering had stopped completely, so I made myself comfortable and cuddled to his side.

I found it especially hard to fall asleep now. I was getting hugged by the boy I loved, I was cuddling with his sleeping figure and after all I felt very comfortable. But there was something that hindered me to fall asleep, something that was in my mind from the moment it happened.

He kissed me. First he thanked me and then he kissed me. I didn't think he'd do that. I was so unprepared. What if he just wanted to find out if I liked boys? What if I was so unprepared he didn't like me anymore? What if he had the feeling I didn't like him? What if I've just ruined everything?

A nearly loud less sob left my lips. My tears where staining his shirt. What have I done? He hates me!

"Shh, it's alright." I heard him whisper. He pulled his shirt over his head and threw it into a corner. "Let's just sleep, we'll talk about it tomorrow."

His voice sounded broken, fear was clearly hearable but I let it go. It stopped my sobbing. He turned away from me, so his back was facing me, I did the same. So he really didn't like me, huh?
Now that it was clear I could fall asleep. It wasn't a good sleep but at least I slept.