Phils POV

We were driving again. We, as in Nathan and me and again, as in driving back to the forest again. Apparently Nathan saw how much I liked 'our clearing'(as he was now referring to it) last time and wanted to bring me back here. I didn't know why but I was excited.

And although I was excited, and although I liked spending time with him, there was something I couldn't get out of my head. Just one little question, one thought leading to a million else. 'What is going to happen?'

It's not that I was uncertain about his feelings for me, or the other way around as a matter of fact, I was uncertain if he would show it in public. Tomorrow was Monday, which means? Guessed it: School.

I know he loves me, I know how much I'm worth to him, but I didn't know if he was ready to show what he was feeling. Sure, I wasn't out either but I wasn't exactly sure of my sexuality before. Now that I am, I have no intention of hiding it.

If Nathan wanted me to keep quiet, would I do that? Ok scrap that, would I want to do it? I'd do it for sure, he's helped me so much, he just kept my mind off of things. I don't have to mention the fact that I love him right? But would I want to do it? I don't know.

"What are you thinking about, Phil?" He asked, which pulled me back to reality. Should I tell him? "You've been starring out of the window for two minutes, while we're standing." He added. A slight blush started to spread on my face.

"I ugh... it was nothing." I replied with a pout.

"Come on then." Was all he said before leaving the car.

When I didn't budge to move he came over to my side. It wasn't like I didn't want to go but I was still lost in thought. Somehow I developed a feeling of just needing to stand still and let the situation fix itself.

But Nathan pulled me out of the car and closed the door shut behind me. "Are you sure that everything is alright?" he asked looking deep into my eyes. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. So I closed it and retried, still no success.

Feeling overwhelmed, like something was pushing me to the edge of clear thinking, I stumbled a few feet forward; Right into Nathans arms. And I knew it was because of him that I felt this way but something about the way he grabbed me and dragged me into a close hug made me feel safe. It made me back away from the edge and got me into thinking clear again.

"Do you want me to carry you?" he asked concerned with his face muffled into my neck. I just nodded as simple response. So he turned around and helped me onto his back. Somehow I had a feeling we had done this before but I couldn't remember when.

So I just let it slip. Instead I wrapped my arms around his neck and cuddled more onto him. "You wanna carry me more often?" I hummed into him. He just chuckled as a response. That was not the response I wanted him to give! A slight pout started to form on my face.

It's not that he didn't say "yes", it's that he didn't give an answer at all! I don't even know if I can get my hopes up to get carried by him more often...

"Stop pouting." He chuckled. I tried to refuse but he started peck some kisses on my cheek. That made smile. I totally forgot what I was thinking about before, or why I was pouting. I even forgot that I was pouting. Just the idea of someone loving me the way Nathan did made me a happy little hedgehog. (A/N: A joke between a few friends of mine.)

"We're here." He whispered into my ear. I was so lost in my dream world: The real world at the moment, that I didn't notice that we had reached our destination.

I hopped off of his back and inspected the place around me. I admired this clearing, the trees around it to all sites, the little lake on one site, the hills behind it, the islands in the middle, the stream behind it, the clear water, the grass, the air, the feeling of being free, the....

"Bunny" I called out and started to run to it. It didn't move from it's position, it seemed a little frightened when I stormed over to it but it quickly relaxed when I laid my hand on it's back and started to pet it.

"Cute little bunny." I heard myself nearly squeal as I laid myself down in the grass. The bunny hopped a little closer, cuddling to my side. I hadn't thought of seeing it again but it was definitely the same one from yesterday. A small brown spot behind it's right ear marked the white bunny. It had to be the same one.

I didn't even notice Nathan coming over, before he cuddled me from behind. "I thought we'd have to hunt for a rabbit to feed it, but I took this with us just in case." Nathan said from behind me. I was just about to ask what he was talking about but at that moment a carrot popped in front of my face.

I turned my upped body as far as possible to hug Nathan and then proceeded with feeding the carrot to my little bunny. It was so cute, at first the bunny didn't want to eat the carrot but then slowly started to move it's head closer and closer, until it started eating it. And even though it's teeth moved like thunder it wasn't a very fast eater.

I just continued with petting it. I don't know why or how this bunny did it but it made me happy. Almost as happy as Nathan. As if he'd been waiting to pop up in my head he started to cuddle me closer, tracing a few kisses down my neck. I closed my eyes, I only wanted to feel him at this point. A short moan escaped my lips, I knew he wanted to hear it, so I didn't hold it back.

When the bunny was done eating I turned Nathan around, so that he was laying on his back, before placing the bunny on top of his upper body. He smiled at it, before completely focusing on me again. I let our eyes lock, losing myself and any sense of reality in the process. My heart was slowing down, just as time seemed to stop around us and I could've sworn I heard his heart slow down as well.

My breathing was stopping to exist in a way. As the air we blew out mixed in between our faces, it wasn't my breathing, or his. It started to feel like it wasn't me and him, it was us. And if we were starting to become one, I had nothing to fear.

It was that moment that made one thing clear to me: He wasn't going to deny me tomorrow. At school he wouldn't leave me hanging and ignore me again. And that was because of a few simple things.

First he wouldn't want to risk hurting me, in a toxic and aggressive environment and second he couldn't deny me. Not even if he wanted to, he couldn't. We've become too much one person in the last few days. I'm more us then anything else. And he was too.

"I love you." I whispered so silently that even the bunny wouldn't have understood it. And somehow Nathan had caught it.

"I love you too, my little bunny." He whispered back. And although it was just as silent as mine, I heard it like he whispered right into my ear.